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It is officially April 1st 2008 and I have accomplished my goal of going vegetarian for a month.

As I predicted, it was not hard. The only thing I missed was Ramen noodles haha. It was an interesting experiance, I'm glad I did it.

I fucking rock.

 

ps. If you go to myspace.com/folk&stress you will see one of my photographs in their photo album. Im so fucking kickass. I win at life.

Andi and her mom picked me up sometime between 10 and 10:30, as soon as they got there we realized me and Andi were wearing the same, My Chemical Romance, hoodie. AWESOME! haha. We drove and talked and drove and talked and talked and drove on and talked about a plethora of things including religious TSC toast, Ditzy Man(merch guy), concerts, music, friends, people, and stuff in general.

We stopped at Gurnee Mills Mall to get out of the car and checked out Hot Topic. Every time I go in there it seems bigger and better. haha. I bought 2 shirts, a zipper pull, and a necklace. Then we went off in search of the Sanrio Store, we got to the area where we thought it was but it wasnt there. We went to Claires and looked at a mall map...no more Sanrio Store it was turning into a Gymboree or something lame like that. Stupid Kids! So we left....we left out of the wrong side of the parking lot and got lost for a while and back tracked til we got back to Gurnee Mills. AWESOME. haha, we had time to waste anyway.

We drove and talked and drove and talked more and more and more until we ended up at the venue. It was not only surrounded by strip mall but it was part of one! that was interesting but incredible. We saw a guy walking around in skinny jeans, "you know what that means, its a merch guy!" haha. We left cuz it was a bit before three I believe and no one was there. We looked around for a place to eat and ended up at Boston Market(the pizza place wasnt open!) and omg we had a great lunch. Andi and I both got mashed potatoes and macaroni and cheese. It was good stuff too.  Then we went to the Goodwill right there and we bought a box of old Valentines that had silly round animals on them, we decided we would give them to Envy on the Coast and ask for some in return. We still had a lot of time left so we went to Walgreens, bought permenent markers(good idea) and we found wind up toys! so Andi got the dinosaur and I got this pink bunny that does back flips. YAY!

After Walgreens we went back to the venue...it was about 4:30. We waited in the car until we saw a red van coming, "Oh who's driving, Jer, Sal, Ryan...DAN OH MY GOD ITS DAN. AH DAN" in the girlyist screams ever. We got our stuff and got out to wait outside the doors. Two girls were in front of us. It was cold. A few more girls came right after us and stood there. The van started shaking violently, the trailer with it, Andi yelled "Thats Hot" well more like she said it loudly. Then everyone got kinda quiet. Outside people were kinda lame. After watching merch guys and roadies walk past over and over again one of them, Larry, was like "I'm going in the red van" yea..then later like 18 people piled out of the red van(maybe 12ish haha, or 8ish) and it was Envy on the Coast and comany. The girls behind us through sunflower seeds at them and kinda talked to em. Then they went inside. Then they cam back outside to bring their stuff in. Jer couldnt lift one of the amp boxes things, Brian was the last one out, "Let a real man carry this stuff!" haha.  Sal was on his cell phone forever, the last thing Andi heard him say; "I havent talked to you in like a week, but did you get my email?" or something haha.  More merch guys and roadies, a few more people started chilling outside the doors. Larry opened the side door of the trailer and gave the girls behind us an empty Capri Sun box...the door was filled with shoes...thats a lot of shoes for a band that doesnt wear em. Haha. It was really cold so Andi and I danced and talked and danced and were awesome. We drew mustaches on our fingers but no one seeemd to care or notice. Finally, after 2 hours we were let inside. They let us in, checked our ticket, let the next person in, etc. So there was really no rush to the barriar. Andi and I were front and center against the barriar holy shit(2 concerts in a row now). One fence, one stage, no space inbetween.

CallforComfort came out first. Their singer reminded us a bit of Anthony and their guitar player had red hair so it was like Lemke but his name was CJ and he was more like CJ haha, ODD. They walked around the stage while they were getting ready. The drummer had on mismatching, pokadotted socks and was like, "yeah, they're awesome. my mom has the same ones" haha. Then CJ came over and asked us if we'd ever heard them and stuff, talked to us for a bit. The singer...holy fuck, he was strange, I loved it. Before the show started he announced that he breaks shit all the time. The first lyrics of the first song wernt heard becuase he broke his mic. By the end of the first song in nose was bleeding. He asked if anyone in the crowd could bring him a napkin, a random person was lik, "or a tampon" there was soon a tampon on stage. The tampon was then in his nose. Ew. He jumped around a lot, almost hit Andi and me with his microphone while swinging it around(Adam Lazzarra style) and with his hand. Also he was banging his head right in front of us and I was sure the tampon was going to fly out and hit us which would have been disgusting but funny. I took lots of pictures :) We both said we felt a lil crowded during their half hour set becuase at some points 3 people, 2 with guitars, would be right in front of us screaming past us. but it was sweet.

The Ability came out next, they were really good, very in the crowd...all the bands were very in the crowd, and after their set I got a drumstick, broken a bit at the top but AMAZING. My first drumstick, how exciting!!!

Triumph and Parade came out, from what I remember they may have been my favorite opener that night. I cant remember, but they were good, they were pretty crazy too. I loved it. And their guitarist looked like The Butcher...like exactly like him.

Folk & Stress came out next. I was NOT expecting that at all. Wow. Yeah, so Folk & Stress came out and so did most of Envy and parts of a few other bands on the side of the stage. It was fun to watch Ryan jamming out to it, it was so cute and funny.  They were actually really good. I didnt understand parts of what they were saying but there was a point when the back-beats stopped and it was just one of them rapping...it was so meaningful and good in every way, I loved it. I mean, I felt so out of place at that point but it was good. I didnt know what to do, but it was good. haha. The crowd really wasnt into it too much, so the singer from CfC came out and started trying to hype everything up. I'd say it worked.

Brighten played next, they were extremely good, the last song, Treasure Island, was awesome. They played a good set and talked a lot about Waynes World...which is awesome. haha.

Envy on the Coast came on at about 10, opening with Sugar Skulls.  They played a 10 song set that included Temper Temper(even tho i guess its not fun for them to play anymore)!!!!! and the entire crowd sang along. I taped like 3 songs and took a lot of pictures. It was so much fun. Ryan was soooo close to me the entire time that I couldnt headbang cuz I'd hit him, and he would headbang and his dreads hit me a few times. He came into the crowd a kazillion times, always right over me, at one point I hit his microphone on accident and another the cord from the mic hit my camera n i was lik Oh No! haha. He would go into the crowd and either look out into the middle, down, or go like akwardly up and over me staring straight down at Andi and I, it was incredible. I dont even know what word to use to describe how amazing it really was.  After Vultures I politely asked them to play Temper Temper, not that they could hear me or anything, but they played that next haha. At one point in the show Brian was lik "Preach it brother Ryan, Preach it!!" ahaha it was funnny and Ryan burst out laughing.  They also did a cover of a Talib Kweli song with the help of Folk & Stress, it was really good. They closed with Mirrors and after the crowd started chanting for more they came on.  Someone asked them to play Lapse, "Lapse, you want me to play lapse..okay we'll play Lapse" were Brians words. Ryan said that we were the only crowd who actually asked them to come back on stage right away, that at all the toher venues they waited for the lights to come back on and then did so. haha.

After the set ended everyone started wondering away..Andi and I were like, what the fuck we want set lists, so we waited a few minutes and asked someone on stage to give them to us...and they did!!!! ah my first set list(besides Four Year Strongs, since i gave that away) So with setlists in hand we went to get merch and meet the bands. I got some free stickers and flyers and a tshirt. Later I went back as Larry was packing up and got a hoodie too. We met Jer first and gave him his Valentines. Then we had him sign our set list, we found out his favorite song to play live is not temper temper and is vultures. Then he was like, "i have something in my eye" and went to talk to someone else. no picture. We ended up talking to one of the guys of Folk&Stress, we told him we really liked it and he was really greatful and apprecative of that.  Then we went to meet (Uncle)Brian(our favorite nephew) and the guy from F&S came over and was lik "mm we're gonna go watch a movie and smoke some weed" and Brian acted like he was smoking weed, and then was lik "no no, i dont do drugs". Andi and I looked at eachother and looked back to him and were lik,m "really...cuz last time we met you...you told us you were our uncle" he started luaghing and was lik "welll..." hahah it was aweome. We gave him the valentines and asked him to sign our setlist. He said, "I think its so awesome when Fans get the set list, i caught one at a Thrice concert and was like all wa ahhh oohhh all slow motion" he acted out the slow motion part with silly faces. "That was when i was 17..16...no 19." haha We both got pictures with him and then he looked at them and was lik "o i look like a creepy man" or something,  im not sure. We met Sal next, but awhile we were waiting to, Brian comes up behind him and lifts him up so Sal jumped and kinda landed wierd. They did that a few times and Brian was lik "here?" with his hands on Sals waist, Sal was like "nooooooo" Brian was like "here?, Here?" moving them to his midstomach area i guess and finally to under his arms. It was funny cuz thats how our friends are.  Then we met Sal, gave him valentines and he was lik "aw thats so sweet, you girls are adorable" and we got pictures then he pointed at me and was like "you..YOU have a good night!" haha. So then we were like ah wheres Ryan, so we went to meet him. Told him how amazing he was and that every show they get better and better. He thanked us. We gave him valentines, he signed our setlist and when I asked him he said his favorite songs to play were the section he played Vultures and Get By.  Then we saw that Dan had hopped over the barriar on the stage and we couldnt really meet him meet him. But we did. We gave him the valentines and he was lik "awesome, i've never gotten valentines at the end of march before" so we hi-fived to that. Then he signed the set list saying his favorite song of theirs to play was vultures(suprise suprise) and his favortie song in general to play was something by Led Zepplin.  We got pictures with him and after i took one of him with andi he was lik "wow does it look like im in jail or something" that was ironic cuz when we first got there andi was like "this barriar makes me feel lik im in jail" haha. Then we quick met Jer again so we could get a picture, he apologized for disappearing.

On our way out we got stopped by a band at the door telling us we MUST come to the show Sunday with The Maine. We kept saying we lived to far away in WI. They asked if we were from Kenosha and then asked if we knew where Gurnee Mills was, we told him yes and he was lik "Do you know a guy named Justin hes about 20 and he's a midget? you look like you could be his sister!" hahaha..how flattering.

We drove home and kinda got lostish so we got to drive through Downtown Chicago, its so pretty haha. I was practically falling asleep but we reminized the whole way home saying how amazing it was and talked about Punk Goes Disney and made a great list of bands to play songs. from what i remember we got:

• Panic at the Disco - Zip a Dee Do Dah
• Hellogoodbye - Under the Sea
• Fall Out Boy or The Academy Is.. - I Just Cant Wait to be King
• AFI - Oogie Boogies Song
• Marylin Manson - Pour Unfortunate Souls
• The Hush Sound - A Whole New World
• Envy on the Coast - The Circle of Life

and more but im sure i forgot a lot, we talked about Rocky Horror recasts so haha. So that was the most amazing day ever. Incredible. And all with my favorite, Andi. YAY. haha. we also slightly altered our jellyfish dance. yay!

The Art of Hypocricy

The raw bold color of your actions
Contrast with your strongest statements.
You act as though you don't realize it,
What a unique argument

You hate liars, fakes, and frauds;
Creativity must be absent.
It's what everyone else is saying
Doesn't that seem a bit convinient?

Don't you see the error of your ways?
What could possibly be your intent,
To fool them. Fool us. Fool yourself.
Your self-esteem begins to ascent.

Are you ignorant to your actions,
Color blind to a certian extent?
Do you mold your hypocrisy intrictly
Has it been time well-spent?

"Actions speak louder than words" some say
Start trying to prove yourself today
Don't make it so obvious, so frequent.
Now that it's been pointed out,
Excuses you can no longer shout
They make me discontent.
Show me what you believe
Don't think me so niave
For it's you I'm beginning to resent.

my blue eyes begin to fade
as time goes bye
and i start to think that we have died
this silence cant be golden
all i want is you to hold me
and tell me im all you see
is our time up
quite a terrible assumption
are you ready to jump
this day seemed a millenium
i wondered if i'd remember him
i almost did it seems
and finally in the end
that is not the end
im hoping this not a trend

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wow, so not my best, but i felt like writing something and this is what i got :)

Nikki, Erica, and I arrived to the rave at about 6. we waited in the bar til around 6:20 when the doors opened. me and nikki were against the barriar, erica was right behind us. some guys behind us said they would give us a dollar for our spot. we told them we would be leaving after bayside.

Steel Train started. OH MY GOD they are awesome they are fun they are happy they are crazy. they're singer looks like a mix between andy samburg and sal bossio AND he had a red sweatshirt with a cow on it. amazing. . they were just so energetic that i was immediatly into it and it was great. 

Four Year Strong came out next...they were very different. they had hard guitars and were rather screamo. they're singer was gone and the guy who took over was originally on keyboard and he was like..skipping around the stage screaming his face off. then he totally took advantage of the situation and was in the crowd half the time. he went to the same spot all 5ish times and they werent really into it. there were a few people near us who were though.  at one point no one was crowd surfing, moshing, anything really and a body guard like, sprinted past us like something was happening, but nothing was. it was odd. after they got off stage i got the set list but since i didnt really enjoy them and some girl begged me for it i gave it to her. i had  a feeling i would be catching somethign that night

the wierd people behind us started chanting "nickelback nickelback" to be strange and then Bayside came on stage. holy fuck. they are amazing. Anthony kept looking at us, catching our eye and smiling and then coming over and playin in front of us. we screamed so much, at least i did, "i love you" and "jack oshea!" haha it was insane. they played a great set, i only wish they had played more. i caught a water bottle at the end.  i kept it haha. we left to go get merch.

i bought a tshirt thats tanish with a guy yelling "hey hey i got things to say" and then under him it says bayside. suprisingly the merch guy talked me down to a medium...which never happens haha. i was like "a large of that one" he was like "a large?" i was like "yeah..." hes like "a large? seriously?" so he made me get a medium..yay. haha, whatever. and then we went to steel trians merch and i got pins...i had 4 dollars left but when my mom came to pick me up i got another dollar and bought a bayside pin pack as well. we met nick and got a picture with him cuz we found sara there. then a bit later we met anthony and got is autograph and i told him i loved him and his music changed my life. then i realized anthony...nick...anthony...nick...omg anthony and nick! ahah we also met the crazy guy from steel train and he signed a napkin for me. he started out "R..E...whats next..." "its RH" ohh..makes me get a new napkin..."Rhianna -   Umbrella Rocks! So do you! <3 and then his sig.(i duno what his name is) so yea. that was fun.

then like, a merch guy and i think nick were dancing all weird listening to the starting line...it was just a really really really strange night. im glad though, cuz the rest of the day sucked, this made it all better. i also realized im seeing Envy on the Coast on Thrusday so yay. anyone wanna go to Ludo with me on sunday the 30th?

1. The Point - This is a rather low produced film, I dont believe it was ever in theaters and the animation is very simplistic, however there are some great voices throughout the film.  What really makes me love this move is the message.  The obvious one is everything has a point, or similarily, everything is pointless.  Another obvious, yet deeper, underlying, message is anti-discrimination. In the movie a boy is banished from the city where everything has pointed heads, Oblio has no point. On being banished he travels to the Pointless Forest where he meets many characters, to help him on his journey of finding himself, that teach him being different is nothing to be ashamed of.   I live by the messages of this movie. Just goes to show what good acid does for a script writer. AMAZING.

2. Lion King - I'm sure there was a time when I watched this movie every day I could.  I think that in some ways this movie helped me cope with the death of my Grandpa(who died when i was about 8ish/9ish). It was the first death I had experianced but I already knew of it through this movie. It has also taught me that bad things happen to good people and since you cant change it, try to make the best of the situation and dont let it bring you down. AKA Hakuna Matata: It means no worries for the rest of our days. Nuff Said. BEST MOVIE EVER.

3. Donnie Darko - This is a movie I only found about a year ago but holy wow. This movie changed my perspective on a lot of things, I get the chills when I watch it.  The writing, the visuals(especially in the extended version) and the underlying theme throughout is insane!  It is so eerie, sad, romantic, and happy at the same time.  I dont even know what this movie is, but I have a good enough understanding for myself that there is not enough paper(or in this case, internet space) to allow for me to attempt to explain it. Incredible. There is nothing else like it that I have seen.

4. Big Fish - How can something be so happy yet so sad at the same time? I dont even know, but it is so greatly produced, directed, and acted in that I cant help but love it. The imagery created in every scene is amazing, the color is vivid and adds to the tone of the film and even the smallest of characters are incredibly developed so that you feel for and can connect with every character. If I ever got into the movie industry, this is the kind of movie I want to make. Something that is so touching and inspiring. It makes me want to live my life to the fullest, keep trying, and be happy. I am in love with the notion of if you know how you die you know you can survive anything else, even if there is no witch to show me how I'm going to die - I still wish it were true.  Maybe one reason I enjoy it so much is that I have such a crazy imagination as the father does and I can connect through that.

5. Edward Scissorhands - I dont remember the first time I saw this; it must have been around 7th grade...but overtime I have grown to love it more and more. Again, the imagery is beautiful throughout the film, but the theme is the most important part of it. Simply, be yourself, dont be afraid of you differences. He is persecuted throughout the seemingly 'perfect' community after one rumor starts, after everyones fears seem to become a reality.

6. Saved -  Ha, when I bought this I hoped my mom wouldnt want to watch it with me. It probably is the first "obscure" movie I ever watched. The idea intrigued me but I didnt think it would be appropriate. Besides falling in love with Patrick Fugit for a few years following, it really put some of my ideas into words. It helped me understand more what I was beginning to think. It is definitly the best film of teenage pregnancy(some may argue Juno, I disagree).  This movie touches on so many more subjects and is so much more important to see. She handles the situation as a real girl would, and she really finds herself in it. I love it.

7. Dogma - Like Saved, this put a lot of my religious thoughts into words for me. I only just saw it around a year ago as well, but when I did I was basically just like, DUH, THIS IS WHAT IVE BEEN TRYING TO SAY! Have a general idea of a god, religion, history, whatever. Believe what you want and be who you are. Why wouldnt a god love everyone? OH, and it introduced me to the characters Jay and Silent Bob which lead me to every other movie they're in. The most hilarious things ever.

8. SLC Punk - When I started highschool I had just got out of my Jesse McCartney, Hiliry Duff phase, I was towards the end of my The Killers, Good Charlotte phase and was about to enter the My Chemical Romance, Green Day, Fall Out Boy, From First to Last, Motion City Soundtrack, Taking Back Sunday, Tegan and Sara, Say Anything phase(s). I saw this movie last year around Christmas and loved it immediatly. With the surrounding words of 'emo' 'goth' 'poser' 'punk' and 'rebel' constantly floating around, this movie was like, oh so thats what punk is. I sort of aspire to live like that, well, closer to Heroin Bob(i have anger issues and im straightedge) but yeah....what was I saying? Oh yea, I duno, grow up but dont sell out, what a tagline!

9. Into the Wild - Just added yesterday, holy shit, this is what I want to do.  Many people, as myself, had probably not heard of this previously, but I took a chance and bought it out of the blue.  It is about a boy coming from a rich family who has just graduated college and ran away. No, he didnt just run away, he changed his life. He donates his money to charity, drives his car to the middle of the desert and burns the rest of the money he has on him.  He lives on the road, walking, hitch hiking, and kayaking through America and Mexico to make it to Alaska. He meets many unique individuals along the way that teach him so many things.  I just realized that this movie is like a grown up, more mature and straightforward, live actor version of The Point. Oh. My. Jeezez. That is amazing. Of course, the ending is very different and his reasoning is very different and the imagery in this, is ohmyjeezez I felt like just laying outside enjoying the grass and blue sky however our grass and blue skys are covered in snow. Happiness is only true when shared.

10. The Breakfast Club - Last but most definetly not least. My mom let me watch this when I was about in fourth grade. I liked it but she realized that maybe it was not age appropriate so I revisited it in around 7th grade and loved it all over again. There is so much character development and suprisingly a lot of action for a film set basically in one room. Every idea, every line of this movie means something to me. I dont need to describe this movie or explain myself, all I need to do is say go watch it. If you are human you will understand that this is what life is.

We're So Starving - Interesting and fun idea to open a cd with, especially one with a 3 year wait and such big hype.

Nine in the Afternoon - Everyone has already heard this, but besides the band loyalty of PATD, this song is what is sure to draw crowds. It's playful, upbeat, and crazy cool.

She's a Handsome Woman - Something makes me not enjoy this one too much. I'm not sure what it is, maybe its just me :)

Do You Know what I'm Seeing - I especially like the lyrics on this one, it sounds good together and its somewhat catchy for a slowerish song. okay so its not slow...but its not fast...'chut up!'

That Green Gentleman(Things have Changed) - omg this is where the cd title comes from! that automatically makes it good. haha jk. it immediatly drew me into the song with fast vox seperated by guitar and such as music does. mm i like this one, a lot. it should be playing in a teen movie and a outcast child is walking down the hallways of a new school looking at what he/she will be living with for the rest of their highschool years. mm really good, "thats okay, i feel the same, im on my way and i say things have changed for me, and thats okay i feel the same.." i like the way it sounds when he sings that. hahaha. i really like this one!

I have Friends in Holy Spaces - makes me want a overcoat, cane, and top hat and i want to dance down the street with a small band playing behind me. i want birds and trees and ridiculousness! the silence and then small bit of music is sort of confusing. i dont know how much i actually like this song or how quality it is, but its a fun lil bit :P)

Northern Downpour - this may be the best Brendon Urie's voice has ever sounded! im completly in love with it, its like, holy shit, that sounds good! like really good. I've been rather borderline in a love/hate relationship with his voice, but this...yayness. its so sweet and cute and i just love it. clever lyrics that all just work with the song. its so nice, its so good, thats the only way i know how to describe this song. its so good and different from their first cd, like it so mature but still Panicky! ya know?!?!?! .....you know. although it kinda drags itself on in the end, its still good.

When The Day Met the Night - I take back that his voice sounded its best in the previous song, insert that comment here. holy shit. i didnt know his voice was capable of such good sound! the voice starts out kinda contradicting the music in an interesting way and then goes completly in sync with it and its fun and 'summer'y ahaha. its an interesting combo from slow to fast, deep to higher pitched. mmm deliousness, makes me want to give a small cute child with pigtails a lollipop and stuffed animal. haha. i love my descriptions of this stuff.

Pas De Cheval - the beginning is all cool and makes me want to listen more. mm it sounds good so far, i like how the vox are so far...oo i like it! its all ahhh. haha. oh its so playful! its like, so fun! thats how i describe patd, fun. thats what they are. its fun. makes me bounce back and forth with a silly grin on my face. i want to sing along! oh damn, i do not know the lyrics! how fun. this is what i pictured this cd being. i think this is what i expecteed of this cd. oh fucking sweet guitar. thats nice!

The Piano Knows Something I Dont Know - interesting beginning....oh after that akwardness i want to dance, whats coming next? oh its nice too, fancy puroets!(i cant spell) i like it, this is what i expected this cd to sound like too. this and the other one really say panic to me! like, woohoo! also makes me bounce back and forth. good shit. i dont like it when it gets slower tho. thats annoying. otherwise itsgood.

Behind the Sea - holy wowza. i was not expecting that! like...not at all! i am immediatly captivated. is a mermaid singing this?!?!?!?!! it sounds all...i dont know....like, you know how in the little mermaid all the fishies and mermaids etc sing together...someone needs to make an amv of this on youtube with clips from tlm. i think i like it just becuase its very different from most mainstream music. on a more personal level i duno yet. omg from like 2:35 on..its lke where the hell is ponnochio...i like disney music. haha. picture him dacning around with ariel ahaha

Folkin Around - rodeo time. haha. its good though. im glad its as short as it is. any longer would have gotten annoying

She had the World - it sounds nice and is very good and dandy, its really sweet. im not sure how much i enjoy it. but its really cute, like, aw haha. however, that other voice in their is just deliciousness. mm mmm. its really cute, but something about it just makes me want to see what the next song is. maybe im too ADD for this song.

From a Mountain in the Middle of the Cabins - i do rather wish the vocals would have come in a bit sooner, especially after the last song. but dayum, once they start its like yay. makes me think of bambi for some reason. like all the grass, the deer, thumper! aw!!!(omg for some reason i just pictured deer soulja boy-ing picture it!!!! do it, like visualize it!! ahahaha) back to the song, tis good, his voice sounds so different, like i would be able to tell it was him if i heard it randomly, but its a bit different, in a good way.   the whistling, i duno how i feel about that, it makes it seem very commercially, its not bad though

Mad as Rabbits - makes me sway and dance in a funny way. again, the extra vox really add to it! nice note to end on. its def. not the best song on the cd, but its not the worst. its a nice average tone of the cd and its good. it doesnt really make me want more more more, but it makes me content with the cd, a good closing. i conquer.

Diehards arent determined by knowledge of pictures, music videos, chronology, or personal lives; its determined by true love for the music and its meaning.
and with that said, it cant be measured in any way shape or form.

"get this: Na Zdrowie!

that is the working title for a new short film collaboration between myself and a few friends. Shane nelson(http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0625738/)will be producing. I wrote the script and will be directing. kristina klebe(http://www.imdb.com/name/nm1640351/)will be acting in it. As well as patrick stump(http://www.imdb.com/name/nm2079998/). notice how i am the only one not on imdb. sad face. without going into too much detail i will tell you this: the story involves a down on his luck businessman and a ukranian maid that is actually a doctor. yeah. that doesn't tell you much. but it will be fantastical when completed."

-posted by Justin Pierre of motion city soundtrack in his latest journal entry at motioncitysoundtrack.com

i cant wait.

"you walk by a group of quote unquote, normal people, and chuckel to yourself patting yourself on the back as you scoff. its the same superiority complex shared by the highschool jocks who made your life a living hell"

So. Let me start out with this; EVERYONE is insecure, unsure of themselves, and intimidated and some point in their life. EVERYONE! No matter how pretty, popular,  or preppy they are. No matter how many friends they have, how happy they act, and how confident they seem. There is more to it than that. This is something that is probably known by a lot of people(especially girls) but it's not acknowledged as much as it should be!

We have ALL been in that position where you feel uncomfortable and unsure of who you are. Whether its a certin person, group of people, or anything else, you know it. I know it. There are some people that make me doubt myself so much that I dont know what to do and suddenly all that I've ever tried to be, all my thoughts and beliefs, my personality seem worthless for just a second.  It happens to the best of us. Thats the way life is.  The fact that this happens to everyone at some point, even just for half a second, should be enough to teach us not to make someone feel that way. Yet we do, day after day, we do...and sometimes we dont even realize it.

I have been looked down upon for my decisions and beliefs, the way I act, and the way I dress. You have too. Why should people be looked down upon becuase they're different? DIFFERENT. EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT. Ms. Kuhry told our class about a boy in a class in Califorinia or something that was openly gay around his school. He had a lot of friends and was very popular but was very different, besides being gay.  One day in class another student walked up to him, took a pistol out of his jacket, and shot him in the back of the head. Simply for being DIFFERENT. Differeneces shouldnt be prosecuted, yet they are. 

I know its easy to look down upon someone. It's easy to think you're better than someone for whatever reason. I've thought about it. I try not to. There is a girl in my class(nikki and andi you know who I mean). I know nothing about her but what I've heard from other people. To sum it up, she's dumb, preppy, ditzy, and slutty. I have never talked to her, but hearing that description, would I want to? I have no problems with her, despite hearing this. From being in her class it seems that she matches a few of those descriptions...but sometimes it seems like an act. Whether or not it is an act or whether or not it is accurate shouldnt matter. It is her decision, her life, that is the way SHE is. And she shouldnt be looked down upon becuase of that.  She added our band on myspace and I looked at it. I read things along the lines of, "i get intimidated around people. especially other girls" wow. that is a very honest statement, isnt it? i think so. I think that that simple yet deep statement can sum up when im trying to say. This girl looks like she has jillions of friends and couldnt be happier, but shes still insecure. everyone is still insecure, despite their accomplishments and who they are.

It annoys the fuck out of me when people act like they are better than others. Especially when those people have experiance first hand themselves. Why dont we stop this cycle of judgement and hate? It's about time.

So. You may or may not know, I am going vegetarian for the month of March. This is gonna be somewhat hard only becuase I am a picky eater, however, I rarely eat meat anyway.  Basically by 'vegetarian' I mean I am not going to eat meat or things similar. Im still eating eggs and milk and stuff becuase I'm lame. No fish though. I dont understand it when people will not eat animals but they will eat fish, that makes no sense. I really don't think this will be too hard for me.

I want to do this for a few reasons, mainly to prove I can do it. Today is Day 1.

I woke up and did nothing. I got hungry at 4...a few minutes ago haha. I went upstairs to get food, I was thinking Chicken FLAVORED Ramen...yea...bad idea. That magic lil flavor packet has chicken fat and dried chicken in it. That just sounds disgusting. So...needless to say I made spagettios(no meatballs) instead. Of course I scanned the ingrediants first just to make sure. haha. My mom is soooooooooooooooooooo annoyed I'm going vegetarian for month, she keeps trying to convince me not to. She is weird.

So...I love Ramen. But hey, its just a month, right.  One downfall I sort of see coming out of this is that I'm gonna try to keep track of what I eat so that I can show my mom, just becuase she doesnt think I eat good enough.  The whole keeping track of that just sort of brings me back to that one summer... I wont fall back into that, I know, but it still is kinda lame.

So. You may or may not know, I am going vegetarian for the month of March. This is gonna be somewhat hard only becuase I am a picky eater, however, I rarely eat meat anyway.  Basically by 'vegetarian' I mean I am not going to eat meat or things similar. Im still eating eggs and milk and stuff becuase I'm lame. No fish though. I dont understand it when people will not eat animals but they will eat fish, that makes no sense. I really don't think this will be too hard for me.

I want to do this for a few reasons, mainly to prove I can do it. Today is Day 1.

I woke up and did nothing. I got hungry at 4...a few minutes ago haha. I went upstairs to get food, I was thinking Chicken FLAVORED Ramen...yea...bad idea. That magic lil flavor packet has chicken fat and dried chicken in it. That just sounds disgusting. So...needless to say I made spagettios(no meatballs) instead. Of course I scanned the ingrediants first just to make sure. haha. My mom is soooooooooooooooooooo annoyed I'm going vegetarian for month, she keeps trying to convince me not to. She is weird.

So...I love Ramen. But hey, its just a month, right.