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Shows I want to/need to/should be going to!!!

September 5. - The Academy Is...
October 22. - Say Anything/Hellogoodbye
October 25. - Saosin/Envy On The Coast
November 10. - Boys Like Girls
November 23 - Motion City Soundtrack
November 28. - Bayside

not going to TAI. want to go to SA/HG Want to go to S/EOTC, prbly wont go to BLG and I WILL I MUST go to MCS, and really really really really want to go to Bayside!

I'm not gonna put the rules here...and I'm not gonna tag anyone cuz that's not how I do...so here you go.

10.William Beckett

9.Mikey Way

8.Matthew Taylor

7.Billie Joe Armstrong

6.Bob Bryar

5.Michael Cera(okay..so I KNOW he's an actor and definetly more of a cutie..but he is in a band, The Long Goodbye so he gets to count so ha! and yes...clark is also in this.)

4.Jared Leto

3.Gerard Way

2.Patrick Stump(even though hes more cute than hot haha)

1.Frank Iero

 

      Nikki, Andi, Jenny, and I are walking down this weird street/mall thing...it kind of looks like Old Milwaukee at the Museum but more of a mall or something, I'm not sure. So, we're walking and we see Erica hanging out with this weird group of guys who are kinda strange, I'm not sure how to describe them and I'm not sure what stereotype they would fit into, maybe a mix between preppy but cooler than that and she was just hanging out with  like 5 or 6 of them, there might have been a few other girls too but I cant remember. We see her and they're in the middle of the street and she looks at us and then just goes back to doing what she was doing and we all look at eachother like, what the fuck is going on. We end up at this store or shop or something on the corner and Erica follows us in soon after. She's wearing a weird white jumpsuit looking thing with a lot of gold bangle bracletts, a gold necklace thats really long and other weird, gold accessories, and her hair is weird, well not wierd but like, flipped strangly kinda and is its old length. We ask who the guys are and she just says that she doesnt want to hang out with us anymore and that we need to leave her alone, that she's moved on and doesn't need us anymore.  Then she gets up and starts looking around the store and we all try asking her whats going on and she ignored us then she walked out of the store and I woke up(in the dream, not real life) and sat up in bed and was like "holy shit, it was just a dream, thank god" and I was about to cry and im like "oh fuck, that was scary, jeez"  and then later me Jenny, Andi, Katie, and Nikki were in Walgreens and Jenny got like five energy drinks and we all go snacks and stuff becuase I think we were gonna go somewhere, like travel somewhere haha, and yeah, then the next thing I remmeber is I'm in this weird place with this big mountain like thing and I wandered off a little or something and I ended up at this weird little area where they had a girl tied up with her legs tied together and her hands tied behind her back hanging from her wrists and ankles to this tree with some weird rope and pulley system and I dont know who was contorling it and I dont remember any of those people.But she was telling me I had to save her and every once and a while they would loosen the thing and she would drop down and then be pulled back up really fast and then she said she was pregent and I had to save her and her baby, it was up to me, and then someone told me she was a sacrifice for something and if I didnt leave I would have to kill her becuase the only way to free her or her baby would be to cut her in half or something and then i noticed more of my surroundings and there was like this stump hollowed out and there was a dirt path leading up there and there were a bunch of blood stains on it and I kept on pacing back and forth and if i would go to the left I would be able to see my friends and a bunch of other people at a bonfire in a different section of the mountian. So I was standing there, listening to her rambling about who she was and that her life was in my hands and I get pushed backwards and instead of falling to the ground or something I fall into my bathroom into the bathtub in my clothes and its filling with water and I have the hair blow dryer in my hands, plugged in above the tub. My mom opens the door really fast screaming this was the most hateful thing I've ever done and it flies out of my hand to the corner of the room and becomes unplugged. I didnt know what was happening and i was like "what, what are you talking about?!?!" and she was like "you tried to fucking kill yourself, you were gonna electrocute yourself!" And then I woke up for real and was like, what the fuck just happened.

Ew, the last two days I haven't really done anything and now since its the last week before school starts I want to do as much as possible so I really hope tomarrow works out and stuff haha. Hopefully I wont get a call at lik 5:67(yes I know that's impossible) saying that we can't do it or something, that would suck, hehee.

So yes, Kids, This is the week to do shit, its out last full week, lets make the most of it!

Got It From Andi, Answer In Comments.

 

1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

4. Do you talk to me a lot?

5. Am i fun to talk to?

6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

7. Describe me in one word.

8. What was your first impression?

9. Do you still think that way about me now?

10. What reminds you of me?

11. If you could give me anything what would it be?

12. How well do you know me?

13. Whats one thing that we had and was only ours(isj)?

14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

15. If given the chance would you do me?

16.If given the chance would you embrace lips with myself?

17. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?

MIKEY MIKEY MIKEY!

mikey way is back in the band back back back back woot woot, i am happy happy happy!!!!

YAY FOR MIKEY

At last night's Projekt Revolution show @ Jones Beach, Gerard announced that Mikey is back ("and probably still wearing his sunglasses" as Gee said).

He didn't play last night, but is back, Gerard dedicated 'Helena' to him. Just thought everyone would like to know, especially people who are going to shows in the near future."
Apparantly he also hugged Mikey after the show, and Alicia was there with Mikey.

Be happy, this is the only MCR thing we need to be talking about right now, nothing else but Mikey coming back, the band and the rest of the universe is complete once again.

Three cheers for that.

• But as for me I'm coming to the final chapter
  I read all of the pages and there is still no answer
  Only all that was before I know must soon come after
  That is the only way it can be
  So I stand in the sun
  And I breathe with my lungs
  Trying to spare me the weight of the truth
  Saying everything you've ever seen was just a mirror
• But as for me I'm coming to my final failure
  I've killed myself with changes trying to make things better
  But I ended up becoming something other than what I had planned to be
  Now I believe that lovers should be draped in flowers
  And layed entwined together on a bed of clover
  And left there to sleep
  Left there to dream of their happiness
• You said you hate my suffering
  And you understood
  And you’d take care of me
  You'd always be there
  Well where are you now?
• And I sing and sing of awful things
  The pleasure that my sadness brings
  As my fingers press onto the strings
  In yet another clumsy chord
• The rain, it started tapping on the window near my bed. There was a loophole in my dreaming,
  so I got out of it. And to my surprise my eyes were wide and already open.
  Just my nightstand and my dresser where those nightmares had just been.
  So I dressed myself and left then, out into the gray streets.
  But everything seemed different and completely new to me.
• So that is how I learned the lesson that everyone is alone.
  And your eyes must do some raining if you are ever going to grow.
  But when crying don't help and you can't compose yourself.
  It is best to compose a poem, an honest verse of longing or simple song of hope.
  That is why I'm singing...
  Baby don't worry cause now I got your back. And every time you feel like crying,
  I'm gonna try and make you laugh. And if I can't, if it just hurts too bad,
  then we will wait for it to pass and I will keep you company
  through those days so long and black.
  And we'll keep working on the problem we know we'll never solve
  Of Love's uneven remainders, our lives are fractions of a whole.
• I know that it is freezing but I think we have to walk
• When everything is lonely I can be my own best friend
• If you promise to stay conscious I will try and do the same
  We might die from medication, but we sure killed all the pain
  But what was normal in the evening, by the morning seems insane.
• and from the sidelines
  you see me run
  until i’m out of breath
  living the good life
  i left for dead
  the sorrowful midwest
  well i did my best
  to keep my head
• you think about yourself too much
  and you ruin who you love
  well all these claims at consciousness
• You can make a plan
  Carve it into stone
  Like a feather falling
  That is still unknown
• To the deepest part
  Of the human heart
  The fear of death expands
  ‘til we crack the code,
  we’ve always known
  But could never understand
  On a circuit board
  We’ll soon be born
  Again, again, again, again…
• the sun turns us to stone
  it's a cloudy day but we still can't go
  up and out that cellar door
  till we see the moon, we're invisible
  no one ever takes the garbage out
  the neighbor kid gets dared to touch the house
• But if you stay too long inside my memory,
  I will trap you in a song tied to a melody
  and I will keep you there so you can't bother me
• but then night rolls around and it all starts making sense
  there is no right way or wrong way, you just have to live
  and so I do what I do, and at least I exist
  what could mean more than this?
• How time can move both fast and slow
  Amazes me
  And so I raise my glass to symmetry
  To the second hand and its accuracy
  To the actual size of everything
  The desert is the sand
  You can't hold it in your hand
• An argument for consciousness
  The instinct of the blind insect
  Who makes love to the flower bed
  And dies in the first freeze
  Oh I want to learn such simple things
  No politics, no history
  Till what I want and what I need
  the same
• Can finally beNot to accept its fate, that's faith
  There is happiness in death
• The levity of longing that
  Distills each dream inside my head
  By morning watered down forget
  On silver stars I wish and wish and wish
• I put the past into the ground
  I saw the future as a cloud
  If there's still time to turn around
  I'm going to
• I wanna be the surgeon that cuts you open
  and fixes all of life's mistakes
• I know debris, it covers everything
  But still I am in love with this life.
• i never really dreamed of heaven much
  until we put him in the ground
  but it's all i'm doing now
  listening for patterns in the sound
  of an endless static sea
• i always figured that there'd be time enough
  i never let it get me down
  but i can't help it now
  looking for faces in the clouds
  i got some friends i barely see
  but we're all planning to meet
  we'll lay in bags as dead as leaves
  all together for eternity
• Oh my morning's coming back
  The whole world’s waking up
  All the city buses swimming past
  I’m happy just because
  I found out I am really no one
• So I’m drinking, breathing, writing, singing
  Everyday I'm on the clock
  My mind races with all my longings
  But cant keep up with what I got
• So when you’re asked to fight a war that’s over nothing
  It’s best to join the side that’s gonna win
  And no one’s sure how all of this got started
  But we’re gonna make them goddam certain how its gonna end
  Oh ya we will, oh ya we will!
• Well I could have been a famous singer
  If I had someone else’s voice
  But failure’s always sounded better
  Lets fuck it up boys, make some noise!
• Yes, we will never break from these chains
  Your life is gonna course like a history book
  Don't be frightened of turning the page
  Cause it's is all the same
  It will always be the same
• I had a friend who changed his name
  but couldn’t change himself.
  Never quite figured out
  how to do with what life had dealt
• The papers piled on my desk.
  But where the ink is
  where the cause effect what’s meant by it
  the story is incomplete.
  The pictures’ left unfinished.
  So I am writing my own ending.
  I’ll let my pen bleed black or blue.
  And I will color in the meaning.
  It will be gold and green and true.
  And I’ll learn to love my new discovered proof.
  I’ll be grateful for this day.
• There's a song stuck in my head
  And I can't help singing it
  Oh how I hope my singing pleases you
  Cause this is not who I've become
  But what you made me into
• so believe you're who you are
  and just stay in character
  but at the end of the play the audience walks away
  and you'll be shivering cold on a well lit stage.
• The drunk kids, the catholics
  They’re all about the same
  They’re waiting for something
  Hoping to be saved
  Well I have been happy the past couple days
• i'll finally make something disappear.
  Because i've been practicing disappearing
  and i think that i've got it down but now there is no sun just a cellar
•  i try to get my head clear, it's too full of ideas that i haven't thought of yet.
  and time, clocks keep waving their hands, doing all that they can to get our attention,
  but the days fly away down a clean interstate and i'm staring drunk at a map.
• All my friends were vampires
  I didn't know they were vampires
  It turns out I was a vampire myself in the devil town
• you were just some song I wrote
  A poem on a page
  A sculpture I made out of clay
  Desire was the flame
  But now you’re more of a basketball
  Boys just pass you around
  They bounce you hard on the ground and dribble
  And then we all get high fives
  And you think I’m an asshole now
  Well, you’re probably right
  But at least I’m not blind to the facts
  I’ve been wishing were lies
  But still I hope you get everything
  That you care to possess
• All eyes on the calendar
  Another year I claim of total indifference
  To here, the days pile up
  With decisions to be made, I'm sure all of them were wrong
  Into this song I send myself
  And with these drinks I plan to collapse
  And forget this wasted year, these wasted years
  Devoted friends, they disappear
• I guess that it's typical
  To cling to memories you'll never get back again
  And to sort through old photographs
  Of a summer long ago or a friend that you used to know
• I know that it is late,
  But thank you for talking, because I needed to.
  Some things just can't wait.

Anyone else realize I haven't written anything in a while?
The last time I even posted a journal was 2 days ago, I didn't even post one about Nikki's birthday or uhmm hmm what else happened the last few days...I dyed my hair blue. That should have been a freeking journal in itself, even if it would only say "I dyed my hair blue with black underneath" it still would have been awesome. I don't even the remember last time I wrote like a poem or story or something(even though in reality it was probably only like a week ago or something. I just dont know haha)
Yes, well currently my creative writing skills are hiding becuase they fear the start of school and dont want to rush things...I guess, haha.
Well maybe I will find something intresting to write about or will figure out a poem or story or anything else in my head to put on here soon, I hate not posting stuff so yea...what the hell is my problem? YiKeS.
Well...really nothing else to say(and I hate that!)...my brother got an iPod? Who cares? Not me. I don't really care about iPods and related items. The only time I have ever wanted one was in Arizona becuase I really would have liked to have all my music available to me, not just most of it. Of course eventually I will be sorry I dont have an iPod becuase they will stop making cd players just like they stopped making cassettes and are currently stopping making VHS's and soon it's going to be bye-bye DVD's and hello to whatever those one things that are like $30 and smaller than $15 DVD's....I don't know what they're called. Haha. I dont really see what the problem what VHS is...I mean, yes I prefer DVD's just becuase they have more footage and stuff and a lot of other features like skipping chapters but I dont really know what those other things do so I could be completly missing out.
Wait?....Did I even write about the street dance..I mean, yeah, nothing happened or anything...I think I might have written about it a little...yes I must have becuase that happened before the hair dye fight and that was the last journal I posted. Jeezez, I just don't know anymore haha. Well I guess this will make up for a few days of nothingness or something, again, I don't really know haha.
I did take Leah to Kids Day today though...It was awesome, but just becuase RadioDisney was there and I used to be in love with that station so I was kinda excited, and I got to see Jesi and MaryClaire, yea, and Leah's friends mom was like "OMG, where did you get your hair dye???" because she had pink hair and blue hair and so did Faye(her daughter, Leah's friend) and I told her and she said she it looked cool, but I already knew that, haha.
I need to find something better to do with my time. well...I guess I'm off to take some advil pm.

my dad is mad im dying my hair, hes all gr your gonna look like a freek, it wont be attractive at all
and i was like. i dont really want you to be attracted to me, so i guess its good
and he was all grrrrrrrrrrrrr some more
ha.

so i have finally decided how i will dye my hair.
black underneath with red on top. but not like last time when you couldnt even see the black, no it will be majoraly black with like red on the top layers and yes, it will be cool indeed. i cannot wait.
and my mom said tomarrow we could get it cut and died
but who knows what she will actually say tomarrow. pft.

then school registration is coming up. ewwwww. but hopefully my hair will be cool for pictures
which all made my dad mad
he was also mad that my mom was saying that i should go see rocky horror picture show at the oriental in milwaukee sometime in my life.
my dad said he went to one and left almost right away
i think he's a homophobic asshole
and im right.
as we learned last night, i am always right.
and i learned it in 2 ways.
case 1.
i told erica  a while back that as soon as i bought a new motion city shirt i would find my old one. at the show i bought a new motion city shirt and last night i found my old one, under my couch, where i had already looked.
case 2.
ian asked why i waited til now to call him and he had given me his number 2 months ago, i talked him down to one, still knowing it was just a few weeks ago and he didnt bleieve me. its 8/12 today(tomarrows nikki's bday) and here is the yahoo IM where he gave me his number. note the date.
ian (7/28/2007 1:15:53 AM): you have my number?
rockgiurl (7/28/2007 1:16:01 AM): uh, yea i think u gave it to me once
ian (7/28/2007 1:16:40 AM): k, well just incase 262-443-0200, i gtg, ttyl
rockgiurl (7/28/2007 1:16:47 AM): k bye byee
who was right? I was right. people just gotta learn some day. im a genious of sorts. hahahhahaha yes.

peace out. haha.

its weird to be up this late again cuz i have been going to sleep b4 ten the last 3 or 4 nights i think...so yea, its a lil weird but im gonna be asleep soon cuz i just took 2 advil pm.
i was tired earlier but once im up im kinda up, yea, prbly just 2 more days on the advil pm tho n then after that i better be able to sleep or im supposedly gonna have to go to a sleep treatment center(ewsies)

"God damn the liquor store's closed, we were so close to scoring, it hurts it, it destroys til it kills..."
only it was more like:
"God damn the sky is raining, we so close to hanging out, it hurts it destroys til it kills, im sick of this fucking town..."
but now its like:
"I can see clearly now the rain has gone!"
only it's more like:
"We can hang out now the rain has gone"

YAY. do you understand what this means?!??!?!?!
there was supposed to be a street dance tongiht
we were supposed to go and...
i was supposed to ask ian to come
then it rained and it was assumed canceled
then the rain went away and its not gonna rain no more
and we're continuing on with our plans
just as soon as ericas ready
but i've been ready since fucking 6:30am.
yes.

o jeezuz i hope it doesnt rain again, and i hope me n erica meet up with some peeps, n nikki joins us sooner rather than later and that ian actually comes cuz that will totally be awesome and stuff and i might just be happy about this little crappy town for once.
so we'll see what happens.
yes.

WTF. It is 7:15 am and I have been awake since 6:36...it's freeking me out becuase there was no alarm clock or no help of any sort waking me up and this is just unnatural...I'm not even sure what to do right now...it's crazy and I'm a little scared. heeheehee...
In OTHER horrible news, the new buzznet layout(at least that's what I'm assuming it is) is annoying and spacy and just not good so...I would hope this is not it.  I hope this is not it becuase Buzznet is by far my favorite website, my most visited of course, and a simple thing like appearance can change a lot...and this is really annoying me hahahhahahaha. yes.
In other GOOD news, what is it, like 3 years sober for Gerard Way, I think that's something we can all appreciate yes indeedy.
Well, this journal post is now over as I am off to find what happened to where all my friends new posts have gone. jeezuz.

okay, so i'm considering painting the cover of Silversun Pickups 'Carnavas' for my next painting I do sometime eventually.
As most people know I am rather indecisive and am having trouble deciding if the darkest parts of it are a very dark brown or black.

also if anyone has any tips on mixing/making this color and for blending it with the lighter brown near the middle/top seeing as this is done originally in oils and I work with acrylics. any other tips are welcome too. please help if you can. thanks.

yea. im very bored. thats it.
everything in this town has been done and costs money(which im sick of spending on this crap) and there is nothing left to do.
at least saturday is the street dance but a lot of people prbly wont go(cuz of wrk n vacations n such) but yea, im for sure(probably) going to ask Ian to come with, becuase....yea. haha.
gar why, Why, WHY must this town suck so badly?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?

options include The Hush Sound, The Academy Is..., and Blue October..i think. pfttt. i want good concerts, NOW!

Here are the rules:

1) Only list 8 facts.
2) You must then list 8 TAGS at the end of the post. This means you must name 8 people on Buzznet who now must do the same blog.
3) Go comment on their profile and tell them to come read yours! I want participation.

1. I'm listening to My Chemical Romance, Bullets, at 9.21 in the morning, I usually dont listen to them this early, im usualy not awake this early but you will read about that next

2. I took advil pm last night to get to sleep(since for the last month or two i have not been to sleep before 3ish in the morning. now my mom is making me get up early

3. She also will probably be putting me on antidepressants and the moment i woke up i was told about how depression runs in my family(i.e. my gramma) n yea....ew.

4. i also will no longer be allowed to spend a lot of time in my room any more for it supposedly could be causing my depression

5. I like coloring with crayons more than any other art forms. except maybe paint. but im better with crayons

6. Motion City Soundtrack and My Chemical Romance are my favorite bands on the planet of the earth and music gets me through a lot

7. I am very happy I once again have a green motion city soundtrack shirt

8. I love walking aorund with my peeps n homedawgs. sounds like some awkward meal hmmm.....(peeps candy and hotdogs hahha eww)

Now to tag 8 peeps.

...snugens, you0ducking0duck, fingersxcrossed(even tho u already took it),  mcrunicorn, livelovelearn, mooeyreindeer, alisonlovex...thats all im gonna put, they're the only people i talk to regularly

SHIT

thats not fair...Nightmare of You is off the Cartel tour. well damn that sucks and grr. i guess more money for Motion City Soundtrack....maybe some Academy Is up in hur!

...
Picatchu legs...they were delicious...but he was staring at me the whole time, it was kinda wierd...

The Real You

and

The Forecast

they are both amazing bands that you should listen to.

check out their purevolume, myspace, whatever else is out there.

Little Miss Sunshine

Olive: Grandpa, am I pretty?
Grandpa: You are the most beautiful girl in the world.
Olive: You're just saying that.
Grandpa: No! I'm madly in love with you and it's not because of your brains or your personality.

Richard: Everyone, just... pretend to be normal.

Grandpa: I can say what I want - I still got Nazi bullets in my ass.

Dwayne: You know what? Fuck beauty contests. Life is one fucking beauty contest after another.

Dwayne: You do what you love, and fuck the rest

Dwayne: I wish I could just sleep until I was eighteen and skip all this crap-high school and everything-just skip it.

Pageant Official Jenkins: [outraged at Olive's talent act] What is your daughter doing?
Richard: She's kickin' ass... that's what she's doing

Donnie Darko

Donnie: I promise, that one day, everything's going to be better for you.

Donnie: When you fall asleep tonight, I'm gonna fart in your face.

Donnie: I made a new friend today.
Dr. Lilian Thurman: Real or imaginary?
Donnie: Imaginary.

Gretchen: You're weird.
Donnie: Sorry.
Gretchen: No, that was a compliment.

Donnie: Why do you wear that stupid bunny suit?
Frank: Why are you wearing that stupid man suit?

Roberta Sparrow: Every living creature on this earth dies alone.

Gretchen: What if you could go back in time, and take all those hours of pain and darkness and replace them with something better?

Donnie: You are such a fuckass.
Elizabeth: Did you just call me a fuckass? You can go suck a fuck.
Donnie: Oh, please, tell me Elizabeth, how exactly does one suck a fuck?

Donnie: Oh, I dunno. I mean I'd like to believe I'm not but I just... I've just never seen any proof so I... I just don't debate it anymore, you know? It's like I could spend my whole life debating it over and over again, weighing the pros and cons and in the end I still wouldn't have any proof so I just... I just don't debate it anymore. It's absurd.

Dr. Lilian Thurman: If the sky were to suddenly open up, there would be no law, there would be no rule. There would only be you and your memories.

Dr. Lilian Thurman: If this world were to end, there would only be you... and him... and no one else.

Gretchen: Some people are just born with tragedy in their blood.

Edward Darko: You're not a bitch. You're bitchin', but you're not a bitch.

Principal Cole: Now what exactly did you say to Mrs. Farmer, Donnie?
Kitty Farmer: [loudly interjecting] I'll tell you what he said! He told me to forcibly insert the lifeline exercises into my anus!
Edward Darko: [attempts to stifle a laugh]

The Breakfast Club

Richard Vernon: You're not fooling anyone Bender. The next screw that falls out will be you.
Bender: Eat my shorts.
Richard Vernon: What was that?
Bender: Eat... My... Shorts.
Richard Vernon: You just bought yourself another Saturday.
Bender: Ooh I'm crushed.
Richard Vernon: You just bought one more.
Bender: Well I'm free the Saturday after that. Beyond that, I'm going to have to check my calendar.
Richard Vernon: Good, cause it's going to be filled. We'll keep going. You want another one? Just say the word say it. Instead of going to prison you'll come here. Are you through?
Bender: No.

Andrew: We're all pretty bizarre. Some of us are just better at hiding it, that's all.

Brian Johnson: Dear Mr. Vernon, we accept the fact that we had to sacrifice a whole Saturday in detention for whatever it was we did wrong. But we think you're crazy to make an essay telling you who we think we are. You see us as you want to see us... In the simplest terms, in the most convenient definitions. But what we found out is that each one of us is a brain...
Andrew Clark: ...and an athlete...
Allison Reynolds: ...and a basket case...
Claire Standish: ...a princess...
John Bender: ...and a criminal...
Brian Johnson: Does that answer your question?... Sincerely yours, the Breakfast Club.

Andrew: Speak for yourself.
Bender: Do you think I'd speak for you? I don't even know your language.

John Bender: Screws fall out all the time, the world is an imperfect place.

John Bender: Don't you ever talk about my friends. You don't know any of my friends. You don't look at any of my friends. And you certainly wouldn't condescend to speak to any of my friends. So you just stick to the things you know: shopping, nail polish, your father's BMW, and your poor, rich drunk mother in the Caribbean.
Claire Standish: SHUT UP.
John Bender: And as far as being concerned about what's gonna happen when you and I walk down the hallways of school together, you can forget it cuz it's never gonna happen. Just bury your head in the sand and wait for your fucking prom.

Brian Johnson: I'm a fucking idiot because I can't make a lamp?
John Bender: No. You're a genius because you can't make a lamp.

Allison Reynolds: I never did it either. I'm not a nymphomaniac. I'm a compulsive liar.

Richard Vernon: What if your home... what if your family... what if your *dope* was on fire?
John Bender: Impossible, sir. It's in Johnson's underwear.

Allison Reynolds: When you grow up, your heart dies.
Bender: Who cares?

Richard Vernon: What was that ruckus?
Andrew Clark: Uh, what ruckus?
Richard Vernon: I was just in my office and I heard a ruckus.
Brian Johnson: Could you describe the ruckus, sir?

Richard Vernon: You ought to spend a little more time trying to do something with yourself and a little less time trying to impress people.

Big Fish

Young Ed Bloom: There's a time when a man needs to fight and a time when he needs to accept that his destiny's lost, the ship has sailed and that only a fool will continue. The truth is I've always been a fool.

Senior Ed Bloom: I saw my death in that eye, and this isn't how it happens.
Will Bloom: So how does it happen?
Senior Ed Bloom: Surprise ending. Wouldn't want to ruin it for you.

Senior Ed Bloom: It's rude to talk about religion. You never know who you're gonna offend.

Senior Ed Bloom: I've been nothin' but myself since the day I was born, and if you can't see that it's your failin', not mine.

Karl: I don't want to eat you. I just get so hungry. I'm just too big.
Young Ed Bloom: Has it ever occurred to you that maybe you're not too big? That maybe this place is just too small?

Will Bloom: A man tells his stories so many times that he becomes the stories. They live on after him, and in that way he becomes immortal.

Will Bloom: In telling the story of my father's life, it's impossible to separate fact from fiction, the man from the myth. The best I can do is to tell it the way he told me. It doesn't always make sense and most of it never happened... but that's what kind of story this is.

Will Bloom: [to Ed] You're like Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny combined - just as charming, and just as fake.

Ed Bloom (Age 10): I was thinking about death and all. About seeing how you're gonna die. I mean, on one hand, if dying was all you thought about, it could kind of screw you up. But it could kind of help you, couldn't it? Because you'd know that everything else you can survive.

Garden State

Karl Benson: I thought you killed yourself. That wasn't you?
Andrew Largeman: No, no, tha-that wasn't me.

Titembay: Someone has been pissing on my Gamecube and I'm about to close the case.

Tim: By the way, it says BALLS on your face.

Dr. Cohen: There's absolutely nothing wrong with you
Andrew Largeman: Really?
Dr. Cohen: Just kidding; how the hell would I know?

Mark: Don't tease me about my hobbies. I don't tease you about being an asshole.

Sam: If you can't laugh at yourself, life's gonna seem a whole lot longer than you like.

Sam: That's life. If nothing else, its life. It's real, and sometimes it fuckin' hurts, but it's sort of all we have

Dr. Cohen: Of course you're all right. You're alive.

Mark: I'm okay with being unimpressive. I sleep better.

• Apathy has rained on me
  Now I'm feeling like a soggy dream
  So close to drowning but I don't mind
  I've lived inside this mental cave
  Throw my emotions in the grave
  Hell, who needs them anyway
• I'm losing all my happiness
  The happiness YOU pinned on me
  Loneliness still comforts me
• This sudden fear has left me trembling
  Cause now it seems that I am out here on my own
  And I'm feeling so alone
• She screams in silence
  A sullen riot penetrating through her mind
  Waiting for a sign
  To smash the silence with the brick of self-control
•  was a young boy that had big plans
  Now I'm just another shitty old man
  I don't have fun and I hate everything
  The world owes me, so fuck you
• The future just ain't what it used to be.
• I'm hexed with regrets and bad luck.
  Keep you distance 'cause it's rubbing off.
  Or you will be damned to spend your life in hell.
• Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
  Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
  So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
  It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
  It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
  I hope you had the time of your life.
• Today is the first day of the rest
  Of our lives
  Tomorrow is too late to pretend
  Everything's allright
  I'm not getting any younger as long
  As you don't get any older
  I'm not going to state that yesterday never was
• Philiosophy's a liar when
  Your home is your headstone
• Deadbeat Holiday - celebrate your own decay
  There's a vacant sign that's hanging high
  On a noose over your home
• A cry of hope
  A plea for peace
  And my conscience beating
  It's not what I want for
  It's all that I need
  To reach the break of the Day
  So I run to the edge
  Beyond the shadow of a doubt
  With my conscience bleeding
  Here lies the truth
  The lost treasures of my youth
  As I hold on to the break of the day
• To know you is to hate you
  So loving you must be like suicide
• The center of attention
  Got an honerable mention once again
  Congratulations and salutations
  You're a figment of your own imagination
• One light, one mind
  Flashing in the dark
  Blinded by the silence of a thousand broken hearts
  "For crying out loud" she screamed unto me
  A free for all
  F*** 'em all
  You are your own sight
• you gotta live cause life goes on
  But now I see I'm mortal too
  and I cant live my life like you
  Gotta live it up while life goes on
• I'm on a roll
  No self control
  I'm blowing off steam with methamphetamine
  Don't know what I want
  That's all that I've got
  And I'm picking scabs off my face
• Talk is cheap and lies are expensive
  My wallet's fat and so is my head
  Hit and run and then I'll hit you again
  I'm a smart ass but I'm playing dumb
• I'm not part of your elite
  I'm just alright
• You gotta problem you just can't hide
  Compulsive habits that never seem to die
  Your breath has taken up all the air
  Your teeth are rotting
  To black holes in your head
  Well reality is due
  What you say just can't be true
  When the story is streched and so far-fetched
  That you're lacking an excuse
  You Lied...
• Every time I'm fallin’ down
  You take the reprecussions
  Headaches and anxieties
  Advancing my frustrations
  Rushings of my depression
  Sacrifice everything
  Waste with me into nothing
  Well now you're stuck with
• I'm the son of rage and love
  The Jesus of Suburbia
• And there's nothing wrong with me
  This is how I'm supposed to be
  In a land of make believe
  That don't believe in me
• It didn't say much
  But it only confirmed that
  The center of the earth
  Is the end of the world
  And I could really care less
• Everyone is so full of shit
  Born and raised by hypocrites
  Hearts recycled but never saved
  From the cradle to the grave
• To live and not to breathe
  Is to die In tragedy
  To run, to run away
  To find what you believe
  And I leave behind
  This hurricane of fucking lies
  I lost my faith to this
  This town that don't exist
• Hear the sound of the falling rain
  Coming down like an Armageddon flame
• I am the son of a bitch and Edgar Allen Poe
  Raised in the city under a halo of lights
  The product of war and fear that we've been victimized
• Drain the pressure from the swelling,
  This sensations overwhelming
  Give me a long kiss goodnight
  and everything will be alright
• She's the symbol
  of resistance
  and she's holding on my
  heart like a hand grenade
• She's all alone again
  Wiping the tears from her eyes
  Some days he feels like dying
  She gets so sick of crying
• here comes the rain again
  falling from the stars
  drenched in my pain again
  becoming who we are
• My heart is beating from me
  I am standing all alone
  Please call me only if you are coming home
  Waste another year flies by
  Waste a night or two
  You taught me how to live
  In the streets of shame
  Where you've lost your dreams in the rain
  There's no signs of hope
• Dreaming of a song
  But something went wrong
  But I can't tell anyone
  'Cause no one's here
  Left me here alone
• And in the darkest night
  If my memory serves me right
  I'll never turn back time
  Forgetting you, but not the time.
  

• You're in time to see me wrestle with my conscience
• Inspiration isn't cheap these days,
  You better make them earn it
• Two roads... split off from here,
  and my life goes running in opposite directions.
  Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be.
• Note to self: I miss you terribly.
  This is what we call a tragedy.
  Come back to me, come back to me, to me
• Which part of me is lost? I feel so close, and yet I am so far.
• Words don't seem to come so easy
  When I need them oh so badly
  Here's to playing tug of war with my vocal chords
  Maybe I can give this another
  Shot or sing about a broken
  Heart, or imitate the way it feels
  If this is happening for real
• We stand alone
  Under fictitious skies
• You were my compass
  Leading me to nowhere fast
  Promises were lonely roads
  I followed you down like a map
• Secrets don't make friends
• Fake faces everywhere I see
  Fake people looking back at me
  Sit down, don't tell me
  Don't tell me where I don't belong
• I won't go first
  I'm self-destructing
  Suffering means it's your time
  Give up on yourself for everyone
• There's an ocean out my window
  There's beauty in its tears
  There's an ocean out my window
  It's crashing in my ears
• Breathing is the hardest thing I do
  I'm not the only person in the room
  It's hard for me, to feel like I'm perfect
• Do you know
  What it's like to feel ugly all the time
• Pushing my limits for your entertainment
  And you had the nerve
  To call out my weaknesses
  And drag me through the dirt
• I'm staring in the mirror
  Looking back at the person I hate

• So I run, hide and tear myself up
  Start again with a brand new name
  And eyes that see into infinity
• Ever get the feeling you're gone
  I'll show you the way, the way I'm going
• Apocalyptic and insane, my dreams will never change
  You wanna be the one in control
  You wanna be the one who's alive
  You wanna be the one who's old
  It's not a matter of luck, it's just a matter of time
• Stand out on the edge of the earth
  Dive into the center of fate
  Walk right inthe sight of a gun
  Look into the new future's face
• I'm in my head and I'm spinning
• A simple fear to wash you away
  An open mind canceled it today
  A silent song that's in your words
  A different taste that's in your mind
• And be afraid, afraid to speak your mind
• I open up my head
  Inside I find another person's mind
  I'm gonna take this chance I've got
  I run denying as we speak
  Hiding my face among the weak
  Some say their day is all away
  Into the wild
  I'm with a mission
  Over the hill
  Come here with me
• Entangled in a missing memory
• Watch your friends run and hide
  Help them fall back in this cycle
• Watch as the worlds colliding
  Can you see it?
  Can you feel it?
  Watch as the worlds...
• Welcome to the Universe
  Cross the line
  Redefine
  Lose your mind
  Come crawl inside
• Be a hero
  Kill your ego
  It doesn't matter it's all just a pack of lies
  Build a new base
  Steal a new face
  It doesn't matter it's all just to save you
  We'll never fade away
  We'll never fade away
• Your promises, they look like lies
  Your honesty, like a back that hides a knife
• Lie awake in bed at night
  And think about your life
  Do you want to be different?
  Try to let go of the truth
  The battles of your youth
  'Cause this is just a game
• Everyone's looking at me
  I'm running around in circles, baby
  A quiet desperation's building higher
  I've got to remember this is just a game
• I tried to be someone else
  But nothing seemed to change
  I know now, this is who I really am inside.
  Finally found myself
  Fighting for a chance.
  I know now, this is who I really am
• it's time to set myself on fire
• Maybe tonight we can forget about it all
  It could be just like heaven
  I am a machine
  No longer living, just a shell of what I dreamed
• Don't save me, don't save me, cuz
  I don't care
• I've been thinking of everything
  I used to want to be
  I've been thinking of everything
  Of me, of you and me
• This is the story of my life
  These are the lies I have created
• The ultimate defence is to pretend
• To buy the truth
  And sell a lie
  The last mistake before you die
  So don't forget to breathe tonight
  Tonight's the last so say good-bye
• So you left me on my own
  To complete the mission
  Now i'm leaving it all behind
  

alright kids. well im bored extremely and for the past few hours i have been finding my fave lyrics for my fave bands, my last few journals were each a collection of fave lyrics for each band. they include: Motion City Soundtrack, Blind Melon, My Chemical Romance, Fall Out Boy, Ok Go, Silversun Pickups, Bayside, and Kill Hannah.
if you like those bands..or me...check em out haha. i have decided that favorite lyrics can really say a lot about a person, i found it kinda intresting which lines stood out to me(and tried to avoid the cliche mass favorites if they didnt really stick out to me and weren't really my favorites). anyway, its def. something to do if you bored(make your own or read mine haha) yes. indeed.

• So this is how it is to be alone
  Your heart beats like it's cracked and made of stone
  But whenever someone asks just say there's nothing wrong
• So this is how it feels to be insane
  The world looks like a movie always playing
  But how can hearts so young feel so much pain?
• They can't ever save us now
  Will they ever understand we don't want to be like them?
• Live fast and for real
• And die young
• The ferris wheel still turns
  As though it's a popular attraction still
  And when the songs slowly play
  Throw the old broken PA
• Strange holiday maniquins still move
  As though someone was watching besides me
  Their joints are rusty
  They chirp like inside
  There's something alive
  Oh no, somehow it strikes me
• She wants to go fast
  And never come back
  And never collapse
  And he's a real animal
  Gone out of control
  Who'd rather die young than get old
• Boys and girls
  They dance like it's the end of the world
• And he's a real cannibal
  And suicidal
  Eratic on heavy metal
• You you tore me apart
  Broke all of my bones
  And shot through my heart
  I always used to pretend
  That the hero really gets the girl in the end
• It's raining all the time
  I'll need you by my side
  When I leave it all behind
  It's raining all the time
  She said: I hate the rain
  But here it comes again
• There's something in my head
  I can't get off my mind since you've been gone it's raing all the time
• Love, my angel on silver lines
  So young and terrified...
  Somehow we realized
  Only the strong survive
• But my love
  We'll race the dream together
  Then I'll know they can't tear us apart!
  All my love
  The king and queen together
  Now I know they can't tear us apart!
• Unwanted, unneeded
  You've always been mistreated
  Hang on!
  (Don't do what they say to)
  Unwanted
  And been for so long
  Say, "Hey, Mom!
  I'm never coming home again"
• Sunrise always burns my eyes
  And outside there may be zombies too
  The crawling mice in suits and ties
  Are blind to what makes this thing beautiful
  Is anyone here alive?!
  Is anyone here alive?!
  Is anyone here alive?!
  Lift up the lids of your eyes!
• Dying just to survive
• It looked like the perfect day
  In photos we were smiling
  But something was wrong in you
  Inside you were suffering
  Lungs were barely moving
  I wanted to comfort you
• When you opened up what you said, it was so sad
  That no one would notice if you ran away
  Then your mascara it ran, don't you vanish tonight
  I'm alive just to say:
  Love you to death
• Woke and nothing feels right
  Can't believe i made it through the night
  The sky was cracked like porcelain
  And all the souls they rose and marched again
  It's the same dream
  It goes on and on and on and on
  But this is where it ends
  This is the collapse
• We become statues without eyes
  Barely audible
  We're froze in time
• All the nights when i was scared
  And whe it got to weird
  It was the song that saved me
  I remember, remember everything
  All the tracks that shaped and changed me
  Inside of speeding cars
  And lying on your floor
  When we were living in a broken world
  We turned it up and the we watched the city burn
  I remember, remeber everything
  All the times when no one ever came to get me
• So now i
  Scream
  And hope it's a dream
  It's hard just to breathe
  When you say goodbye
  I wanna sleep but there are nightmares when i try
  The birds are circling
  I know the reasons why
  Maybe a sad song some time
  I will make you remember me
  Somehow i feel that it's my destiny to fail
  Get dried and hung upon a gallery wall
  Holding on by just a thread to my heart

my life isnt working anymore
i think that thing that lets you act reasonably and calmly is broken
either that or my self control is further away than i thought.

isnt that great fucking news?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!??!?!*sarcastic here of course. it is in fact horrible news and i am not enjoying this and that is an angry yell and anger*

• And I swear if I could take your pain
  And frame it and hang it on my wall,
  Maybe you would never have to hurt it all.
  Painting pictures in red and blue.
  A portrait bruise just like you
  And now you're walking away.
• When is enough, finally enough?
  All the hang-ups and the heartbreaks get you past
  All failures and bad breaks just accept yourself
  Find something that brings you closer to complete
• the night sky's black and i'm awake lying on the ground.
  the grass beneath my feet is hard and cold just like i've come to be.
  the stars are gone behind the clouds and i can't see a thing
  so i'll just let my eyes stay closed just like me, i can't open up.
• write me off, pretend i don't exist
• all you want is a reason you should live
  or a way for you to die
• I'm visiting that grave,
  And the epitaph has already been chiseled in my mind,
  I'm breaking it all down right now,
  The way I should have let you go,
  And let you ruin one life instead of two
• Sometimes you have to see the beauty,
  In all of this loneliness.
• The streetlights flicker, and they fade,
  Like every good intention that I've had,
  And every face that passes through my mind,
  And I'll be struggling with these same old dreams,
• There's a voice in my head telling me why I should hate you,
  But I hate myself instead.
  There's a pair of dead eyes in the mirror looking back at me.
  I guess it's wrong to live life so lifelessly
• And now I'm feeling so down, that there's no God above.
  No mercy for a soul that's just way too fucked up.
• reminds me that there's more to life then living.
  Maybe giving up's not bad, but part of letting go of you.
• Take this razor, sign your name across my wrists
  so everyone will know who left me like this.
  Sew me up, my scars run deep
  A reminder notDisfigure the outside
  To show how ruined I am
  There's no pain and no pleasure when you're
  Too numb to feel
   to forget the times that we've had.
• I don't deserve such an easy exit
  So maybe my
  Spine can snap on impact and I'll
  have to crawl away.
• I'm ready to take that big step
  Start tearing off the layers I put up
  Or is it too late to be
  Anything but what I am
• Are you like this, afraid to be yourself?
  And if you somehow get through all of this
  without hating yourself for all of it
  and you know that I will hate you enough for the both of us.
• forgotten all the loneliness and darkness in my life.
• don't mean to scare you but i've
  i've not been sleeping lately
  and phone calls aren't doing much to help
  so if it's all the same i'd
  just ask to never have to
  offer explanation or excuse again
• we make our lives seem like they're still worth living
  when we find out in the end
  it's only us that we've been kidding
• Nothing is real
  And I want you to know
  That I'm not alright
  Tear open my chest
  I'll try not to flinch
  I won't make promises
  I won't make promises
  You taught me that.
  I'm still losing what's left of my self esteem
  And I'm still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams
• The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most
  So I'll bite my tongue till it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know
  The easiest things to fake are feelings to fool someone else
  And I've been tricked for so long by you that I spent these last few months in my own hell
• I hate myself for hating myself
  Just enough to love you
• You and your bullshit,
  Are pushing me towards an explosion.
  I guess you're what drives me.
•  guess you get caught up,
  In the day-to-day,
  Drama of being you.
  To notice me,
  And what's become of my eyes,
  The vessels are an angry red,
  Just like the blood from my lips, as I chew on them.
• I'm calling all my oldest friends,
  Saying "sorry for this mess we're in,"
  And I'm waiting, waiting
  For the Sun to come and melt this snow,
  wash away the pain, and give me back control, control.
• It makes you think about the life you've led,
  Shit you've done, things you've said.
  And it's grounding, grounding.
  I've been feeling three feet tall this month,
  hardly indestructible.
  But the snow melts, and the rhythm still goes on.
• Friends stay side by side,
  In life and death you've always stole my heart,
  You'll always mean so much to me, it's hard to believe this
• Do you ever wake up to realize
  that your life is meaningless?
  Does it give you strength or lead you to
  your grave at a young age?
• self pity's meaningless.
  Though I'm 10 feet deep,
  I'll claw my way back out from in my grave.
• Now I realize, I'd give anything I have
  to walk a day in my old shoes.
• This isn't who I am.
  From confidence to self doubt in 60 seconds
• I look so strong
  when the weight of all the world
  don't take its toll.
  And I'd choose my sides
  if I believed in what was right,
  but I'm all wrong.
• Never telling the truth how this life eats away.
  Not admitting I'm fake
  and I'm questioning whether this whole thing was worth it to die poor and all alone?
• "Here lies the destiny of 2 hurt souls
  afraid to be cured again."
  That could be our epitaph.
• I don't wanna call your family and tell them to build a coffin,
  because their oldest son just overdosed on pills.
  You've got a red glare in your eyes,
  and the sky outside your door's a blacker blue.
  I hate to see what's become of you.
  Tony, it's just a stick in the spokes.
  It's not too late for you to find your way home,
  because your friends are still here,
  and your family's where you left them.
  So put on a clear head and try it out for a ride,
  because you're better than this and you can better your life.
  You can't choose your father,
  we're suffering together.
• I didn't mean it when I said, that you were dead to me.
  You mean the world to me
• Drink up beautiful.
  I spiked your cup with angst and a heart attack,
  'cause I've got so much trapped
  It's all because of you.
  So I figured you might like some back

• It's no wonder that we did it this way
  Keep looking forward on paths sideways
  It's everything that is connected and beautiful
  And now i know just where i stand
  Move on
  Roll along
  Not today
• This can be the bitter end
  I know it wont
• And soon we'll sing in better moods
  A sigularity well everyone but you
  They'll pull the nerves out through the pores
  Though bruised so easily the comeback kid's not
  Bleeding
• The way things have fallen
  Can't be afraid anymore
  First we were water
  In creation lake
  Have to start to end
  To go where life lives
• Come join in the last hurrah with open sores and open Jaw
  Find one last flaw and keep it safe and free from harm
  What have you done it's too early for everyone
  So smile go inside come to see there is no sign
• Please don't stop singing
  Cohorts are empty jars
• Folding up the skyline
  Agreeing on a steep decline
  Cant control this airplane
  Being caught is just the same
  Headed for a lowlife
  Little lover's so polite
  Waking up the core needs
  With smelling salts and faulty means
• Release the castaways who run amok
  From self appointed winds which blow and such
  When present tense gets strangled in the mire
  Made of our cozy decomposing wires
• But when the night is over and the walls start burning
  When fire starts to matter and the clock is churning
  Cliches and other chatter keeps our minds from
  Learning
• Let's start making
  Maps out of all the dead skin
  That maybe causing false alarms
  It might be peeling much too quickly
  Clean up with me
  The homemade surgeries
  My veneers sink into you
  And show how twisted we can be
• I've been waiting
  I've been waiting for this moment all my life
  But it's not quite right
  And this 'real'
  It's impossible if possible
  At who's blind word
  So clear but so unheard
• So you can't hold a star in your hand though
  At least you can hold on to another plan
• As the music soared into the air
  As the lights went down
  She said don't open your eyes
• Remove a bullet from my head
  Extracting over confidence
  Hidden so easy to pretend
  Too bad the rush was found again
• It's the colorless picture
  In a heart shaped frame
  The silhouette of a dough eyed girl
  Who at one point had a name
• maybe if we're loud we'll stay alive
• While everybody wants to run and hide
  But now it's too late
  

• Quit acting so friendly.
  Don't nod don't laugh all nicely.
  Don't think you'll up-end me.
  Don't sigh, don't sip your iced-tea.
  And don't say, "It's been a while..."
  And don't flash that stupid smile.
• Don't be so damn benign
  and don't waste my fucking time
• Don't even try and find a line this time, it's fine. Darling, you're still
  divine.
• mediocre people do exceptional things all
  the time.
• When that day finally nears, you'll at least have made it clear
  that compassion's just a nicer way of looking down your nose
• But with a little bit of money we could buy us a car.
  With a little luck we could get away from where we are.
  Let's get out of here.
  We'll drive, one thousand miles an hour.
  We'll fly by wheat fields and water towers.
  We'll go. We'll go and we'll go and we'll go. Let's go.
• Now the look in your eye...
  You know, the look right before you cry... it's always here.
  So in the day when you wake...
  In the morning when you awake, let's disappear.
• Sing us a song to hum through the hours of dying.
• the worst of it now: I can't remember your face.
• For a while, with the vertigo cured, we were alive -- we were pure.
  The void took the shape of all that you were, but years take their toll,
  and things get bent into shape...
• Return. were supposed to return.
• You I never say quite what I mean, and never mean quite what I say,
  and how did that get out of me, and what the hell did I mean to
  say?
• I really mean it now,
  this time I swear I have not lied.
  This isn't like the last time...
  I swear to God I have not lied!
• Does it rain where you are? Does it snow?
  And, if so, remind me not to go there, the weather affects my knee.
•  Some day (one day) you'll miss me.
  Mundane Sundays, when I'm gone.
  One day (some day) you'll miss me.
  One day when I'm gone (adieu and so long)
  One day when I'm gone!
• No one back in traffic school had
  told us there are signs that can't be learned.
• Days will turn into nights, nights will turn into days, weeks, seasons, and years.
  We'll stay for years.
• everybody knows, everybody knows that it's in.
  The fix is in.
• Hello, my treacherous friends,
  and thank you for joining me here tonight.
  I brought you all here to discuss, as I must,
  how grateful I am for your insights.
• It's not just that I'm selfish and scared,
  it's not just that I'm so unprepared.
  It's just you'd think I'd grow out of this, wouldn't you?
• 'cause lunacy is everything I need.
• When they finally come to destroy the earth, they'll have to go through you first. I bet they won't be
  expecting that
• but something was wrong till you tap danced on the air, in the night. Screaming at the top of your
  lungs, you said, "Come on, come on. Do what you want. What could go wrong? Oh come on come on come on,
• Just when you think you're in control,
  just when you think you've got a hold,
  just when you get on a roll,
  here it goes, here it goes, here it goes again
• But you got yourself into your own mess
  You know the demons in the design
  A good idea at the time
• It's a disaster
  It's an incredible mess
  But it's all we've got now
  Yeah it's all we got
  Howling with laughter, panic
  alarm, and distress
  But it's all we've got now
  Yeah it's all we got
• Are you dumb enough to break the mold
  or smart enough to fail?
• Everybody's best attempts didn't do no good. No sign of life.
  But I got a hunch... its not over yet.
• Did you come here to dance?
  Whats in your glass?
  Do you feel better?
  Let it rain, Let it pour
  Let it rain, Let it pour
  Hallelujah, Hallelujah
  Let it rain, Let it pour
• Vision blue and blurry, falling angels in a flurry, spinning thru the empty room
• To hell with Valentine's, to hell with perfume
  To hell with chocolates and picnics
  And Sinatra tunes
  Cuz while the rest of the girls are drowning in roses and songs he composes
• Let's burn holes in the carpets
  Kicking, shouting, dancing on the tables all night long
• Give me death and demolition.
• Having spent your entire life exactly where you are tonight in the valley between intent and deed, you
  must have mastered this, the fragile art of a good excuse, the little things that get you to believe.
• Hasn't being right just let you down?
  Right just lets you down.
  So listen, I'm not trying to say anything at all here.
  There isn't much let, anyway, that hasn't been said.
  But don't you think that possibly, this time, it's different?
  Don't you think that maybe, this time, you were wrong?
• You don't have to be alone to be lonely,
• You don't have to be sick to be dying
• You don't have to have lost to be lost
• tada- what a magic combination
  
  

• When the moonlight
  Hits your bright eyes I go blind
  And maybe next time
  I'll remember not to tell you something stupid like I'll never leave your side
• I said I hate you but I'd never change a thing
• What you do on your own time's just fine.
  My imagination's much worse, I just never want to know.
  What meant the world imploaded faded and demoted
  All my oxygen to product gas and suffocated my last chance
• Calm before the storm set it off, and the sun burnt out tonight.
• Walking out on the show is walking out on you
  And walking out on you's still the best thing that I ever did.
• I was terrified and would you mind if I
  sat next to you and watched you smile
  So many kids but I only see you
  And I don't think you notice me
  Well I've seen your boyfriend
  and I don't think he treats you right
  But that's none of my business is it?
• Where winning looks like losing
  And I'm winning every time
• This might just be a waste of time
  there's no one I'd rather waste
  My time with than all my best friends
• We'll all take turns not for the worst
  We're all "hasbeens" and "never-were's"
  And we're all in the back singing "Roxanne"
  Just watching life pass us by
  Pass us by
• We've been down
  We've been out
  We've been hanging 'round
  Tip our glasses to no direction, yeah
  Start the van
  Get me out of this one horse town
  Waste this night
• The battles only halfway done
  I might look young
  But I'm no less defeated
  How's the weather up there?
• You laughed off my affections
  While I passed by your direction
  I should have known from your walk, yeah
  It was the end of you
• In the meantime just talking with my shoes
  Converse with my Converse
  At least they hear a word I say
  And scrutinize it
  Just as far as they can tell what I'm getting at
• Let’s play this game called “when you catch fire”
  I wouldn’t piss to put you out
  Stop burning bridges and drive off of them
  So I can forget about you
• a rivalry goes so deep between me
  and this loss of sleep over you
• I'm good to go
  And I'm going nowhere fast
  It could be worse
  It could be taking you there with me
  I'm good to go
  But it looks like I'm still on my own
• And I read about the afterlife
  But I never really lived more than an hour
• Tonight the headphones will deliver you the words that I can't say.
  (Tonight I'm writing you) a million miles away
• somehow it was like you were the first to listen to everything we said.
  My smile's an open wound without you...and my hands are tied to pages inked to bring you back.
• you want apologies
  girl, you might hold your breath
  until your breathing stops forever, forever
  (...every pane of glass) the only thing you'll get
  is this curse on your lips:
  (every pane of) i hope they taste of me forever
• with every breath i wish your body will be broken again, again
• I want to hate you half as much as I hate myself
• My pen is the barrel of the gun.
  Remind me which side you should be on
• I wish that I was as invisible as you make me feel
• Hey Chris, you were our only friend.
  And I know this is belated, we love you back.
• I know you would be there either way
  I'm so glad it seems like these times will never fade
• I can't wake up to these reminders of who I am:
  A failure at everything... 18 going on extinct.
  I know my place it's nowhere you should roam.
• I spent most of last night dragging this lake
  for the corpses of all my past mistakes
• Your remorse hasn't fallen on deaf ears
  rather ones that just don't care
  cause I know
  that you're in between arms somewhere
  next to heartbeats
  where you shouldn't dare sleep
  Now I'll teach you a lesson
  for keeping secrets from me
• why can you read me like no one else?
  I hide behind these words
  but I'm coming out
  I wish I kept them behind my tongue
• You only hold me up like this
  Cause you don't know who I really am
  Sometimes I just want to know what it's like to be you
  We're making out inside crashed cars
  We're sleeping through all our memories
  I used to waste my time dreaming of being alive
  (now I only waste it dreaming of you)
• I keep my jealousy close,
  'Cause it's all mine.
  And if you say this makes you happy,
  Then I'm not the only one lying.
• I'll be your best kept secret
  And your biggest mistake.
  The hand behind this pen relives a failure every day.
• So wear me like a locket around your throat.
  I'll weigh you down.
  I'll watch you choke.
  You look so good in blue
• We're the kids who feel like dead ends
  And I want to be known for my hits, not just my misses
  I took a shot and didn't even come close
  At trust and love and hope
  And the poets are just kids who didn't make it
  And never had it at all
• Force our smiles, baby, half dead
  From comparing myself to everyone else around me
• I keep telling myself
  I keep telling myself
  I'm not the desperate type
• Sitting out dances on the wall
  Trying to forget everything that isn't you
  I'm not going home alone
  Cause I don't do too well on my own
• Are we growing up or just going down?
  It's just a matter of time until we're all found out
  Take our tears, put them on ice
  Cause I swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light
• The best part of "Believe" is the "Lie",
  I hope you sing along and you steal a line
  I need to keep you like this in my mind
  So give in or just give up
• I found the cure to growing older
  And you're the only place that feels like home
  Just so you know, you'll never know
  And some secrets weren't meant to be told
  But I found the cure to growing older
• They call kids like us vicious and carved out of stone
  But for what we've become, we just feel more alone
  Always weigh what I've got against what I left
  So progress report: I am missing you to death
• I used to obsess over living,
  Now I only obsess over you
• From day one I talked about getting out
  But not forgetting about
  How my worst fears are letting out
  He said why put a new address
  On the same old loneliness
  When breathing just passes the time
  Until we all just get old and die
  Now talking's just a waste of breath
  And living's just a waste of death
  And why put a new address
  On the same old loneliness
  And this is you and me
  And me and you
  Until we've got nothing left
• Love never wanted me
• I'm casually obsessed and I've forgiven death,
  I am indifferent, yet (I am a total wreck)
  I'm every cliche, but I simply do it best
• So long live the car crash hearts
  Cry on the couch all the poets come to life
  Fix me in 45
• They say your head can be a prison.
  Then these are just conjugal visits.
  People will dissect us till
  This doesn't mean a thing anymore.
• Sing, until your lungs give out
• We're the new face of failure
  Prettier and younger but not any better off
  Bullet proof loneliness
  At best, at best
• A penny for your thoughts but a dollar for your insides
  Or a fortune for your disaster
  I'm just a painter and I'm drawing a blank
• Broken down on memory lane
  Alone together, we're alone
• I'm a stitch away from making it
  And a scar away from falling apart
• I can't commit to a thing
• The tombstones were waiting
  They were half-engraved
  They knew it was over
  Just didn't know the date
• When I’m home alone I just dance by myself
  And you pull my head so close volume goes with the truth
  Signing off "I’m alright in bed but I’m better with a pen"
  The kid was alright but it went to his head

 

• this vanity I'm breaking, lets me live my life like this
• Well I'll choose the life I've taken, never mind the friends I'm making
  and the beauty that I'm faking lets me live my life like this
• And you can't keep my brother, and you won't fuck my friends
  and we're not working out, we're not working out
  This time I mean it, never mind the times I've seen it
• And you must keep your soul like a secret in your throat
• I'll never let them, I'll never let them
  I'll never let them hurt you not tonight
  I'll never let them, I can't forget them
  I'll never let them hurt you, I promise
• Lets say goodbye, the hundredth time
  And then tomorrow we'll do it again
  Tomorrow we'll do it again
• We could be perfect one last night
  And die like star-crossed lovers when we fight
• Stand up fucking tall
  Don't let them see your back
  Take my fucking hand
  and never be afraid again
• Trust, you said
  Who put the words in your head
  Oh how wrong we were to think
  That immortality meant never dying
• just think happy thoughts
• You're not in this alone
  Let me break this awkward silence
  Let me go, go on record
  Be the first to say I'm sorry
  Hear me out
• Our memories blanket us with friends we know like fallout vapors
  Steel corpses stretch out towards an ending sun, scorched and black
  It reaches in and tears your flesh apart
  As ice cold hands rip into your heart
• But would anything matter if you're already dead?
  And well should I be shocked now by the last thing you said?
• And there's no room in this hell,
  There's no room in the next,
  And our memories defeat us,
  And I'll end this direst.
• From silent dreams we never wake, and in this promise that we'll make
  Starless eyes for heaven's sake, but I hear you anyway
  Well I thought I heard you
  Say I like you, we can get out
  We don't have to stay, stay inside this place
• And I just can't stay, one day we'll run away
• We could be in the park and dancing by a tree
• Sometimes I think I'll die alone, I'd think I'd love to die alone
• As snow falls on desert sky
  Until the end of everything
  I'm trying, I'm trying
  To let you know how much you mean
  As days fade, and nights grow
  And we go cold
• If you were here I'd never have a fear.
  So go on live your life.
  But I miss you more than I did yesterday.
  You're beautiful!
• We are young and we don't care.
  Your dreams and your hopeless hair.
  We never wanted it to be this way.
  For all our lives.
  Do you care {at all}?
• To the last parade
  When the parties fade
  And the choice you made
  To the End.
• Well, they're never gonna get me,
  Like a bullet through a flock of doves...
  To wage this war against your faith in me,
  Your life...will never be the same.
• Life is but a dream for the dead,
  And well I, I won't go down by myself,
  But I'll go down with my friends.
• Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
  I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way
• You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed
• And all the things that you never ever told me
  And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
• Check into the Hotel Bella Muerte.
  It gives the weak flight.
  It gives the blind sight.
• Slip into the tragedy you've spun this chamber dry.
• Sister, I'm not much a poet, but a criminal
  And you never had a chance
  Love it, or leave it, you can't understand
  A pretty face, but you do so carry on,
• So give me all your poison
  And give me all your pills
  And give me all your hopeless hearts
  And make me ill
  You're running after something
  That you'll never kill
  If this is what you want
  Then fire at will
• But don't stop if I fall
  And don't look back
  Oh baby don't stop
  Bury me and fade to black
• For what you did to me,
  and what I'll do to you,
  you get, what everyone else gets,
  you get a lifetime
• just know that I will remember you
  if living was the hardest part
  we'll then one day be together
  and in the end we'll fall apart
  just like the leaves change in colors
  and then I will be with you
  I will be there one last time now
• I lost my fear of falling
• So I won't stop dying, won't stop lying
  If you want I'll keep on crying
  Did you get what you deserve?
  Is this what you always want me for?
• Touched by angels, though I fall out of grace
  I did it all so maybe I'd live this every day
• And we'll all dance alone to the tune of your death
  We'll love again, we'll laugh again
  And it's better off this way
• And we'll love again, we'll laugh again
  We'll cry again and we'll dance again
  And it's better off this way
  So much better off this way
• I said, we'll drown ourselves in misery tonight
  I lied, you've worn out all your dancing shoes this time
  Just give us war-worn lipstick by the door if I inflame
• I bet you're not fucking pretty on the inside
• If you look in the mirror and don't like what you see
  You can find out firsthand what it's like to be me
• When I grow up I want to be nothing at all!
• And wouldn't it be great If we were dead?
• If life ain't just a joke (LA LA LA LA LA!)
  Then why are we laughing? (LA LA LA LA LA LA!)
  If life ain't just a joke (LA LA LA LA LA LA LA!)
  Then why am I dead?
  DEAD!
• "Son when you grow up,
  would you be the savior of the broken,
  the beaten and the damned?"
  He said "Will you defeat them,
  your demons, and all the non-believers,
  the plans that they have made?"
  "Because one day I'll leave you,
  A phantom to lead you in the summer,
  To join The Black Parade."
• We'll carry on
  And in my heart I can't contain it
  The anthem won't explain it.
• Your misery and hate will kill us all.
• I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
  Just a boy, who had to sing this song
  I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
  I! don't! care!
• We're damned after all.
  Through fortune and flame we fall.
  And if you can stay then I'll show you the way,
  To return from the ashes you call
• Don't you breathe for me,
  Undeserving of your sympathy,
  Cause there ain't no way that I'm sorry for what I did.
• The hardest part is letting go of
  Your dreams.
• The boys and girls in the clique
  The awful names that they stick
  You're never gonna fit in much, kid
  But if you're troubled and hurt
  What you got under your shirt
  Will make them pay for the things that they did
• Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me
• You're just a sad song with nothing to say
  About a life long wait for a hospital stay
  And if you think that I'm wrong,
  This never meant nothing to ya
• I am not afraid to keep on living
  I am not afraid to walk this world alone
  Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
  Nothing you can say can stop me going home
•  see you lying next to me
  With words I thought I'd never speak
  Awake and unafraid
  Asleep or dead
• Well tonight, well tonight
  Will it ever come?
  Spend the rest of your days rocking out
  Just for the dead
  Well tonight
  Will it ever come?
  I can see you awake anytime, in my head
• Hear the sound
  The angels come screaming
  Down your voice
  I hear you've been bleeding
  Make your choice
  They say you've been pleading
  Someone save us
  Heaven help us now
  Come crashing down
  We'll hear the sound
  As you're falling down
• we are all a bunch of liars.
  Tell me, baby, who do you wanna be?
• You'll never take me alive.
  You'll never take me alive.
  Do what it takes to survive,
  'Cause I'm still here.
  You'll never get me alive.
  You'll never take me alive.
  Do what it takes to survive,
  And I'm still here.
• Come on angel, don't you cry
• I will take this ferris wheel
  And I'm sleepwalking back into this hell
  
  

• Fine time we all crossed lines
  make the music that makes us
  Feel fine
• What do you think they would say
  If I stood up and I walked away
  Nobody here really understand me
  and so I'll wave goodbye I'm fine, I'm fine
  Tones of home
  said you don't like the way I'm living
  you don't like me
  Tones of home, tones of home
  And so I'll wave goodbye.
  I'm flyin' I'm flyin' home
  And I always thought this would be
  the land of milk and honey
  Oh but I came to find out that it's
  all hate and money
  And there's a canopy of greed holding me down.
• All alone the broadening skies
  Under the every night I will lie
  Scratching claw and grip the rails
  Every day my living hell
  Oh God you know I've tried
  I know how hard I tried
  and oh I tried......
• Where I can feel no pain just calm and sane
  What a place for one to find
• Then they ripped away my memories
  And I cant remember who I was before.
  And I only wanted to be 16 and free
•  I got all you normals looking at me
  I'll scratch a hole in my life
  So everyone can see
• My mind is a mind that I have come to know
  And my eyes can't conceive a world that can not grow
• So this is me and that's my song
  And I guess that you can see that we don't get along
• I don't feel the suns comin' out today
  its staying in, its gonna find another way.
  As I sit here in this misery, I don't
  think I'll ever see the sun from here
• When you feel your life ain't worth living
  you've got to stand up and
  take a look around you then a look way up to the sky.
  And when your deepest thoughts are broken,
  keep on dreaming boy, cause when you stop dreamin' it's time to die.
• But I know we all can't stay here forever,
  so I want to write my words on the face of today.
  and then they'll paint it
• When life is hard, you have to change
• I just want some one to say to me
  I'll always be there when you wake
• And it rips my life away, but it's a great escape
• The mistakes that I've made
  No they don't seem to bother me
  I sure as hell don't feel like
  I missed any kind of train
  If I could only show you how I feel
  Then you wouldn't bother me
  And then maybe you'd see why we don't mind being blind
• Take my hand child now little boy don't you be afraid
  I'll take your soul and walk on water
• With a candle comes emotions that
  Dance with the shadows on my wall
• Said all these people they won't leave me alone
  And we need, a little time to ourselves
  And half the reasons why
  I'm sketchin' all the time
  The result of a life in this hell
  But oh well, I think it's time
• laugh and slip into another state of mind
  To let you know that I am real
  And all the worries you build up inside your soul
  The ones that make your world stand still
  Means you can feel, that it's time to go
  
  

 

• Hold my hand,
  Where storms are sand.
  And sand is said,
  To be sad.
• Betty can’t quit carving question marks in my wrist
  How come we’re so alone
• We fail to represent
  We fail to be content
  We fail at everything we ever even try to attempt
• Indoor living in cardboard confines
  Counts for very little when safe is just a state of mind.
• All the things I remember
  Were they worth writing down
• Don’t be afraid
  of what you say
  'cause anyway
  is the only way
• A hero zero with a capital Z (that's me)
  Singing songs from the balcony as the city crumbles
  Under the powers of an evil doctor rocket science monster
  with capabilities to destroy the entire universe
• I'm drowning by numbers
  my halo is bent
  it's a fat fucking lie
  and so the abstract motor gives in
  it says "At least I tried."
  At least I tried.
• I'm fine, I'm fine
  These words are all I have to hide behind
  So get behind me, you have no right to say..
  I shut my mouth and walk away from the memory game
  So don't forget, don't forget I am the reason
• I am wrecked. I am overblown.
  I am also fed up with the fucking common cold!
  When I just want to feel alive for the first time in my life,
  I just want to feel attractive today.
• But all I could do was close my eyes
  And cross my arms and hope to die
  Cause you don't fucking listen
  When I'm around.
  The least you could do is take it back
  All the vicious remarks and verbal attacks
  Cause I can't fucking stand it.
  When You're Around.
• We love that game, but we never play
  'cause we will lose, and we wanna stay
  the way we are, the way we've been for far too long.
• From the falsest smile to the fear of death is why
  the pain reminds us that we're still alive.
  With our hopes on hold and our lack of interest exposed,
• Hooray for the madness
• I know I say that I'm just fine,
  But I hope you wonder from time to time
• Let's get fucked up and die..
  I'm speaking figuratively, of course..
  Like the last time that I committed suicide.. social suicide..
  Yeah, so I'm already dead on the inside,
  But I can still pretend with my memories and photographs,
  I have learned to love the lie.
• I want to thank you for being a part of my forget-me-nots and marigolds..
  And all the things that don't get old..
  Is it legal to do this? I surely don't know.
  It's the only way I have learned to express myself through other peoples' descriptions of life..
  I'm afraid I'm alone and entirely useless...
• I'm not smiling
  behind this fake veneer.
  I am often interrupted
  or completely ignored,
  but most of all I'm bored.
• Why did I come?
  Oh, why did I come here?
  These humans all suck.
  I'd rather be home
  feeling violent and lonely.
  I'm not trying to sound so insincere,
  but the postcard that's taped to the freezer reads:
  "Wish you were here."
  How I wish I could disappear.
• I'm just a guy that never tried
  I'm just a stupid fuck with brilliant luck
  and sometimes a bright idea
  So shower me in a chorus of compliments
  and verse I don't deserve
  I might run but I'll never hide
• There's not a lot that I feel obliged to share or talk about.
• I love you, however,
  You hold me down
• You're the echoes of my everything,
  You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
  You're the laziness of afternoon,
  You're the reason why I burst and why I bloom.
  How will I break the news to you?
• It’s hard to admit, my weaknesses can consume me.
• If I can pretend, I don’t depend.
  I can deny, deny denial.
  Yet when push comes to shove and all the above,
  I decide to live the lie.
  
  
  
  
  
  
  

im sick of people and myself and everyone else and everything.
everyone is a fucking idiot(no offense) but yea
especially me since i fucking think that and feel this way but i think you understand that
i want to be away from everyone and alone in this stupid place
but that is pretty much the problem right now
so i guess thats not working out to fucking well
hypocrite
yea ugh grrrr

Question mark constellations
When I look into your eyes
Looking into them I cry
They'e blue as the night sky
In time i hope to find out why
The thought of you is terrifying
Yet constantly I try

To be closer to you day by day
Searching for words to say
Anything to make anything okay
The deep blue effect begins to betray me
My thought and mind prefers it this way
Everything begins to sway
In the unconciousness of today

People aren't believing me
Not even you will agree
Don't you see
This could be the key to my existance
To become a refugee
Looking in your eyes across the sea
Trying to become what I should be

i dont really know right now. im kinda bla gah gar meh right now...or something...i dont even know. yea...its i duno what it is.

The full list of dates for the fall tour with Mae, Anberlin and Metro Station has been posted on MCS's street team site.

10/17/07 Grand Rapids, MI - Orbit Room
10/19/07 Duluth, MN - The Reif Center
10/20/07 Omaha, NE - Sokol Auditorium
10/21/07 Kansas City, MO - Beaumont Club
10/23/07 Houston, TX - Verizon Wireless Theater
10/24/07 Austin, TX - Stubb's BBQ
10/26/07 Dallas, TX - House of Blues Dallas
10/29/07 St. Petersburg, FL - Jannus Landing
10/30/07 Ft. Lauderdale, FL - Revolution
10/31/07 Orlando, FL - House of Blues Orlando
11/2/07 Atlanta, GA - Tabernacle
11/3/07 Charlotte, NC - Amos Southend
11/4/07 Myrtle Beach, SC - House of Blues Myrtle Beach
11/6/07 Norfolk, VA - NorVa
11/7/07 Washington, DC - 9:30 Club
11/9/07 New York, NY - Roseland Ballroom
11/10/07 Sayreville, NJ - Starland Ballroom
11/11/07 Worcester, MA - The Palladium
11/13/07 Baltimore, MD - Rams Head Live
11/14/07 Philadelphia, PA - Electric Factory
11/18/07 Toronto, ON - Kool Haus
11/20/07 Columbus, OH - Newport Music Hall
11/21/07 Detroit, MI - The Fillmore Detroit
11/23/07 Milwaukee, WI - The Eagles Club
11/24/07 Maplewood, MN - Myth
11/28/07 Seattle, WA - Showbox
11/29/07 Portland, OR - Roseland Theatre
11/30/07 San Francisco, CA - The Warfield Theatre
12/1/07 San Diego, CA - Soma
12/3/07 Anaheim, CA - House of Blues Anaheim
12/4/07 Los Angeles, CA - The Wiltern
12/5/07 Tempe, AZ - Marquee Theatre
12/7/07 Las Vegas, NV - House of Blues Las Vegas
12/8/07 Salt Lake City, UT - In The Venue
12/9/07 Denver, CO - The Fillmore Auditorium
12/11/07 St. Louis, MO - The Pageant
12/13/07 Cincinnati, OH - Bogart's
12/14/07 Cleveland, OH - Agora Theatre
12/15/07 Chicago, IL - House of Blues Chicago
12/16/07 Chicago, IL - House of Blues Chicago

We arrived at 5:30, the doors were to open at 6:00 and there was a line formed. we got at what we thought was the end and waited excitedly. turns out we had gotten at the front of the line, not the back so we were among the first people in, however nikki had to get her tickets. we still wer amazingly close.(AND WE SAW SUMMERFESTBOY!!! woot...) so i went to get merch and they had old tshirts for just $10 so i got my green one back and a white one with a robot but they were both XL's rather than just L's becuase they had limmited sizes so its a little upsetting but actually  not at all haha. and i got a purse that sthe same color as my old one but with a pink elephant tree thing and motion city soundtrack written on it. im very happy with my purchases haha. when i got back erica left to get merch then when she came back we migrated to the other side that was full of guys, the summerfestboy and less bitchy people. these girls were smoking in front of us and some guy started yelling at them and trying to start their hair on fire it was hilarious. then The Forecast started and every time i listen to em i like em more and more and everyones like is that a girl or boy about shannon again and we had to inform them and yes. then during The Higher we got seperated. first off though, The Higher like drugs, beer, and sex haha, go figure right. well the drummer was wearing a shirt that said something about weed and his drum was covered in stickers of pot leaves. his name was Patty-Pat. his name made me happy. and the then guitarist, Tom, with bright red pants who was a mix between pete wentz and jesse matusik broke his guitar and said that later he would be waiting vulnerably at the bar waiting for someone to seductivly buy him a beer haha. well they were sooo much better live than they are otherwise, i mean i like them otherwise but they are even better live so thats great. i guess its the same for the forecast and sherwood too haha. well so they played and then Sherwood played and the tall guy in front of me who looked like Dan Fix liked them a lot. between Sherwood and Motion City Soundtrack i was completly gone from Nikki and Erica and got by these to girls who got in a bitch fight and i had to help keep em apart. and then everyone was pushing n going crazy and the guy who yelled at the girls for smoking was freeking out and called security and started telling me and everyon around me that anyone who pushed would be out but the security gaurd that he was an idiot and ignored him.
i ended up getting moved around a lot between the two bands and then once motion city my perfect spot was too unbearable to be in so i was pushed back and sideways and ended up on the left side somewhere where people were a little calmer. i was so dehyrated at this point i threw up in my mouth a little and almost passed out a few times. usually at shows if you look like your about to throw up or pass out people are like "hey are you okay?" but they werent like that here...they would yell at you if your head hit their shoulder. bitches...goodtaste in music bitches haha. yea so i was dying and then eventually i made my way closer to the front again to wear i saw nikki against the barriar. we switched places and she crowdsurfed out. this was my first concert being against the barriar. i was there for like 2 songs n the encore. also...justin introduces songs greatly i realized. well they have an amazing opening choice of 'Capital H' but then before 'Mary Without Sound' hes like, "Now this is a song with the name Mary in it...i think that kind of gave it away but wait a second wait a second...Yes..." and he introduced 'L.G.F.U.A.D." like "And our next song is called R.T.W.C.K.F.K.E."
so then it ended after the amazingness(and 2 new songs, both of which i knew and loved) we tried to get water but the bars closed so we tried 2 other gas stations which wer both closes and then finally went to QP and now i owe erica two dollars for water haha. yes so then we met Justin Pierre and Josh Cane and when we met Justin(who wasnt talking but was hilarious) i was lik "You are rather amazing. i love you" haha and he bowed to me with his hands in the praying motion and yes, and then when Josh stepped off i said in a high, sing song voice, JoSh! yes and yes. mhmm amazing.
i learned something at this show too. mcs was signing some autgraphs and stuf but once most people were gone all the other bands wer just hanging out outside talking to fans that were allowed over there and playing skateboard football. i would imagine they would be to tired to be awesome after such a show but they werent.
that was also the sweatyest concert i've been to besides fob. fob i sweated myself dry this show i sweated so much i started shaking, freezing. which also happend at FOB so i think if the show was any longer it would have turned out the same. yes. at one point i was so dehyrated and passing out practically i was ready to ask someone to lift me up and crowd surf me out but i really dont plan on crowdsurfing and i wanted to stay there so yea..duh. haha
so yes. as you have read, it was and AMAZING show. best band in the world, tied with My Chemical Romance of course. so yea, then i got home and looked at the free stickers n stuff n there was the paper that showed up coming shows at the rave and i see the academy is which i already knew about so im lik hmm who else is coming...wait...thats justins hair and glasses and face, n they're they all are WOOT they're coming back November 23 with anberlin and Mae and you can bet i'm going to that.
if you need me September 18 try Best Buys...and if you need me November 23...try The Rave again. woot.

yes. i am sooo excited and ready for motion city soundtrack. first real concert since OkGo first good concert since Kill Hannah. ah woot. i cannot wait wait wait!!!! a little more than an hour b4 erica picks me up n we're off. im so ready for this you dont even know. n i got enuf money babysitting this week that im gonna even bring like...$40 instead of $20 for merch maybe ah wootness. i wana see if they have any cool extra stuff besides shirts n such n such. ah wootness. unfortunatly im tired currently. i might needa take some energy beans

"pimps are just people with a lot of girlfriends dressed in hip hop clothes who make america look like crap"

"next year is when we have to vote for a new american idiot...that american idiot is the president"

the kid i babysit for said that today! hahaha, first off cuz his brother asked him what a pimp was and second becuase he was singing green day and decided that i didnt know about that song hahahhaa. thats great. oh and he also said upon seeing pete wentz pants(idiot who calls us emo and wears oober tight pants who just died his hair black and always has a skateboard):
"his pants look really tight. i bet his balls hurt" hahahhahahaha

yay, i get excited and happy about stupid little things that dont really even matter! haha. its basically just Gerard going back to writing stuff on himself for shows and yea..the last pic i remember of him doing that from before this was.....'Gazelle' on his arm, since he believes if the band was an animal they would be a gazelle because they just run, run from predators, etc. yes and then i heard about him writing 'mikey' or 'i miss mikey' or something like that on himself but i never saw a pic or anything and now there are the pics of him with 'Very Much Alive' written on his neck and it makes me happy becuase like i said....i get excited and happy about stupid little things that dont really even matter! yes.

also i listened to the breakfast with mcr thing and it made me happy too...it just did haha. i luv it and wish i was there only instead of saying i noticed mikeys absense and asking where he was i would demand him back.