Yesterdays Pictures Are Old News

Nikki, Erica, and I arrived at The Rave around 6 and met up with Miriam and Amber outside right away. We waited around 15 mins(well, thats what it felt like, I have no idea) before we actually got in. We got in and Erica went to buy her ticket. I went to the restroom, and Nikki went to find Andi, Adam, Anthony, and Sarah.  Then me Erica, Nikki, and Sarah forced our way into the middle of the crowd. The crowd was BITCHY beyond all belief. I'm just glad that with all the closeness that there was I was surrounded by people I knew. 

The Cab opened and immediatly everything got more squished, no suprise, but the crowd was sooooo unbelievebly lame that me Nikki and Sarah got out of there. We bought merch and left it with Andi's mom. Then we had our own super cool fun party dance time. We continued the dance party through We the Kings, I think that's when Erica came out too, I'm not sure.

Once Metro Station started a pushed my way back into the crowd and was right by Anthony the whole time. Adam and Andi were a bit ahead of us and I had no idea where anyone else was. The crowd was still lame, there were a bunch of girls behind me yelling "where's trace?" before they even started. it was fucking annoying, but Metro is so dancibly sex-filled(dancegasmic)that I can honestly say I didnt mind the guy behind me for once(Anthony...not some weird stranger!) So that was really fun. I was coughing the whole time but thats okay. It was still nice. I have NO recollection of the song order at all. I just remember that during either Seventeen or Wish We Were Older, or something, I dont even know, maybe it was California...it was great, but then like right after I got pushed way forward and he got pushed way back and then we ended up next to eachother.

Once Metro was done me and Anthony and Erica got drinks and me nikki and sarah searched for Mason Musso. There was an extremely huge mob around Trace so me and Erica didnt meet him. but we did meet Mason. I asked him to sign a little card picutre thing from Hoopla and he did and I told him he was amazing and got a picture too. Sarah told him he had nice shoes and he like stuck out his foot and was lik "yea?" haha. Then Nikki asked him to sign her pants and he got down on his knees. AHAHA. Same thing with Sarah. I wish I had a camera so I could have taken a picture of that becuase it was quite magical. We kept walking around and saw Blake and just gave him a hifive and left him.

Finally Cobra Starship started and I made my way back into the crowd(hesitently) and I ended up right by Miriam and then a little ahead of her. I finally got closer to Adam and asked where Anthony was, he said he left. I got out of there becuase the crowd was LAME. I looked around for anyone after that and found Amber, then I left her and found Sarah Erica and Anthony so I stood by them and we all watched Cobra from our nice little spot.  A while later Andi came out becuase she had an anxiety attack so I waited with her til her mom came and then went back by everyone else. Then Andi came back and Miriam chilled with us for a bit.  When Guilty Pleasure came on we all danced and it was magical.

Afterwords we met Blake again. I asked him to sign a picture of a blizzard becuase it was cold and not really snowy tho and he was lik "yea, i Like the cold though" and i was lik "yea me too..its better than being warm" and sarah was lik "you can cuddle up to people to make warm in the cold" and he was like "yeah..." and kinda just stood there and it was akward becuase we were done talking. I walked away Then Alex magically appeared behind Nikki so I asked him to sign a picture of a rave becuase we were at the rave and he was lik "oh i thought those were ghosts, which makes sense becuase the basements haunted" then i got a pic with him.  When sarah went to have him sign her pants she was lik "can you sign my pants,and be creative!" and nikki was like "YOU WHORE!" and he was lik "WOAH, woah woah woah...WHORE!" and pointed at Sarah and it was hilarious!" . A few minutes later I met Trace and got my picture with him. Before that though I handed him a picture of a boy playing with a slinky and said "can you sign this picture of a slinky beucase they're fun and so are you" then his gf Hannah Beth said soemthing I couldnt hear and then we took the picture. That silly bottleface bottle nose top shelf vending machine baby frog hannah montanas brother spidermonkey freek. ahahahaha. i love it tho i do.  Then we waited FOREVER to meet Gabe and andi almost had another anxiety attack. but i did convince her to take a few stalker pics while waiting. we finally got there and we got a huge group picture with all of us and him and gabe was lik "okay tall people back" and i told him he was as tall as the cieling and he was lik "yea but im gonna be in the middle of everyone, you can come down by me too" so I did and then he was lik "that's not how you do it!" and i was lik "ah!" haha n we got a picture of that n then another one normal and cool and it was amazing. Then i handed him a picture of a UFO and was lik "can you sign this, its a ufo, cuz you're out of htis world. .... . and that was really corny..but corn is good" and he signed it and yea. As we were leaving Nikki mentioned Hey Aunt Jemima and he asked us to send him the link so thats AMAZING. aha.

STOP DOMESTIC VIOLENCE
STOP MURDER
STOP HATE

Today marks the four year anniversy of my cousin, Angie's violent death.  I've tried to keep it out of my head today and not let it affect my attitude or personality but it most likely has, so this is my explanation and reasoning.

Four years ago this morning I woke up to my brother telling me my cousin had died. Soon after that her husband was dead. Hours later that he had murdered her. Maybe a week later we found out he had tried to kill their two children as well and she was pregnant at the time.
I spent all day with the thought of him hurting her haunting my mind and thinking how things went wrong. Only he knew what happened, only he will ever know the freakish, sick, things that went on in his mind that caused him to do such a horrible thing. I think about this every other day, but today was just very, I dont know the word, nostalgic maybe.

I remebered the exact things I did all day four years ago. I tried to think of how her kids felt, and how they feel now. They have no parents. They live with their dads brother in Georgia. I do not see how that is even possible.

If I've ever asked a favor or request of you, this is it. Don't EVER EVER stay in an abusive relationship, be an abusive person, or stand by while someone is hurt. Everyone deserves life. Everyone deserves to be loved, NOT HURT, by people close to them. Don't let this happen to anyone else, this is truely a tradgedy that I cannot stand.

Most Seriously and Sincerely,
Rhianna.

 Buzznet has been and always will be filled with music fans. Duh. From Misfits fans to Hannah Montana wannabees there will be battles of words arguing whos better(Misfits, no contest). Every day, headlines are about 'punk', 'emo', and everything else under the sun. I understand that. I understand that people will always hate eachothers music and that no matter how many people are against online arguments(that are about nothing) there will be the people who still feel the urge to say things about how someone sucks, are horrible, or a disgrace.

REALLY?!?!?!???!???!?!??! Really, is Miley Cyrus a disgrace to punk music becuase she wore her hair weird for an episode of her fictional television show? I dont think so. Yeah, I could be considered a punk, emo, kid. I go to concerts all the time, dye my hair funky colors, and seem as though I could rebel against athority, but if I'm bored, I will watch anything from Paranormal State to Wife Swap to (OMG) Hannah Montana. Hannah Montana is the Lizzie Maguire of these few years. I could care less if it's a disney channel show or that girl has the most annoying voice in the world. There is no way I would go to one of her jillion dollar concerts.

But regardless of what I watch on tv or my so called lable, the real point of this blog thingie is not Hannah Montana or Highschool Musical, no, it is the meaning of punk. The same kids who are on this site and many others calling any band stupid, or lame, or gay, or anything else because they're 'posers' or 'act punk' are calling Fall Out Boy punk. Those same people who act like they are above everyone else in their rebelious, 'no one understands me' ways are calling Panic at the Disco, Fall Out Boy, Paramore, My Chemical Romance, and The All Time Low, PUNK. How could someone really compare a band like <insert band name that everyone considers punk> to a band like The Ramones or The Sex Pistols? How does Fall Out Boy compare to Green Day, Paramore compare to The Misfits?!?!?!?!!!

I dont claim to be some huge music expert. I like it. I listen to it daily. I listen to a lot of different stuff, regardless of its genre. I claim I dont like country or rap, but of course there are those exceptions of Eminem and The Forecast. But when The Jonas Brothers are called PUNK something is wrong. Punk is a raw, angsty energy. It isnt accoustic, it isnt punk, and it isn't about perfect pitch. PUNK is a true feeling, it shows the best and worst of someone with harsh yelling vocals that somehow end up melodic and angry and the same time with violent drum beats and screaming guitar riffs. It isn't about perfection or fashion or mtv. It's not about merch or hair or tight jeans. It is about a feeling it gives you. Any of the mentioned bands could give you that feeling, have that sound, or look that way, and they could be or have been called punk.

TRUE PUNK barely exists these days. It is hard to find. It's like a prize in a cereal box. When is the last time you found one of those? When's the last time you've even tried?  Most of the music that passes off for punk is pop punk, pop, 'emo', indie, alternative, or whatever else. People who say that pop punk doesnt exist is crazy. Of course it does. Blink 182, Fall Out Boy, etc etc are the perfect examples. Pop Punk is the little sister of real punk. and thats not neccessarily a bad thing. Lables shouldnt be taken into consideration when looking for a new band or sound. If you really want to find new music, go to the store and pick out a random cd with a cool looking cover and give it a try. Search a random phrase on purevolume and choose a band at random. Don't like a band becuase soemone calls them punk or anything else and dont hate a band becuase they're supposedly a pop princess. It doesnt matter. Like what you like, not becuase of what other people say!

So wow. THAT my friends, is my rant of the day. I feel like I rarely rant anymore. I really have no need at this point. This topic was just recently brought up as I spent the whole day doing nothing in a bookstore with my friends on our day off. We're lame like that, but this is what happens.

Closing note: the music industry is HYPOCRITICAL. silly children, saying things like they want acceptance and dont want to be judged by the way they look are going against everyhting they supposedly stand for every single day. I'm Out.

ohmyjeezez

yea..so today was wow.
haha, i feel like such a loser(in a good way?)
really..today was the first time i've ever felt loved as more than a friend or family member
like...i duno....it's wow. I really wasn't expecting it at all...

like, ya know that feeling ya get when your waiting outside in below zero weather, waiting to meet your favorite band after the best show ever? your stomach is kinda in knots, your shaking from the cold and nervs and you cant decide if you feel really good or almost sort of sick? thats almost how i felt today. really. all last night and all of today i must have had a retarded grin on my face, even when i wasnt thinking about it. that has to be ONE of the greatest feelings ever.

i'm such a sap. i cant even help it
although..that silly whore anthony did tell everyone before i even had the chance to haha. thats okay tho...obviously.

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i also did not realize how weird it would be moving from friends to well..yea haha. like really...it's kinda akward, but a nice akward. really nice. haahaha. 
i got a lot of shit about it from mariah and a-man-duh but really, that doesnt matter.
i dont know how to act now...not like act, like not be me, but like...i duno. it seems a lil different. heh. 
it is really weird goin from friends to more

I DONT KNOW HOW TO BE A GIRLFRIEND

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i really do hope i didnt upset anyone during AP or in general. really, it's the first day we're going out, im gonna hang out with him ya know. and i wasnt like just hanging out with him but i felt like a few people were mad or annoyed by me....

aww yay me.

anthony just asked me out

and i said yes

and i was honestly kinda expecting it tehe

but yay.then i told erica n nikki

then robert came in and said joey asked if i was going out with anyone

and then adam told me im not single anymo

and yay

Fall Out Boy was going on the Nintendo Fusion Tour with a few other bands, one being Motion City Soundtrack. They had been around for a while, but I had never heard of them.  When Patrick invited me to come with them as a merch girl, well, it's safe to say I was estatic.  I hated being in a solitary place. I hated being alone. Being on tour would keep me constantly moving, around lots of people, and music blasting in my ears constantly. I never realized how perfect of a life it could really be.  I agreed of course and started packing. He kinda asked me last minute, the tour started the next day.  I knew not to pack heavily, i brought a bag full of clothes and other neccessities.  Then a backpack with my laptop, zune, and a few other things.  I couldn't wait.

I drove with all of Fall Out Boy, plus some in a small van all the way to the first venue where our bus was waiting. It was a long 5 hour ride and very squished. Just a small taste of tour life. As weird as that is, I liked it.  We finally got to the venue and stretched out and walked around. I saw a guy walking around with some crazy stick up hair and odd glasses. He was holding a beer in one hand and a newspaper in the other. He seemed different. Not like anyone else you saw every day walking down the street. I assumed he was some kid working at the venue or waiting for the show. It didn't really click that he could be in a band.  Fall Out Boy's manager gathered us all up with the other bands a confusing busy hour later.  I was seated between Patrick and Andy, we were all in a group circle, I was across from the guy I had saw previously that night. Then I realized, he was part of one of the bands. We all took turns introducing ourselves like we were in grade school. Say your name, what you do, and something for us to know you by. "I'm Andy. I play drums in Fall Out Boy. I'm a straightedge vegan." said Andy. My turn, "I'm Carolina. I'm gonna be selling merch for Fall Out Boy. I, uh, like poptarts?" yea, there's nothing unique about me, that's the greatest thing I could think of. Next it was Patricks turn, "I'm Patrick. I play guitar and sing in Fall Out Boy. I like Bowie."  Eventually it got to be the crazy-haired guys turn, I wondered what he would say. "I'm Justin. I sing and play some stuff for Motion City Soundtrack. I have a horrible memory and like to..uhhh...wait one thing ha." he said the whole thing rather nervously looking up and done, everywhere. He had a different beer in his hand. He was problaby just nervous, it was the kickoff show of probably their first tour.

After everyone told us who they were we were given a short pep talk and we had to all get to work. Joe and Andy helped me move a few fold out tables to the merch area while Pete and Patrick were working on vocals. They helped me carry a box or two of tshirts before leaving me to fend for myself. I set up the tables next to Motion City's.  A blond girl full of tattoos, I had seen sitting next to Justin, was working theirs. Pinning tshirts to the board behind her and laying out their old EP's and some CDs.  She saw me setting up too. "Hey, I'm Beth." she said, sticking out her hand. I shook it. What a formal greeting. "I'm Carolina." I replyed. She was friendly. By the end of that night we would be best friends. People would come up to me asking for MCS merch, and vice versa, we ended up talking alot, especially during the show while everyone was busy watching.  We could listen but we coudlnt see the stage. For some reason, I assumed she was dating Justin.  She talked about him a lot. But I talked about Patrick a lot and we weren't dating.  Is that hypocracy? I'm not sure. Either way, we talked the whole time, I found out a lot about Justin and she probably found out a lot about Patrick. We were pretty much the only two girls on the tour. Fun.

1. How did you first get interested in music, when did you start playing?

My dad would play his acoustic guitar every day after work. He was totally in his own world. My sister and I would try to talk to him and he would just play. It made us so mad, but I think it had a positive impact on me. That was when i realized that music could be an escape. My family would also always go see my grandfather play guitar and fiddle in his country band. I first started playing the drums when I was 5. I got a toy drum set for Christmas that year. 

2. Who are some of your musical influences?

Radiohead, Mute Math, Regina Spektor, Death Cab For Cutie, Rilo Kiley, Beatles, Fugazi, Jawbox, Drive Like Jehu, Jimmy Eat World, Mastodon, Elliott Smith, Guns N Roses, Sunny Day Real Estate, Iron Maiden, Justin Timberlake, Talib Kweli, Mew.. the list could go on and on. 

3. What are 5 songs that changed your life and why?

"Can You Still Feel the Butterflies" by Jimmy Eat World - This song popped up at a time in my life when i really needed it.

"Airbag" by Radiohead - Colin Greenwood's playing in this song made me reevaluate the role of a bass player.

"Deaf On Corner" by Lazycain - A friend of mine put this song on a mixtape for me back when I was in college. It must have listened to this song 500 times in a row. There's a raw energy to this song that I can't explain. It was only released on a now-out-of-print 7". I recommend trying to find a version online somewhere though. You never know what Google can do for you.

"One" by Metallica - I saw the video on MTV when i was 10 or so and immediately had my parents take me to the mall to buy the tape. Yes, i said tape. This was the first real metal album I ever owned. It opened the flood gates for my love of metal.

"Charlie Brown Theme" by Vince Guaraldi - This was the first song I ever performed alone in front of an audience. It was my first and only piano recital. It was the least fun I've ever had.

4. If you could work with any musician who would it be?

I'd have Francis Rocco Prestia show me a thing or two on the bass.

5. You came to the band a bit later on, around 2002. How did you come to be in the band?

I had played with Tony in an older band from our hometown of Richmond, Virginia. We met MCS on a tour that we did in 2000 and became friends with them. He eventually joined the band in early 2002. He was home from tour in June 2002 and informed me that they might need a new bass player. I immediately offered my services. We were in a car headed for Minneapolis a few short days later.

6. Because of when you came to the band, many fans are wondering if you were playing on the released song, "Throwdown" on the Schatzi Split EP?

Yes I did play on that song.

7. So what is the writing process like?

We usually tend to spend about a month in a room bouncing ideas around. An idea can begin with anyone in the band. Sometimes we'll have a song structured in minutes. Sometimes it'll take months. Sometimes we'll play an idea for several minutes and if it doesn't go anywhere we'll trash it. It all depends.

8. Who writes most of the music/lyrics?

We all contribute musically. Justin writes the lyrics although he always welcomes the ideas of everyone else in the band. If we ever have a suggestion, he's open to change.

9. On motioncitysoundtrack.com it was announced you would be releasing a new music video soon. Can you tell us what it is and when it will be out, or is that some confidential info?

The video is for "It Had To Be You". It's part of a contest with MTVu where we selected a student filmmaker to direct it. We got several treatments and had to choose a winner based on their video treatment idea, past work, etc. We're not positive about the release date. I'm guessing February. That's only a guess!

10. What is your favorite Motion City song and why?

My favorite right now is Last Night. Don't tell anyone, but I actually cranked it up super loud while driving today.

11. What is your favorite song to play live?

This usually changes from time to time also, but right now it's Hello Helicopter.

12. What is your weirdest encounter on tour?

There are many. One night in the Fall of 2005 Jay-Z and Beyonce came to a show to see Fall Out Boy while we were on tour with them. He's a lot taller and she's a lot smaller than I realized. That was a very strange evening.

13. If you weren't a musician, what would you be doing?

I'd be jealous of musicians.

14. What do you think makes Motion City Soundtrack such a unique and different band?

 I think there are a few things: we have an analog synth, Justin has a unique voice, and we sing about everything from Night Court to JC Penney commercials to cordon bleu.

15. Many Bands have a message or statement they're trying to convey through their music to their fans. What do you think that is for Motion City?

Have fun and don't ever take yourself too seriously. I think Justin likes to sing about certain things as therapy for himself, but a lot of the time we'll get email from people who find therapy in his lyrics. It's a nice cycle. 

This always happens.  I fall in love with my best friends. First it was Patrick, yes, Patrick Stump.  No, not becuase he's in Fall Out Boy, this was weeks before he even joined the band. Well, probably a month or two, but still.  I met Patrick at a bookstore where he was working, I admit, he looked pretty nerdy but I needed help finding a biography of David Bowie to read while on vacation.  As soon as I asked, he pulled a copy of Strange Fascination; David Bowi - A Definitive Story out from behind the counter where he sat. "Like this one?" he asked with a shy smile.  I liked him already.  He walked me to the shelf where the book was for sale.  I must have been flirting like crazy, he had nothing more but that smile on his face.  I couldnt tell if he was flirting back or just being nice, but I liked him. 

Over the next two weeks I found myself coming up with reasons to go back to the bookstore.  I went for gifts for friends, in my free time when I was bored, and whenever I 'needed' a new book or cd.  Of course I was really going there to see him. I felt rather stalkerish, but somethign about his cute smile and his natural charm made me fall for him faster than I have for any guy before him.  One day while I was browsing the magazine racks him came by, restacking the shelves.  I really hoped he remembered me at this point.  I had been there at least three times since David Bowie and never had he'd shown more than a smile and a glimer in his eye of recognition.  He worked at a popular bookstore. He had regular customers, why should I be any difference? Why did I think he remembered me?  I soon found out that he did.  He asked me about the book, I asked him his name, Patrick. He asked me mine, and I asked for his number, I called him the next morning, requesting a friendly lunch date with myself, Carolina. He knew it was me.  We became close friends, nothing more. Really...Nothing more. Not that I didnt think about it, I constantly wished that he would like me as more than a friend. I guessed that maybe he did even.  No guy had ever been that nice and I had never felt this way before.

The same week that he meet Pete Wentz was the week that he asked out Lindsey.  The day he partied with Pete was when she flirted much less than I ever did, but it was also the first night they kissed.  I was at that party too.  I was going to try to hint at him that I wished our friendship was something more, but once I saw him having so much fun with her, I couldnt. I couldn't bring myself to put him in such a situation.  As much as it pained me to see them together, I stayed by his side. I was their third wheel. I was the 'other girl' at band practice. I became what some might call, friends, with her.  She chatted with me about how great Patrick was, how fun their date was, how far they got, and numerous other stories.  I didn't talk as much. I agreed and nodded when she mentioned Patrick and tried to seem polite when she talked of things I had no idea about. 

When she finally left him, I listened to him cry and reminise. I was there for him those late, tired nights as he searched for her reasoning and some sort of explanation.  I never mentioned what I had felt for him. Well...until one night, I couldnt stand it anymore.  It had to be over a month after their break up, it felt that way, however, in reality it was only 2 weeks.  It seemed longer. Something about holding truth in makes things take forever. It puts thing in a different aspect and it's like you're watching all your misery, not living it.  He was on his way to work and I was going with to browse for new music.  We were in the car, in retrospect that probably wasnt the best time or place to tell him.  A song came on the radio that had always reminded me of him.  It was a sweet song I had never admitted to even liking before that always made me think of him and smile.  I told him that it made me think of him.  He gave me a funny look, "what do you mean?" he said, his face in a quizzical expression.  "Well..." I said, "This is kinda how I feel about you. I've liked you for, like, ever Patrick." I had poured out what seemed like my heart and soul in about 20 seconds.  He just stared at me, and then turned back to the road.  I waited for some sort of a response as he stared into space. He must've zoned out becuase minutes later he swirved to the side last second as he drifted into the wrong lane.  My heart would have stopped I was so scared, but it was already stopped, waiting for an answer. Not even an answer, I hadnt asked a question.  My thoughts were racing, should have I told him I liked him and then flat out asked him, should I do that now? I probably shouldnt have told him at all.  He didnt say a word til we got the the book store. He stepped out of the car and leaned down to see in, "I know." he replied sadly, "I'm sorry Carolina." and with that short statement he took a deep breath and walked into the bookstore. I was frozen in my seat.  I didn't follow him into the bookstore. Instead I browsed other stores in the area til he got off. He was in the car waiting for me. He didn't say a word and neither did I. What could I say, "haha, gotcha!"? I couldnt. He drove me home, parked out side my house. I tried as hard as I could to think of something to say. Some way to erase my confession. There was none. I unbuckled by seat belt and fumbled with my purse, thinking thinking thinking of something to say. I looked at him as I was about to get out of the care. Our eyes locked.  I got the chills, his beautiful eyes staring into mine. He lightly pulled my head towards his and gave me the faintest of a kiss and mumbled what must have been another apology. I didn't know what to do. I grabbed my bag, got out of the car, and hurried inside. I'm sure there must have been a tear in my eye, I knew we would never have a relationship.  After that we never spoke of it again. We remained friends.  We were best friends for the longest time. Neither of us dated anyone for a while, eventually we both went on dates and we still stayed close.  Eventually we just drifted as old friends do.  We still talked, but not as much as we used to.  We loved eachother, but it never seemed to be enough. We didnt do all we could to hang out and make plans as we did before. Things were, to put it simpily, different.

That is why it's hard to be friends with a guy, for me, at least.  I always mistake their kindess and friendship as something much more. I always did. At some point in every friendship with every guy even if just for a minute I felt that we could be something more. We never were. I never loved anyone as much as I had Patrick until a small tour I went on with him.  His name was Justin Pierre.

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1. How did you first get intrested in music, when did you start playing?

2. Who are some of your musical influences?

3. What are 5 songs that changed your life and why?

4. If you could work with any musicion who would it be?

5. You came to the band a bit later on, around 2002. How did you come to be in the band?

6. Becuase of when you came to the band, many fans are wondering if you were playing on the released song, "Throwdown" on the Schatzi Split EP?

7. So what is the writing process like?

8. Who writes most of the music/lyrics?

9. On motioncitysoundtrack.com it was announced you would be releasing a new music video soon. Can you tell us what it is and when it will be out, or is that some confidential info?

10. What is your favorite Motion City song and why?

11. What is your favorite song to play live?

12. If you weren't a musicion, what would you be doing?

13. What do you think makes Motion City Soundtrack such a unique and different band?

14. Many Bands have a message or statement they're trying to convey through their music to their fans. What do you think that is for Motion City?

15. Any advice for aspiring musicions?