Yesterdays Pictures Are Old News

I read the journal entry for this idea, this day. It triggered a revelation. I AM HAPPY. Let me further explain; this has been something in the works for a little less than a year.

Around April of 2006 I made the stupidest decision of my life that led to even worse events. The end of May of 2007 I made a choice, it changed my life for the better, made me a stronger, smarter person. Now, being almost March of 2008 I have finally realized to a great extent how much things have changed.  I have been happier since that May. I have had a few low times, but nothing compared to the times during the year previous to that.  Yesterday was a down day for me. I was thinking about the past. When I read that journal entry that explained "Very Much Alive" it triggered it. I am Happy. Stupid little things will always bother me, but they wont get the best of me. I cant and WONT let that happen ever again. I am happy with every aspect of my life right now, I cant even begin to describe it. And in around 3 months, May 26th, I will proudly be able to know that I have made up for the year of my life I wasted. Its all good now. Lets make it stay that way.

like, drive drive, i would do something impulsive and fun.

i would steal you away in the middle of the day
and take you to another place
we would forget this town
and all the people
driving
living
loving
laughing
singing along to our favorite songs
and catching eachothers eyes

id swerve back and forth on an empty road
as long as your smile succeeds
we could stop before we tire
and run as far as we can
stopping and resting
just to hold hands
falling into the rocky sand

make memories and living it up
pretending there was no tomarrow
be as we wanted
live as we've dreamed
together at last
just you and me
alone
where smiles mean more than laughter
and eyes never cry
hugs could last a lifetime
and theres only one answer to why:
becuase i love you

and as we endlessly run out of breath
our hearts beating in sync
we'd get back in the car
drive home, very far
back to everything else
family
friends
work
school
and being together when we can
catching eachothers eyes

back to our life that we've always known
refreshed from our short escape
we found the meaning of life
its too simple to tell
and the only thing left to say
let the chips fall where they may

(wow, i've felt like writing something the last few days. this worked. haha)

He lives through the umbilical cord to his mom
the womb is all that he knows
floating in plasma
listening to voices
The heart beat and mothers soul

All alone he starts to grow
While his life is just beginning
Terrified of the outside
To start his life
He crawls like a kid from the womb
(ALL ALONE)
Crawls like a kid from the womb

Out of her uterus
The weight pushes him crying
Must have hurt like hell
Minute contractions
of pushing his head out
Probably hurting her behind
(her behind)

All alone he starts to grow
While his life is just beginning
Terrified of the outside
To start his life
He crawls like a kid
Crawls like a kid from the womb
(ALL ALONE)
(ALL ALONE)
(Crawls like a kid from the womb)
(Crawls like a kid)
(Crawls like a kid from the womb)

All he knows
when he starts to  grow
He has ten toes
He crawls like a kid
Crawls like a kid from the womb

Out of her uterus
The weight pushes him crying
Must have hurt like hell

All alone he starts to grow
While his life is just beginning
Terrified of the outside
To start his life
He crawls like a kid from the womb
Crawls like a kid from the womb

All alone
While his life's just beginning
(Holding his breath half to death)
Terrified
To save his life
He crawls like a kid
(CRAWLS LIKE A KID)
Crawls like a kidfrom the womb
(ALL ALONE)
Crawls like a kid from the womb
(ALL ALONE)
Crawls like a kid from the womb
(ALL ALONE)
Crawls like a kid
Crawls like a kid
Crawls like a kid from the womb