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Just becuase I havent really had much time to talk to people lately when usually i talk to everyone like all the time nonstop haha...

So, since this week I started Drivers Ed. I have been overly busy since usually I just come home and do nothing after school. It's a bit of a change.  I have it every day this week, next week, and the week after that from 3:30 to 5:30 and its always rather unintresting. now that mariam joined its a lil bit fun and stuff but still bla. 2 days this week i had to babysit right after so i didnt end up at home with any time to myself to 8 or 9 so that completly sucked, but at least those kids got their meds changed or adjusted so they actually work now and they arent freeking out and ruining all the electronics in my purse like the last time! I also have to babysit tomarrow from 5 to 10 which is fine but kinda sucks cuz i was gonna go to my cousins bday party cuz they moved to the house they live in now about a year or so ago and i still havent been there yet and i feel really bad, plsu i havent seen anyone on that side of the family since like....before summer vacation, i want to say easter, no i think it was the first week of summer vacation but not everyone was there. so yea.

lets see as far as school goes. photography is SO frustrating since ms mooney doesnt answer if we ask for help, she favors kids who arent even in the class and shes an idiot anyway. she has a shitty way of us matting the photos we take and bla bal bla. this weekend i have to take pictures from a birds eye view and a worms eye view, pretty stupid in my opinion but that really means nothing. hopefully this week everything will turn out okay in the dark room and i will get everything to work the first time and everyting done on time and still manage to get a good grade. hopefully i wont have to stay in for ap and lunch again cuz she doesnt give us proper instruction! for child parent and developing i still dont know what im doing baby wise. like i said i've been so busy and i dont want to bring a stupid baby home and i asked about the essay to write instead and she didnt realy give me a solid answer. i wish teachers would just tell me exactly what they wanted me to do and how so i could just do it and get it over with. im going to kill that class gar. i sit right behind jamie somthign and shes such an annoying bitch. her and this really really pretty girl brie sit there and talk horribly about all their friends andp eoplethey know or they talk about how they got drunk and one of htem works at a bar and their bf's and etc etc i want them all to shut the fuck up! pass running is better than study hall but its continiuous walking, which i dont mind but it gets boring some day and shannon is annoying. newspaper is good cuz i talk to lauder katie and now cody in there and kinda that other kid who knows pwpbut isnt really his friend friend i duno., hes nice. but yea, i had an article due today and i think everyone else in the class had more revisions to do and i had none so yay, that means it was good! woot woot. us history is annoying and boring and i was so worried aboutthe huge test today but it turned out being small, i still thought i failed but i got a B so thank god for that hahaha. i didnt even read the last chapter so that was suprising. otheriwse that class is good tho. the people are wonderful i love it(REB 4 LYFE) haha yes.

So, next weekend is homecoming and the next day im going to my aunts halloween party cuz thats when my cousins are coming up from georgia, and like the last few times theyve been here i prbly will barely see them which sucks but the halloween party should be good.  So both of those mean i need a halloween costume and a dress so yea. i duno what im doin for a costume but i have a few ideas for dresses and my mom and i are going someday after drivers ed so another really busy day pfft. i really really wanted to go to homecoing this year so im glad we're goin but i know as soon as i go dress shopping i'll change my mind and once i get to the dance i'lll change my mind to want to be there so it will all be good but bla i hate dress shopping!!! i hate most shoppng but still. i duno why i like going to homecoming but i do so yes. i guess its just something different that i dont get to do all the time where as if we had just all hung out and a had a party it would be like nothing cuz we always hang out. unfortunatly tho no one can walk around homecoming friday like we did last year, which was so fun, so that sucks.

hmm....if pete wentz pants and co. keep fucking with me, mocking me,and everything else im going to slam them into a fucking wall and kill them i am soo fucking sick of them i dont even know what to do any more. marshall maynard is really bad, hes one of their friends and im going to drown him or something i cant stand it i want to pound their faces in. there are few people who i've ever wanted to hurt this bad and blaa

i got my temps liscence today, i looked stoned  in the picture and the guy just put my hair down as black, even tho its black brown green and blue and ugly and i hate it. i told my mom dying it dark brown would make it look fucky like this but no, i couldnt possibly be right, but oh wait, i was/am...so now it looks like shit and i hate it even tho people say it looks the same only darker i hate it, i perfered it before. i hate it so much right now im tempted to just bleach it and dye it brown over that, or pink....haha yea....but nope. im not cuz i dont want to bleach my hair. i also lost some eyeliner but im sure i'll find it. just saying.

and, if you havent noticed yet at school or whatever, every little thing is stressing me out or pissing me off...so yea....a few people have pointed out that i've been crabby but whatever yea...BLAAAAAH its becuase i have had basically no time to do anyting i've wanted for the last week or so and it fucking sucks! i am a person who loves to be alone and needs to be alone for a certin amount of time a week and i havent gotten that time cuz i've also been going to bed before 11 every day since the middle of summer so i can sleep at all so yea. that means i have about 3-5 hours to myself a day and...thats just not enough, and my mom wonders why i've been pissed off, like seriously, my brother is such an asshole i cant stand it anymore. and all of these thhings would be okay on their own, school, pwp, no time, robert, etc etc, but no its all fucking together.

okay, so thats an update cuz im bored and dont know what else to do. i wanted to walk around after drivers ed but the phone/internet wernet wokring for like an hour after class and then no one was really online so bla gr.

ps. another thing added to all that. as much as i love being in us history with a bunch of friends, it still sucks having Ian in my class since he obviously doesnt like me like that so hahahah ahhh..that sucks. pfft.

......This is what I get for joining Photography and spending too much time in the dark room listening only to 103.7

soo...uhmm CRANK THAT SOULJA BOY!!! and do that dance.

HAHAHAHHAHAHA Im scarying myself! teeheeheee

andi and adam both want to be in my music video and erica wants to help and andi and erica both like it(adam hasnt seen it yet)

this makes me happy, im so excited now we just gota make time to actually do it haha, i really want to tho!

its for the song The Worst Part by Motion City r, its on my youtube account(rockgiurl) so yes, i cant wait!

• http://www.detnews.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20070822/ENT01/708220422/1032/ENT
  in case you have yet to read about MCR's hiatus whatever...read it there...its sad but I belive those kids know what they're doing. enough of that, you've had it blasted at your face and I dont want to bore you any longer.
• New Fall Out Boy video, find it on your own, I know you can, its fuckin contagious here on buzznet so it wont be too hard to spot. I am in love with this video. It has to be the most meaningful/purposeful/touching/intellegent music videos I have ever seen and is the only one that has ever brought me close to crying, it's that amazing and I dont even love FOB that much!!! def. watch it.
• new motion city soundtrack cd is amazing in every way
• AND i just wrote an awesome(i hope) music video script thingie that i want to make really really badly and i duno, i think it seems pretty good, i just need to talk to a few people about it to see if i can actually make it but i would really like to. its for the bside or special song from some soundtrack "The Worst Part" by MCS. so yes. hopefully that will happen, i just spent about an hour and a half figuring out/writing/perfecting the thing so yes.

The Conversastion

You remember how we met
Silhoutted by the lights
You were drunk and tried to take a mental picture with your hands
I was thinking about that and a bunch of other things
Stop looking at the floor 
I need to pour out this expansive dose of words
I cant explain
I need to be alone
I know the timing isnt great
But these things you just cant plan
I just need a little time so I can find myself again
Cause I get burried underneath
All the things they think you are
And I'm too tired to pretend it doesnt hurt to be left out
I pocket full of dreams
But I gave them all to you
Now I think I want em back
So can you tell me if Im crazy or confused
Dont ever change the way you are
I never loved anyone more.

1. I Fell In Love Without You
   What an amazingly upbeat song to start out a cd with.  Immediatly drawing the listener in with its catchy tune and awesome lyrics, and of course Justins crazy cool voice. Plus there is an awesome guitar part in there that's amazing."in memory of what we used to call in love"
2. This Is For Real
   Awesome opening lyrics for this song, and there's even a metaphor, and who doesnt love those?!?!?! Very very catchy chorus and is a very nice song, duh, its Motion City, what do you expect silly? It's one of those great songs that sounds upbeat but is still emotional and important and good."i said from the start that you could take it or leave it i prefer that you keep it dont let go"
3. It Had To Be You
   Starts out slow in contrast to the other two songs and has some awesome drum and bass going on, some cute lyrics. thats right, they are cute lyrics haha. I must say, I love the writing of all Motion City Soundtrack songs and this seems to me like some MCS writing right here."they say what doesnt kill us makes us who we are"
4. Last Night
   More voice than instruments in the beginning then goes in to really cool music on the keyboard"I'm suffocating til the end"
5. Calling All Cops
   It's good and fun sounding"when I'm awake I make the same mistakes"
6. Can't Finish What You Started
   I do rather love the beginning instrumental part of this song, along with the rest of it with amazing lyrics in all the right places haha, I'm so horrible at doing reviews, just know that it's an amazing song. just when you think this song is done, its not, it starts again, but act suprised! "every story needs an ending after all"
7. The Conversastion
   Slow and amazing, his voice is soooooo fucking crazy amazing awesome(cramazme) with beautiful lyrics and this could very well be my favorite song off the cd. Like you dont even know, but this song is soo beautiful and the lyrics are so sad but like they crave understanding(and I totally understand everything in this song, for me its very relatable) if your a really emotional person who can cry becuase of music...you might cry becuase wow, wow, wow."i had a pocket full of dreams but i gave them all to you, now i think i want them back so can you tell me if im crazy or confused, dont ever change the way you are, i never loved anyone more"
8. Broken Heart
   It's the first single from the cd, its amazing and a great song to follow The Conversastion, it immediatly brings you into the song and its kind of sad but ends up happy and its amazing and good, its a good transistion out of the really slow melody of the prevous song. Its a cute song and if you havent seen the music video you should because its awesome. This is another one of my favorites from the cd "i'll express myself with ease and confidence and character complete with fingers crossed they'll talk to me."
9. Hello Helicopter
   Another favorite song, jeeze, three favorite in a row, how great is that?!?!?(tis really great of course!) This whole song is amazing, especially the vocals. It has a uniqe quality in the voice and sound. its obviously a MCS song, but it has a somewhat difference to it when its just Justin singing, in a good way of course.it reminds me of something but i cant think of what "its kill or be killed and someday we'll get the best of them, hello helicopter will you be my friend, will you take me away"
10. Where I Belong
    Yay musical goodness, I'm soo not good at describing things, but this is good. Great lyrics and instruments and yes and yes."I keep falling apart"
11. Point of Extinction
    I love motion city soundtrack, and this is a perfect example of why! another favorite! "im so tired, i've had enough, if theres one thing i've learned you always get burned but you never get enough"
12. Antonia
    SO CUTE. Its another one of those motion city lyrics songs. what i mean by that is it says a lot of things like how in the future freaks me out it talks about drum and bass and will and grace but still has meaning. this list things like that in a sort of sense "without her in my life i will be dead"
13. Even If it Kills Me
    Obviously, this is the song that titled the cd. it starts out sorta slow and progressivly moves into the song til its full on singing, dancing, musical magic. then it slows down a lil more and repeats haha."i wonder if i'll ever loose my mind, i tried for a while then i gave up"

Over all it is a rather Cramazme CD and I love it as much as the other two cds. I am very very very pleased with it, what are you're opinions?
(go to mtvu.com:the leak to hear the cd early! and of course buy it on the 18th)

Hi all, wanted to let you know that our brand new video for "This Is For Real" will debut on MTVu TODAY! Be sure to tune into MTVu or head over to MTVu.com to check it out... We had a blast making it, and we hope you enjoy it!

Also, starting on Tuesday, September 11 you will be able to hear our new album "Even If It Kills Me" (out everywhere Sept 18) in it's entirety on MTV's "The Leak"... Simply head over to MTV2.com or MTVu.com and check it out. This will be your first opportunity to listen to the entire album and we can't wait for you to hear it...

Next up, remember that tickets are selling fast for our big Fall U.S. Headlining Tour (with special guests Mae, Anberlin, and Metro Station), so be sure to head over to our Tour page and get your tickets today... Also, make sure that you become a member of our street team -- The Boombox Generation -- today by going here and signing up.

And lastly, we wanted to throw out a big CONGRATS to MCS’ own Josh Cain on getting hitched over the weekend with his longtime sweetheart Jill Lipski... The wedding was amazing and all of us at Team MCS couldn’t be happier for the both of them. Check out some of the photos of the action over the weekend at the Gale Mansion in Minneapolis below...

Thanks for all of your support... September 18 is almost here!

Team MCS

How I came to LOVE Motion City Soundtrack.

8th grade, Erica tells me that I must listen to The Killers, reluctantly I do, and I like them. They are my first concert with the opener Tegan and Sara. That summer Andi and Natalie invite me to Lollapalooza to see both bands again, I completly freek out and go. While there I see a little band called OkGo, I loved their music, I loved their dance, and I nearly touched Damian's hand, I immediatly bought their cd, and a few weeks later when Oh No came out, I bought that too. They were one of my favorite bands for a while, their old stuff is still the most amazing fun shit ever! 9th grade, I meet Nikki and she informs me that OkGo is coming to the Rave with a band she likes, Motion City Soundtrack. I dedicate myself to knowing their music so that I can have fun at the show, I buy both cds and listened to them repeatitivly. At the show I knew more songs from Commit this to Memory becuase it's the cd I got first. I saw them at the rave, i then saw them at warped tour, again at the rave and now i am anxiously waiting(8 days motha fucka) for their new cd and am going to another show at the rave November 23, YESSSSS!!!

tis true they're married.