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5 of my poems and one of my short stories are going to be in Epiphanies(a literary/art book our school puts out everyear)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay, i entered 9 or 10 things so thats pretty fucking good yay!

ps. tomarrow is my birthday

♥   Rhianna

so here are some of my favorite movies and stuff that should make you want to watch them if you havent(yes i am bored)they are in no particular order;

• Donnie Darko: yes yes yes yes yes yes. this is one of those movies that is funny and smart and sad at the same time. its bout a skitzo and 28 days of his life and how crazy he is. its a really sweet movie that really puts you inside this guys life and the end made me cry jus a skosh, it is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good. watch watch watch watch.  plus after the movie there are numerous sites about the movie that can clue you in on stuff you didnt understand(its kinda complex) and the actual site is very mysterious too, i really really love this one. its one of the movies that is over and really makes you sit back and be lik woah...this movie....OH and its definetly for fans of The Butterfly Effect
• Little Miss Sunshine: this a cute movie about a dyfunctional family that contains a perfectionist dad, beauty pagent daughter, crazy grandpa, suicidal gay uncle, a silent brother, and a mom trying to keep it together. it has such a good message and is also funny and smart. personally my favorite part would be when the little girls asks a model if she eats ice cream, it made me happy. you'll understand if u watch it.
• The Breakfast Club: shows a little bit inside some teens lives, lets you see through stereotypes a little and understand everyones got shit going on, not to mention its hilarious.
• Big Fish: thats one of those serious like movies i love. the end is really sad but really really cool. i love love love it. a guy goes back to visit his parents and talks about all the stories his father has told him, its put together amazingly
• Saw series: gruesome. smart. scary. good. wow.
• The Butterfly Effect: for fans of Donnie Darko, very good and smart, this guy can read his journals and go back in time, when he changes things his future goes crazy, very intresting.
• Urban Legend: good stuff, watch.(Damon?!?)
• Saved: funny and awesome
• Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back: ha ha ha ha hahahahahaha sooooooo funny and sooooooo stupid
• Dogma: now this is what religon is. only...its a really good and funny movie.

yea so heres a list of whats currently playing through my head, like the other one of this i did forever ago, i wont be mentioning bands that im sure you all already listen to lik fall out boy and such..actually i am mentioning them a skosh, okay, like 30stm becuae you should already be listening to them :)

 

Jamestown Story(aka And Then I Turned Seven<name change>) - Dreaming of This: really good, just like everything else by jamestown story, i luv em i luv em i luv em!!!!!!! just...just go.

Boys Like Girls - The Great Escape: im sure you've heard of this band, if u hafnt listened to them go listen to them now, their really good, i dont know what it is, maybe the vocals but its lik pop..but punk...kinda at the same time you know, its really good tho, plus, who doesnt want to escape?

Forsaken - Act Like Somebody Else: OMG i really do luv this song, its so upbeat and good and stuff and its lik woah goodness, a very very very uniqe vocals as well, i really love the voice

Ivory - A Song to Sing: not exceptional but i really love it, it kinda feels lik a love song to me and its really good, sweet voice and nice music too, its cute.

Sorry About the Couch - She's a He: really fast fast fast and fast is good plus its funny...i mean really funny, basically its the song of a guy findin out his girlfriend is a guy, line of greatness "she showed me what she had between her legs" wtf i know, but its actually good :)

Kill Hannah - Unwanted: okay so im sure you probably already listen to them but im jus starting to becuase i heard this song and wow....love love love!!!! this is just...a great great song. also 'lips like morphine' very very good. very uniqe voice which you obviously know if u haf heard them b4, ther special stuff

Over It - Your Song: ok so i guess these things lil theme is uniqe voices and here's another example, not as good as the others in my opinion but still good. they kinda sound familar tho...

The Summer Affair - 1,132 Miles Doesnt Make this Any Easier: awww its good(not to mention theyre from green bay go wisconsin?)

Remember the Day - Scream Your Regrets: i just like it. its good. i dont know why or anything but it is.(also from greenbay, might be a possible guest on the wisconsin taste of chaos, id be happy)"would you do it the same if your life wasnt over"is a nice lil qoute from it

Nightmare Of You - You dont have to tell me i was a terrible man: good good good, that guys voice, its kinda lik....i duno its one of those voices thats kinda classic, better than brandon flowers, i forgot the other guy who sounds kinda classic lik but its really pretty and kinda deep and very nice.

Ballentine - Tired of You:Female Vocals, really..different? purdy okay

Fall Out Boy - basically the new stuff that i have heard: ok so the 4 songs we'v all heard, Take Over Breaks Over, Thriller(personal fave), Carpel Tunnel of Love, and This Aint a Scene and i heard another new one on accident on youtube called Hum Halleluljah, very very very good, in the middle they kinda do that one song that says halleluljah in it, its part of one of the shrek movies, i think u no which one, but it sounds really good, im really looking forward to Infinity On High.

Say Anything - Is a Real boy, Was a Real Boy: both cds i recently got, luv luv luv luv luv luv...luv. yellowcat/redcat=excellence!

My Chemical Romance - Kill All Your Friends: mcr will never stop owning me thats all i have to say, this song is no exception to their greantess, i luv the lyrics

My chemical Romance -  My Way Home is Through You: again no way to describe how amazing this band is, if u dont luv them i dont even know what to say.

 

 

Hope you maybe appreciated that lil list of luvliness, i sure did, maybe you'll listen to some n luv em who knows. yeppers.

 

morning: same, be by friends for short time

Art: really warm small dusty room full of clay(even tho its 2d art so we dont use clay) no friends in the class but my brothers friends sister Laughter is in there and shes kinda nice, o and kim..but i dont really talk to her either

World History: yayness sarah is in that class with me along with Laughter and some ppl im aquanted with but dont really hang out with, teacher seems okay

German: same as before.....its german. freshman boys, wow one of htem kinda stuck up for me today...kid behind me was lik "here go give this dictionary to willi and tony" right after i sat down from giving htem a diff one. me, "uhh okay" kid next to me(mitch<may haf gone to a warped tour in 7th grade for skateboarding or metal music, not sure>) "why dont u get up and give it to them" kid behind me"im disabled, i broke my arm"  mitch"You wer just hitting mike!" yea..that was kinda it..either way i kept the dictionary for myself haha bitchez

Lunch: sarahs in ther now so i sit by her and mariah and some otther peeps instead of libby cassi and emily because emily and libby dont lik sarah wich is retarded, o yea, kinda hang out with adam then too

computer: mor specifically TC Web Design, i cant wait to get started i luv that kinda stuff, we get to make our own website, im in ther with libby and her brother(i would die if i was in  class with my brother) and nate, i went to sit by nate b4 libby got in ther and ther was one seat next to him and then another kid was sitting next to the same open seat and i was bout to sit down and this other kid runs and jumps on to the seat but it slid out from underneath him and he fell on to the ground(serves him right) so i jus sat by libby wen she got in

chemistry: horrible class you dont even know. i mean, yea, ericas in there and we sit next to eachother(front row yuck) and wer lab partners but other than that its lik alkjfoiawerjpoidickyalskjfdewpasofij i mean icky lik lauren steel....ew.

hallways: i see ricky quite a few times along with ian/iris but ian/iris are always talkin to eachother and walking quickly so i couldnt talk to them neway, and b4 chemistry i see ben and i walk to art with karissa and someone else?

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now: listeninging to my purevolume, more specifically Boys Like Girls and Jamestown Story and Forsaken yayness. i listened to the 2 other songs by mcr, im sure u no wut ones and i really love kill all your friends, but the whole subject of killing reminded me of how exactly 3 years ago today my cousin died :( yea, but maybe me and nikki  will walk around later so that will be somthin to do.

   Bryan ran to his room and slammed the door angrily. "This is so fuckin STUPID" he screamed slamming his fists against the wall, "I CANT STAND IT!" he fell onto his bed and just layed there not knowing what to do, he'd been through enough, why did this stupid place need to make him go through it again?

   ;slkjf;lkearjf;lkewjfdlkjdlkfajdslkfaj;dkfjaw;f          i dont know what to write. sorry nevermind.

• math finals:maybe did okay, prbly more on the lower side of the grading scale but thank god its over
• health: watched dum movie with worst actors ever
• german: did work, watched movie, got told i was special
• lunch: no food, just water
• study hall: boorrinng last day, did nothing
• poetry and novel: LAST DAY the class played games and ate while libby heidi and i did wutever, vids will be posted to youtube. speaking of which, mrs myhre(teacher) tol me she found a vid of me singnig on ther, now the whole class is gonna search me :)
• on the way home: didnt talk to mom, got my foot RAN OVER by her! bitches and hoes.
• now: bored., will prbly draw soon

A Catchy Hook

 

If my life was a song...

   My friends would be each note

Each sound

   Becoming my  musical influence

Some above other on the scale

   Some contribute a little more

All different, all important

   If even one is missing

It's wrong

   If even one is gone

The song, my life, is changed.

   A slow song

With a fast chorus

   A love song

Telling a simple story

   A sad song

With an upbeat chorus

   And a catchy hook

Showing the world with music

   Who I am

(A sad, slow song with a fast, upbeat chorus)

mhm so im bored and tired but im not gonna go to sleep cuz its too early AND the SCRUBS MUSICAL IS ON TONIGHT YAY YAY YAY. its my favorite show.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gar so its the end of the semester and for the first time in my career as a student i got kicked out of class. if it had been the beginning of the year i would have freaked out and gotten upset but i didnt even do nething and the teacher was lik "libby and rhianna u 2 need to leave because ur distracting me" so we hung out in the hallway for the 20 remaining minutes of class. it was okay tho becuase we got to talk more(cuz we wernt really even talking in class) and it was more comfertable and stuff and warmer in the hallway ha ha idiot, then wen class was over we went and got our stuff and left and she didnt say anything. it was posativly the best time to get kicked out too becuase it was super boring and unneccesary. and then in activty period i was lsess tired, prbly cuz i half-slept thru 3 er 4 of my classes but yea..so we entertained ourselves with a box and a pair of goggles..for a half hour...wer lame in that awesome way. im not even kidding wen i say that either wich is sad. so paljfeikalsjflk;flngreieopwua yes. ugh in german tho....we hada be in these groups for this game and she assigned the groups so i was this kid sam(he is actually kinda nice) and brock(looks lik a demented penguin and is obnoxious) and there was a time wen we wernt playing n he was tlakin to a friend and he would be all quiet lik i couldnt here him saying "and im in speed skating and its so gross cuz sometimes the guys get hard while ther skating and the girls..." if he would haf said one mor thing i was jus gonna say "jus cuz ur quietter doesnt mean i cant hear u...." idiot. we lost the game and they blamed it on me becuase i didnt write "Mist! So ein Pech!" fast enough...btw that means "Shit! Too bad!" yea..r teacher taught us the word for shit and wer expected to use it in class. that was my wondeful day. o n i was gonna kill some kid today too but who cares.

a;ljfdpoooooolllllllkaweplkdapiwepruwqpierupiwerprpwqierpoiweuriurepoi i want to be in water. i want to go swimming but not really swim just..drown...er somthin ;alkjfaslkdfjlkasdf i just want scrubs to be on and i want to see the last haf of SLC Punk..that movie is soo good so far!

oo nooo..i want to make a music video for Rest of My Life by Less Than Jake..i luv that song but i duno if my friends listen to em that much and i want someone else to be in it not me(icky) lakdjfl;kajeoifpa i haf good idea

yea Hi. sooo im pretty bored and i dont feel lik doing nething. literally nothing. im listening to say anything(my fave song red cat/yellow cat!) and im not singing along er dancing er jumping er walking er cleaning im jus sitting. i kinda feel lik watchin a movie but not really. i feel kinda lik writing but theres not really much of a point to the things i write, the poems jus kinda sit there. some kid tried to look at em today. i got mad since one of them i hafnt read back to myself because its a very <secretive> topic for me. for those ppl who lik my story thing and are wondering wen the next parts out. i dont know. i dont feel lik writing that right now if i did i would probably kill them both because yea. i dont feel lik writing. i dont even really feel like being right now. school sucks. mathclass=stuck up assholes healthclass=bitches and hoes...we watched a video about STI's today...very graphic i never in my life wanted to see a moldy penis..too late. german class=annoying freshman boys, most only talk about sports and wont talk to me lunch=boring and annoying study hall=boring, slightly entertaining poetry and novel=stuck up know it alls who hate 'emo' and hate 'me'(yes me belongs in thos things) me=shit

yea. finally schedules are changing. but now i get to be in Chemistry or Chemi if ur german.....adlkfjlajfd  i think im actually doing the best in German of all my classes i can say pretty much shit lik:

 Meine Lieblingsmusik is punk rock, ich habe alternative, emo, und indie.  Meine Lieblingsrockgroup ist My Chemical Romance, aber ich habe nicht gern Underoath und Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.  Mein Lieblingssanger ist Gerard Way.  Mist Ich habe nicht gern Schule und Mrs. Myhre.  Ich habe nicht Mathe, aber meine Lieblingsfacher ist Frau Wochenske.  I spiele gitarre, nicht sehr gut. MIST!

yea..thats jus some of it, i actually like that class...tis pretty okay. i like poetry and novel in the beginning wen we wer doin poetry.

kinda feel lik walking around if i feel lik doing anything. probably to sentry er walgreens to get some gum, iwant a magazine too but yeah.....mhmm i could watch a movie but i dont want to, i dont know why. i want to sleep but if i do i wont wake up til way later and il be tired tomarrow, im not really tired now i just dont want to be so id rather sleep away life, that would be better gahhhh i gotta talk about shit, not just online. i know i need to in person with someone but yea....like thats gonna happen. i wish someone understood EXACTLY how i feel and sometimes ppl say they do but they dont, i mean i wish someone had every exact thought i have and everythign that happens to me or i do the same with them and we could just figure it out together but yea thats kinda impossible. it would be easier tho, to haf lik, a clone of ur self jus a lil smarter to ask wut ur spos to do in dum situations. like stuff like that. i wish it wasnt so cold. i want to walk around. i wish someone wanted to walk around with me. no, i dont wish, i would perfer it if there was someone who wanted to walk around right now. or someone who cared at all and i mean really did. REALLY DID. akjfdl;kasfdlk;ajsfd i hate this month and next month, i hate it more than other months becuase a few years ago this time is wen my cousin was murdered and now my other cousins new baby might die of RSV a deadly virus for infants under 2 months, which he is. if he dies shit will be shittier.so yea. life.but yea..i prbly will just go to sleep

Little Miss Sunshine

i just saw that movie...awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww its sooooo good...i luv it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! everyone should go watch it..it might just be one of my favorites now!

http://movies.peekvid.com/s4092/

if u want to watch it but not pay to rent or buy it u can watch it on that website for free without downloading it or anything..DO IT its soo good its adorable and funny and sad and i luv it

ps. the title of this jrnl is a great qoute from the movie:) watch it!

 

-rhianna

OKAY so this is an angry rant about youtube. i used to love youtube wen i first found out about it however long ago. i posted videos i watched videos, the only thing that was annoying when searching for videos was countlesss slideshows. NOW i type in 'my chemical romance' and you know what comes up, a bunch of disgusting porno shit and stuff about stupid celebrites like lindsey lohan and stuff!!!!    people arent only putting false tags on their videos but in the descriptions they are writing entire lists of what the video is NOT about causing them to come up under those subjects. how the hell am i supposed to find kick ass videos on youtube without this shit coming up or looking for hours, there is no way.  Another thing is now i get sent the same email thru buzznet a jillion times a day amature brazillon girls' i dont CARE i dont want to watch that and no matter how many times i block the ppl sending them they still get to my inbox and theirs more than one person sending them, not to mention all the hate comments i get on stupid videos i put up(but thats the lest of that becuase iv been getting thos since i started)   damn youtube. i guess i will just leave it up to buzznet-ers to put good videos up. bitches and hoes.

ps. if u haf youtube or enjoy it and want to see stupid videos of nothingness that i dont post on here my username is rockgiurl   if you're going to spam me with gross links and stupid things than dont.

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grrness- rhianna

OKAY this was a big long crazy one that contained alot of me crying, me laughing, and pizza.

 

Okay from wut i remeber it starts out at a walmart i think. so me and nikki wer at walmart in the toy aisle and we watched somthing on tv and then got on the topic of how thats why the guy who had the opportunity to shoot saddaam hussien didnt shoot him and all wer talkin and we hear this kid cryin to his parents and they wer yellin to him reallly bad for no reason and we got pissed but didnt do anything and we went back in the other aisle and kept talking about the shooting that didnt happen and then the lil boy the parents wer yelling at walked down our aisle and then back out with his parents and they just glared at us. then we heard gun shots and we ran to the aisle and they wer back in ther and ther was some guy in a black bag over his head with a gun and ther was blood everywher and saddam was on the ground dead adn the lil boy was crying more and we went back to the toy aisle calmly and then the lil boy walked past with his parents and his mom glared at us and he walked down the aisle again and this time he stayed with us and his parents left angrlily. so me and nikki and this kid walk around for a while and the whole electronics department is decorated for halloween and ther wer guys dressed up lik skeletons and grim reapers etc and they wer creepy(cuz i hate ppl that dress up for a job, like piggly wiggly hitler pig) and it was closing time so all these skeleton guys wer getting up and being put in huge, heavy wooden coffins and being put in those things in the wall at mourges only they wer in a storage room at the walmart and i got seperated from nikki and the kid

and then we all ended up outside without the kid and with jenny and erica and stephanie and for a lil while andi. and we go to a car that looks lik andis moms car only stephanies mom tammy is in the front seat driving. and my mom was with us to. in the front passenger seat wear stephanie sits is a candlestine seatbelt. its lik this huge black seatbelt that has the clandestine bat on it with studs. and we all teased stephanie(cuz in real life she hate fob mcr etc) and wer lik "oooooooo closet clan kid!!!!" and her moms lik "ohh stephanie, just tell them how its your fave present" and she was embarrassed so we all squished into the back seat and my moms lik "we haf a suprise for you" and we wer all trying to fit into the back seat and the inside looked more lik our car so it was tiny and we wer on the floor kinda so i didnt see where we were going.

RIGHT ABOUT NOW THERE IS A CHANGE. i am in an odd german class with a ton of ppl who arent in my german class and some that are. the guy in front of me is the weird troll kid and the kid behind me is this really hot fictional emo boy but i dont talk to either. and frau wochenski(german teacher of mine) is teaching and then ther was this train and pizza and it was really greasy and i dont even know.

OKAY THEN IT WENT BACK TO THE OTHER PART we pull up at a house in the woods and get out and walk up the long driveway, my mom is lik "30stm bought this place" only me erica nikki and jenny wer left and my grama and mom, and 2 fictional girls i didnt know were there. and we ran up ther and knocked on the door and we got in and it was my grandmas house in the dells where she used to live wen my grandpa was alive which i havent been in since i was lik 8 and i started crying and was lik "i hafnt been here in forever" to jared(with his mustasche beard stubble) who was in the kitchen and it was just me my granma and him and then he went into the basement(it was actually my grandparents old house combined with not their house, some crazy weird house) and then everyone came in and this cop manager dude came out of the basement and was lik "i might haf to use and illegall firearm" and wer lik "why?" and hes lik "becuase at walmart some lil boy was abducted" so me and nikki wer freaking out, and then he was lik "and some guy got shot" but he stopped talking about it and was lik "okay. the guys are gonna come up now" and they started walkin up the stairs first shannon then tomo then matt and then jared(stubles gone) and we wer lik omg omg omg!!!! and those 2 girls i didnt know wernt freakin out at all. and i went into the weird part of the house that wasnt my grandparents and it was aqua blue and really weird but it looked familar and there was a really tiny door)bout half of my height) and yea i started crawling out and jared was outside the door with andi and hes lik "yea thats my room" and im lik "aww that my room, i had thos color walls, the tv on the wall was still ther and my bead was in the same spot" and hes lik "thats awesome!" and andi was lik "your so lucky" (detail i didnt mention up there: on the tv in the room was a walmart security tape?)

then the manager cop dude was lik "okay..we'll do the autographs now" and we got these big pieces of paper and i went after everyone else so i could try and talk to eachone and it was firstly shannon and he was SO NICE and im lik awww you wer so mean b4 and we talked a lil and then jared wrote this huge long thing(it was big paper) and he was talkin to me the whole time lik we wer old friends at a reuninon er somthin and this huge long note was soo nice and then he signed it and then i quickly hada get matt and tomos cuz everyone else was hanging out and i had an idea so i ran to the car to get my camera and ther was this guy in another car watching me and i ran back up with nikki who had came down the car with me and wer lik "did you order a pizza" and ther lik "uhh maybe i duno" and the cop dude got really scared and asked us why we didnt shoot him and i told him how nikki was gonna but i stopped her and then a lil bit later the doorbell rang and the cop is lik "get ready to run out the back door" and wer all, okay, and he opened it and it was just the pizza guy who gave us our pizza and left. we wer out of plates so i folded the big autograph paper in half once each way and made it into a plate and ate the pizza and i turned it over wen i was done adn the whole thing was soaked through with greese and nikki was lik "awwwwwwwwwwwww rhiannnaaaaaaaaa" and nobody else even cared, erica was laughing. then jareds on the couch and hes talkin shit about some girl band er another thats not real but it was called Jain Freidas er somthin and they seemed lik an indi/rnb band and he was talkin sooo much shit about them lik crazy and all the guys wernt that much but kinda barely and then a lil while later jareds lik "now lets watch some real music" sarcastically and turned on a channel that was playing that bands music vids none stop and it was baiscally them with wierd angles and they wer lik floating. then some stuff i cant remmeber happened and i woke up.

 

it was a crazy dream i told u. i likd it even tho im mad at jared. i like it because i got to to my grandparnets old house, i got to eat pizza, i got to meet 30stm, shannon wasnt a prissy bitch this time, and we wer all happy and having fun. the end

well iv been hafin those fun lil thoughts again...the ones bout hating myself right yeah. soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

starting on monday im gonna do a whole 'body cleansing' thing wich is basically just the bullshit easy way out of saying i wont be eating from then til lik feb 1st.        well....im gonna try.

just so you know, if i seem pissy at all, its gonna prbly be becuase of that, at least the first few days, after the 10th i heard its all good :)

fun shit right.

well i was bored and extremely tired in study hall and i didnt want to go to sleep becuase i hate waking up and i would have to wake up obviously. sooo i was thinnking randomly pretending to sleep but i kinda was half asleep so yea, i had my head down and shit and lifted it for a sec to see wut time it was and i see my friend across the table jus looking at me...i was lik..uhh shut up im tired....even thou she didnt say anything. so i kept on thinking and then i got to thinking, how much of the time do we REALLY know whats going on? i mean yea, we might think we do, i mean all the time i think i know whats going on, i like watching people and seeing whats happening(not in a stalker way in an observing way!) and yea, it makes me feel like i know whats going on, but who's watchin us when we're watching others? like yea....all the time ppl are sitting near me and talking loudly and obviously i hear, the same thing happens to me in reverse, and there i sit listening to stupid conversastions and thinking "could there conversastion be any more stupid/pointless/annoying/wierd/funny/akward?" and thats how it must be for other people too.

if i was listening in on half of my own conversastions i would think i was weirder than i already do. haha, i play with fricken dolls in study hall! i cant even imagine what i would think if i saw someone doing that. that just goes to show a lil bout perspective(and i dont even know what that means) and yeah, i dont compeltly care what ppl think of me and im not gonna change anything becuase of it but it does make me think a lil bout the whole situation

i should think less. ha ha. eitherway im bored and thats why im posting this. alsjfdlksajfl;ksajflk;sajfl;ksaflk;lfd;jalfjlkdddddddjkdkjkjkjk

 

Rhianna

   Bryan was getting severly pissed at everthing, all the patients, all the people working there, his mom, even Elli...why couldnt everyone just understand? why couldnt they just let him figure it out on his own? every day they were practically forcing him to eat(well they werent forcing him but they monitered what he ate and if he didnt he would have to stay there longer) and they wouldnt let him do what he wanted. he wanted to leave, he wanted to see Elli, and he wanted to be by his fucking self.  there was barely ever a moment when he was alone.  Even when Tye was in a therepy thing and he wansnt he wasnt alone, being in the building which he hated made everything worse.  he would be able to handle it better on his own.  it was 1:30, time for a group talk with a bunch of other kids, todays topic: pills and why they were bad.  of course Bryan went to the meeting as he always did since it was required, of course he didnt talk much, he sat back and listened to everyone elses problems, his own were none of their business.  he knew they would judge him just as he judged each and everyone one of them as they took their turn sharing their inner most secrets with the group.  if they were giving in this easy they didnt really have a problem he thought, he on the other hand, did.

"Bryan, do you have anything you would like to share today?" a counsler asked, Bryan stared at him a few seconds before saying anything

"no"

"are you sure, you know, talking about your problems is the best way to get rid of them?"

"whatever,"

"whatever you'll talk about it or whatever you wont?"

"you REALLY want me to talk about my fucking problems?" he asked lamely, "I mean REALLY REALLY want me to talk about them?"

"yea, that would be great, we would all love to hear from you, right group" numerous, faceless, members of the group nodded in approval - ugh, clones, he thought

"okay well MY PROBLEM is this fucking place! i hate it here, i was better off before coming to this damn brain washing facility where you all might be getting better but im sure the hell not! things were FINE things were just GREAT before i had to come here, when nobody knew anything about myself and MY life things were perfect but no, that couldnt just last i had to come to this hell hole and talk to you dumbasses all day, if i could leave i would, if i could go back and make sure no one ever found out i would, if i could have taken just a few more fucking pills and died i WOULD!!!!!!!!!!!!! are you happy im telling you this, cuz im sure not but you know what, what does it matter what i want, i dont get what I want, i hafta do, i hafta be what you want so if it makes you fucking HAPPY i will tell you whats wrong. There you fucking go!" Bryan yelled standing up from his usual slouched down posistion.  the group stared at him, people often got angry and yelled but not this much, this loud, with this many swears and insults to the entire group and facutly.

"it is good that your letting out your feelings" the counsler said slowly as if he hadnt even heard the long angry rant," but please, moniter your language"

"FUCK SHIT HELL DAMN BITCH ASS CUNT!" he shouted, "DONT TELL ME WHAT TO DO!!!" he yelled "IM SICK OF IT" he turned around, left the room and slammed the door as hard as he could on his way out.  yeah..this is what was suppossed to 'help' him. great fucking job their doing.

   Elli followed Jesse up the stairs, he was still holding her hand, she wasnt really holding his back but it didnt seem to matter.  she tripped on the way up and fell against the railing, he caught her,

"your pretty good at catching people" she mumbled and straightened herself out and they continued up the stairs, "wait..what are we doing up here?" she asked confused

"we're just hanging out" Jesse said

"oh..."

"we could do more.." he said deviously with a smirk, she squinted her eyes as if she was trying to read somthing very small and far away, as if she was trying to see through him

"your craazzzy" she said

"so i've heard" he said, ass hole

"you think that I would give you the time of day PFT, your...just...im going home"

"what, we just got up here?"

"i dont care, im going home!" she slurred, pulling her hand from his, he kept his grisp around her wrist

"no"

"WHAT, now you think you can boss mee around, nodbody bosses ME around" she half shouted tugging at her arm, he pulled her close to him, her face was like a foot from his,

"just stay for a little longer" he said, his eyes filled with fury, demanding her to stay, she was scared

"let the fuck go of me" she shouted loudly, someone looked up from downstairs, it was some girl she had never seen before,

"what the fuck is going on?" she yelled up the stairs

"nothing." Jesse answered angrily

"he wont...let go of me" Elli said

"let her fucking go Jesse!" the girl yelled up the stiars he turned to look at her, somthing seemed to go off inside of him,

"this party fucking blows, im leaving!" he said releasing Elli and storming down the stairs past the girl and out the door grumbling madly the entire time.  Elli was still at the top of the stairs where she had slumped down against the wall and was almost laying down, the girl started coming up the stairs.

 

    The next morning when Bryan woke up he felt like shit, he needed somthing to calm him but there was nothing, his music was gone, Elli was gone, his pills were gone, his incase-of-an-emergency-razor was gone.  he didnt feel like he could take it.  the dumb group sessions, private sessions, tricks to getting him better werent helping, putting his feelings out in the open made everything more real and made him acknowledge the situation he used to hide and with it out in the open it was ten times worse.

I want to be stereotyped
I want to be classified
I want to be a clone
I want a suburban home suburban home
suburban home suburban home
I want to be masochistic
I want to be a statistic
I want to be a clone
I want a suburban home suburban home
suburban home suburban home
I don't want no hippie pad
I want a house just like mom and dad
I want to be stereotyped
I want to be classified
I want to be masochistic
I want to be a statistic
I want to be a clone
I want a suburban home suburban home
suburban home suburban home
I like food, food tastes good!
I like food, food tastes good!
I like food, food tastes good!
I like food, food tastes good!
Juicy burgers, greasy fries,
Turkey legs and raw fish eyes
Teenage girls, with ketchup too!
Get out of my way, or I'll eat you
I like food, food tastes good!
I like food, food tastes good!
It's time to turn dining
Back into eating
I like food, food tastes good!
I like food, food tastes good!

 

it doesnt get much more inspiring and amazingly artistic than that kids

i love those lyrics and the song.

 

thought of the day: i sure as hell hope when we die we can still dream or things will be very boring

my name is rhianna.

i am a sophmore

i love my friends most

i love music second

i love myself last

my chemical romance is my favorite

i like to write poetry

i like to doodle and sketch

sometimes i think about painting stuff but never do

sometimes i plan out things to draw and never get around to it

                right now i have an awesome mcr inspired scene i really want to draw but il mess it up

i like to write stories

i like to write poetry

i will think of stories or situations in my head as though they are a book

i want to escape

i make up crazy ass songs that i love

i put crazy ass songs of me singing on cds and pass them out to my friends even though i cant sing for shit

i love to try to sing

and dance

i love the word skosh

in the future me and nikki will own a store called WIG in chicago between a zoo and a walgreens and behind the hard rock cafe it will happen

i take shit from people because i dont have shit to give to anyone, i guess people assume i dont have any at all

the only kind of juice i like is in juice boxes or pink lemonade. thats it. regular lemonade is stupid

i like scrambled eggs ith cheese

chedder jack cheese cheezits are my favorite

i hate food

i drink too much soda

my favorite tv show is scrubs hands down

scrubs needs to come out with action figures

ok go are pissing me off lately

i miss old okgo, not the music only but they seemed like different people

i like stuff like mythology and urban legends, i barely look into it though

i am a procrastinator

i have trouble concentrating sometimes if i dont want to do somthing but if i do want to do somthing its all i will think about

im random as hell

i saw a demon rabbit earlier, i swear its head was getting bigger

i bet nobody even likes me

my friends are my favorite ever in the whole wide world

i love the movie the labrynth and breakfeast club and urban legend and requim for a dream and lots more

i hate nick cage, so does my dad

my mom steals my brush all the time and it angers me

i love talking to certin people about just stuff all the time.  nikki.  i mean anything, we both talk lots

i like going to concerts alot

the only store i really buy clothes at is hot topic and sometimes but rarely torrid

and im not saying that hot topic is all sizes friendly but more so than other stores that i would probably shop at otherwise

i dont like ipods but if i had one it would be very useful

i am very cheap

i got a really cool necklace that i love the other day

there is a really pretty dress on hot topics website that i wish i could pull off at twirp er somthing but i never could so i willl love it from afar

i collect pins/buttons

i babysit for 2 demon children but im getting the one into mcr and stuff so its okay

i always have my camera with me

i take alot of pictures and videos i dont know why, probably becuase its proof that i have friends and were all cool

i dont like to eat. sometimes i dont.

i try and play guitar but have ultimatly given up

i love walking around doing nothing its fun

i hate being yelled at by cars but sometimes its kinda funny

i wish i had ddr and guitar hero that would be awesome

i want a frank or mikey mcr doll. theyre the only ones that kinda look like themselves

i used to think napolean dynamite was funny

i like boxes

i collect elephants, i just decided a few summers ago that i did i dont really anymore but i still have them

i am a picky eater and hate trying new things

i watched barney til i was in lik 4th grade

i wrote a poem and it got in our schools literary magazine Epiphanies, im hoping for more to be put in

i dont listen to old music. i know like one song by the beetles if even that many for example

i love vans there my fave kind of shoe

i used to be in our schools bowling club, i might still be if we had one at the highschool but that was at the middle school

im in german class and am actually pretty good at the language, the sutff wev learned i know

i dont plan on ever smoking and probably never drinking, if i ever do drink it wont be much

i could see myself having a huge smoking, drinking, or drugs problem someday and it eventually killing me

i think of alot of random things, some of it scares me, others make me laugh so hard i almost pee my pants

i prefer plastic spoons to real spoons

i hate root beer

i played with barbies til lik 7th grade

my dad thinks my hair is morbid

i dislike it when people call gerard way gee...

grr!

im shy

im hyper

im exciting in a boring way

i like charlie the unicorn

i like smosh videos

i have like 70 videos on youtube

i like one of my guy friends alot. too bad hes taken and wouldnt like me anyway

i tend to see the negative side of things alot

but i try to be posative, i really do

i built my first computer

i think that marylin manson should to a song with hellogoodbye

i think from first to last should do a song with motion city soundtrack

both of those combinations would be funny

i miss the fresh prince of bel air i really loved it

i dont know what im doing

i hate when my mom reads my IM's with friends...i hate it

i am often angry at pete wentz, but only jokingly

i used to read alot now i dont

i really like the books Cats Eye, Crusader, and Go Ask Alice

i want to read the book The Jigsaw Women(or Lady i cant remember which it was)

i wish i was better at math

ive been thinking about my doorbell when you gonna ring it

sometimes i wish i had taken up drums instead of guitar, it was my original choice actually

who needs microphones when we can sing into mirrors

my new years resolution is to be able to sing like a screamer in screamo band, thats cool stuff

i am a goody two shoes often

i make stuff up alot

i used to play nancy drew games on my computer with erica, that was awesome(hello there dead end my names nancy drew)

i feel like i hog attention alot

i am obnoxious

i am bettter at writing things on paper than writing things on the computer especailly papers and creative things becuase it seems more creative on paper than on computer

technology will kill us i bet

im not sure what my opinions on robots currently is

people dont realize what they have

i really do like dinosaurs

im not kidding

its hard to find good poets

i really like the book Revolution on Canvas alot

i dont understand alot of things

i love clouds

i am rhianna.

   "so...whats up with your first show?"  Elli asked on the way to Matt's house, she really didnt want to know becuase than she would have to tell Bryan but she was still a little curious, she did like the band

"well we were on some waiting list or backup list at some venue for if any bands ever canceled or somthing and an opening band for The Used like...cant make it to that show er somthing so..we're gonna be opening for The Used" Matt answered

"how fucking awesome is that?" Jesse said

"that is amazing...very lucky" she said, she decided that she wasnt going to speak a word about Bryan unless she had too, she wanted to forget about it for a while.

"yep, you could come if you wanted" Jesse hinted again

"i dont think so" she said

"your loss" Matt said trying to end the conversastion.  They arrived to his house and got out.

"nobodies here yet." Matt said pointing out the obvious, "they should start getting here any second though."   the first few minutes when nobody was there yet were akward, matt was moving furnitture around to make more room and Jesse was pretty much just following Elli around, comin on to her and flirtting and such.  she wondered if she made the right choice by coming.  he noticed the annoyed look on her face and handed her a beer,

 "makes the pain go away?" he suggested in a joking manner but was kind of serious at the same time.  She took the beer and walked off in the oppositte direction, he followed her,

"have you ever drank before?" he asked

"yeah"

"get drunk?"

"yeah"

"do you plan on gettin drunk tonight?"

"what the fuck? at least wait til i've had a few to be that stupid" she said rolling her eyes, people were just starting to show up, she recognized most of them from school, alot ended up being her friends, and then there were some she had never seen before.  She started trying to mingle with the people there, she was on her second drink now, but it was helping her to take her mind off everything, Jesse could tell.  After a few hours Elli was having fun, she had around 5 drinks when she started feeling dizzy and clumsy.  She was dancing with one of her friends from school to the loud music, she was obviously drunk when she got pushed backwards almost falling and breaking a lamp behind her, Jesse was there and caught her inches away from the lamp.

"yourreee soo coonsiddderate.." she said, all her words slurred

"you know it" he said, he was barely on his 2nd drink

"no..really..your jus...your GREAT" she said, obviously out of her mind

"okay okay, hey wana go hang out upstairs before matt gives a toast er somthing" he asked hoping she was drunk enough to agree

"nuu uhh..i know what your trying to dooo" she said shakiing her head back and forth,

"i just want to hang out, show you somthin" he said trying to convince her

"i dont think so...your an assss hole!" she said goofily

"why is that?"  she thought for  a second

"i dunnno...you just are"

"i kept you from breaking that lamp, the least you could do is just go upstiars with me, its just a lil stroll" he said, he wasnt giving up

"welllllllllllll if its just a STROLL...i guess i can..i mean...you did..."she forgot what she was going to say next,

"cmon" he said grabbing her hand and leading her up the staircase...

   When Bryan got back to the room after walking Elli out Tye was laying on his side on his bed with his headphones on.  He looked pissed,

"whats up?" Bryan asked, Tye took his headphones off

"nothing, why what the fuck do you think is up?" god this kid had rapid mood swings

"i dont know..you seemed pissed"

"why would i be pissed, its not like everyone here has people that love them that come to visit them and i have no one er somthing...o wait" he grumbled

"oh..well im sure someone cares"

"no, nobody does. if i wasnt here i could basically just kill myself and nobody would care, i doubt anyone would even fucking notice"

"thats not true, theres always someone"

"no there isnt"

"well i would be pretty upset if you did something like that"

"yea sure you would. anyway i wasnt saying i was going to i was just saying that IF i did thats how it would be"

"whatever you say. just dont do it okay?"

"whatever, well...Elli seemed nice"

"yeah, she is."

"how the fuck did you end up with her? she seems like one of those people that doesnt like drama like you obviously got"

"yea...i dont really know...we have been friends for the longest time and it kinda turned into more...i never really told her what was going on with me until she found out for herself a while ago"

"oh."

"yeah...wana go get a movie er somthin?"

"whatever..we have a shitty selection but sure."  the guys got up and walked to an activity room where movies were kept for the people staying there to check out and watch.  there was a horrible selection since there coudnt be anything with too much fighting/violence, drugs, alcohol, or smoking.  thats great, there like what, 2 movies like that.

"why the fuck are these all disney movies?" bryan asked

"ha ha they dont have alice and wonderland" Tye laughed

"ugh...lets just get like...ugh i duno...lets get...lion king ha ha" he asked...then he remeberd simbas dad dies..and tye's dad died..and that would prbly piss him off

"holy fuck your kidding me!" he said, "when did we get nightmare before christmas?"

"like i know"

"well...its not great but its good enough, lets just get this"

"okay"

"its better than lik..napolean dynamite or some shit....we deal with enough demented people around here."

"hell yeah"  an employee glared at them, first becuase they were making fun of patients and second because they were swearing and swearing is bad. 

 

   Elli was walking home when she stopped at a Walgreens for a mountain dew and some chips, she decided she would go off her 'diet' for a while, she was to stressed to manage it, she couldnt control anything why did she think she could control this.  While she was waiting in line with the food and the latest AP magazine Jesse showed up with a 24 pack of beer and bags of chips.

"hey whatcha doin?" he asked

"nothing." she replied avoiding eye contact, she didnt feel like dealing with him

"well wana come to matts house for a party tonight?" he asked

"no"

"cmon..its a celebration, our bands going to chicago in a few days to play our first real show"

"how could you do that? bryan wouldnt be there"

"duh..we replaced him"

"WHAT?"

"we reaplaced him, he wasnt doing so great anyway and even if he was he couldnt come for obvious reasons"

"well fuck that..."

"aw cmon..it will be fun, you could even come with us to chicago, you were our first groupie..your like..obligated"

"i was never your 'groupie' i watched you guys cuz im bryans girlfriend"

"well you could still be our first groupie" he said with a smirk

"no thanks"

"cmon..its not like it will be just be and matt, hes waiting in the car btw, but no, theres gonna be a ton of girls guys...transvestites..." he joked

"well..."

"OH! you know you want to cmon...if anything come for the beer, great stress reliever" he said convincingly, "i know you gotta be stressed right now..with bryan being in the"

"shut up! stop spreading shit about him!"

"who me? spread stuff about him? not me" he acted innocently

"yea, wutever i know you are"

"just cmon? im trying to do somthing nice" she could see through it but she decided she didnt have much to lose, she didnt want to go home and she didnt want to talk to her other friends, she didnt want them to ask about him.

"i guess..." she said

"great!" he replied.     they both bought their items, of course he used a fake id, and they walked out to the truck where matt was waiting. 

"look who decided to join us" Jesse said

"oh..hey Elli" Matt said looking down, he seemed confused and embarrassed.  he hadnt really talked to her since bryan left,

"hey" she said, squishing into the back seat with junk, food, and beer. Jesse got in the front passenger seat and they speed off in the direction of Matt's house.  This was going to be an intresting night

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK i JUST wrote part 29 and didnt copy it er nething and stuff and yea i went to post it and DAMN BUZZNET deleted it as it went to post it. dandy right. yea fuck yea....especially becuase it was super long and i dont want to waste the time to write it again

do you know how disturbing it is to get up from your computer at school, pick up some papers from teh printer come back and see a bunch of herpes infacted areas on your screen???

It is VERY Disturbing!!!!!!!!

Lesson of the Day: Always shield your eyes.

 

OH em EF gee....(the f stands for fucking), i should put a lesson of the day after every journal that would be intresting. but i prbly wont do it.

did u know that they made saddaam hussien actionfigures with a noose around its neck, i totally want one so then i will get some fob dolls and haf lik...fall out boy hang sadaam hussien....

ha ha morbid lil freakin ass doll.

the horrors have huge eyes and are scary looking(i think they could also be tinier than beckett)

i am a procrastinator really bad

mikey way in a speedo

jimmy kimmel=retarded

 

so i think im getting stupider haha.

no its 6:32 pm right now right, right. well i just woke up and thought htat it was morning cuz i guess i fell asleep so i freaked out cuz my alarm clock hadnt gone off, i ran upstairs took a shower, ran back downstairs and saw that the simpsons were on.  i was lik FUCK...i just got thought the morning was now, i was so worried cuz i dint do my hw.  gah now im tired. haha

 

ah yes so the new year is....going..okay....good thing was i got my hair dyed red again but with black underneath and i think its pretty okay, i might get it cut layered so the black is more noticable cuz it took a few ppl a while to notice it :)

 

yeaness...sooooo im prbly gonna get my taste of chaos tix 2maro, wait no.....the next day cuz i gota babysit tomarrow. but yeah....okay..not that anyone cares but yea thats wuts goin down

peace out

 

  After a painfully long week of waiting to see eachother it was finally wednesday.  Bryan's week had consisted of the same boring routine as last time.  The 2nd day he was there he got a full body check up, the checked his weight, blood pressure, heart rate, fat shit, they checked his body for marks, of course the only ones they could find were the 2 short lines on his wrist and they already knew about that.  Upon finding no other marks from self-harm they decided they would let him keep his braclette as long as he had his wrist checked every morning and night.  Later the 2nd day he confrenced with a diet docter and a few other ana/mia kids that were in the facility with him, most of them were girls and they were way thinner than he was, he felt like he was out of place, these girls had problems, he was okay.  He didnt starve himself and throw up becuase he wanted to be accpeted like some of them, he honestly did it for the control and the natural high it gave him.  There was only one other guy in the group and at first he thought they might have somthing in common, but they didnt, he decided not to eat because he hated fat, he was afraid of it, he belonged here, Bryan did not.  The rest of the days that week were meetings and support groups as usual. and than after a long day of ignoring the stupid people there he got to go back to his room with 'Tye Die' and his stuffed rabbit.

"have a good day?" Tye asked sarcastically, his rabbit next to his bed as he was up playing his nintendo DS

"oh yeah, super fun" Bryan said back in the same tone with a hint of laughter

"dont let them here you laughing" said Tye, "your emo"

"what the fuck is it with you and lables? you say im emo, you say your scene yet you have a fricken stuffed rabbit with you all the time, thats real fucking tuff"

"this gay ass rabbit is the last thing i got before my mom and dad died retard" Tye said defensivly, "why the fuck do you think im here, im messed up cuz my parents are dead thats why, why do you think im obsesed with death, becuase the only people that ever cared for me are DEAD so shut the FUCK up moron!" he spat

".....oh....." Bryan said embarrassed, why did this kid have to put up such a tuff front when he was really attatched to a rabbit becuase he missed his parents, why couldnt he just act how he really was?

"yea, so..shut up.  why the fuck are you so in love with that gay-ass braclette?" he asked, was he trying to attempt a civil conversastion?

"i wear the braclette cuz its my girlfriends and she has mine and they're matching and it shows how much we love eachother" he said, "it reminds me of  the only person that cares."

"yea but you have your parents and shit at least"

"yeah, my dad left, hes real fun to talk to bout shit and yea, my moms not, thats why i got into pills and eating disorders and....shit in the first place, she tries to control evertying i do and when she cant she sends me here so they can control me. its my life, i can control what i want and Elli is the only person in the world who makes me feel lik i actually matter, what i say does count."

"Elli is your girlfriend?" Tye asked

"yeah....do you have one?"

"pft...no"

"oh."

"i did though..she just broke up with me becuase i was alwasy getting into trouble stealing and shit, and because i guess i was an ass to her when i was drunk er stoned er somthing."

"oh...well i guess thats a reason if i ever heard one"

"yeah, shut up, i couldnt help it, im messed up remmber"

"ok....yea well whatever, wanna just try and keep shit normal around here so were not always fighting and crap"

"yea wutever, but if you act all pussy like er somthing im not talking to you"

"yeah..dont worry bout it...."

"yea good."

"you know you dont have to act so tough though."

"im not acting."

"okay well...you dont have to BE so tough all the time. its not like we have all the shrinks observing us while we're in here"

"whatever. im going to sleep."

"yeah..me too...visiting day is tomarrow and i cant wait to see Elli"

"well woots for you....i get to sit around here and do nothing as usual. fun fucking shit."

"yea, well...'night"

" 'night".

 

   The next day Elli came at 12 o'clock noon on the dot, right when the visiting hour started, they met in the 2nd lobby, the one that came after the long hallway from the main lobby.  It was pretty big and there were tables set up for those who couldnt be trusted alone with guests and needed to be supervised, they checked Elli for any drugs, razors etc. and let her in so they could hang out wherever they wanted.  As soon as Elli saw Bryan she ran to him and gave him a big hug,

"this sucks so bad, i miss you too much!" she said into his ear still hugging him tight, he hugged her back just the same

"i know...i screwed up, i'll be out soon...well....soon enough" he whispered back, they broke the hug and she stepped back a foot,

"you dont seem any different" she joked, looking him up and down, same jeans and band shirt, same glasses...the only thing that seemed like it could be different was his hair was a little messier and he was a little less shaven, you could barely even tell though.

"yeah, nothings really changing, hey wana go hang out in 'my room'?" he asked

"yeah sure...wait, dont you have lik...an angry roommate er whatever"

"eh we're pretty okay right now, hes hanging out outside today doing whatever, people dont usually hang out there in this cold of whether when they have guests but he doesnt have any"

"oh...that sucks"

"yeah"  They were at room #444, "welcome to my humble aboade" he said, qouting a movie they had seen together ages ago,

"oh its....great" she said, trying to seem posative for him, looking around the very plain room she saw 2 dressers 2 desks, 2 beds adn that was about it.  oh a tv and there was a small door leading to what she assumed was a small bathroom, she was correct.  Bryan sat down on his bed, she sat down next to him.

"so..what do you do all day?" she asked, both of them were trying to avoid the akward conversastion of what was really going on

"nothing, just shit i gotta do, talk to people, get weighed, talk to more people, chill"

"oh...what do you want to do now?"

"i duno" he replied, "im pretty happy just being here with you"

"thats so sweet" she said leaning in towards him, he put his arm around her, "im sorry you have to be here Bryan" she said softly messing with his hair

"yeah...im sorry you have to come to this shitty place to see me"

"i would go any where to see you, its so hellish without you, i mean...yea jesse, he wont leave me alone"

"sorry bout him, i cant stand that fucking kid"

"just forget about it, he's nothing, its not doing anything but annoying me" she said, she didnt want to make him angry in any way shape er form

"well...okay, if your fine with him"

"yea, its okay, i just want you to be okay"

"well, im okay if your okay" he said and he leaned in a little closer and kissed her, she kissed him back and in a few moments it had turned into a romantic little kissy make out section.  Of course right at this time was when Tye decided he would come in from the cold autumn air.

"awww isnt that just AdorAble!" he said sarcastically, he was a very sarcastic guy, Elli pulled out of Bryans kiss and looked to Tye, her cheeks turned bright pink with embarassment, Bryan was pretty red himself.

"no need to stop kids, no need to be embarassed, thats what lil lovebirds like you two are suppossed to be doing, im just glad i came when i did and not any later" he joked

"yea wutever, you wouldnt have seen much more than this anyway" Bryan told him, Elli nodded quickly

"jeeze, for loving eachother you two are awefully embarrased about it" he said

"just fuck off Tye" Bryan said, he just wanted to be with Elli, no matter what they did he really was just happy seeing her.

"eh whatever, you two are gross anyway, oh by the way, Dr. Shitface wants you kids to know you got lik....5 minutes left" he said leaving the room

"that went by too quickly" Elli said saidly

"i know...sorry if he embarrassed you at all"

"i dont want to go home without you Bryan..cant your grandparents let you out or somthing?"

"i dont think they could if they wanted to, but they dont cuz they dont want me to hurt myself either"

"oh...but dont they - " she was interuppted by a tall man with short curly brown hair and dark brown eyes, "hey, visiting time is over guys" he said loudly, like they wouldnt hear him er somthing, he was lik 8 feet away.  Elli got up from the bed and Bryan stood up with her

, I'll walk with you out" he said, he wanted to spend every second he could with her. 

"okay...thanks" she said looking down, she was always embarrassed when other people were around, she felt like they were always judging their relationship.  why would such a awesome guy be dating such an ugly looser lik her.  then she realized, she was in a rehab/hospital facility, everyone there was messed up, she should be feeling like the most normal one there, yet she still felt more fucked up than anyone there"

 

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hoped u liked...obviously it wasnt such a downer like most of em are..i guess its just the new years spirit..or that i havent slept in over a day...or maybe its just that its nice to not have drama every single part, who knows though right. who really knows

there are just a few

 

• ryan ross(or other member from panic) follows in pete wentz's footsteps(photowise)
• Gerard Way does hair some more, cuts, grows out, does crazy shit yeah, its all good
• gerard way stays sober, quites smoking?
• William Beckett eats a cheeseburger..and likes it
• new cds will be good(motion city, from first to last etc.)
• fob cd either is amazing or completly sell out -  u decide
• sonny moore's throat gets better and they actually complete a tour
• i will be pissed becuase mcr is skipping WI in ther upcoming tour
• Envy on the Coast and Endless Hallway get big
• Hopefully Jamestown Story will too
• that 70s show should come back, with erick and kelso and stuff..that would be awesomely fun
• SCRUBS owns u all
• Jared Leto is declared the official Jesus of the nation
• hip hop and rap dies?
• new jared leto movies will be really good
• shannon leto will stop being such a prick
• gerard way will let me meet him
• gerard way will let me have a staring contest with him...and i'll never look away
• josh peck gains back weight he lost and looks like himself again(jus cuz i had a conversastion bout this the other day)
• MCR's video for Famous last words will be amazingly wonderful, they will be back with their old AMAZING videos...hopefully it will be that good
• Panic's cd new cd will die instantly

 

okay so..those turned out to be more like...wishes or hopes..but still....yeah....good stuff

Alright dawgs...sorry...time for a small list of some cool and not cool stuff that happened in 2006 and we'll start the list off with the very first one, the rest arent really in a particular order although i will try, i promise i will try.

 

• New Years Party 2006....it was exactly a year ago omg!
• A Little Less Sixteen Candles, a Little More Touch me video premires
• The Black Parade video premires
• This Aint a Scene video premires *and fucking owns, far above any other FOB video*
• Sneak peak at new FOB stuff....worries..hopes to love...
• Sneak peak and getting excited for MCR's new stuff
• THE BLACK PARADE ALBUM HELLS THE FUCK YEAH
• did u hear that Gerard Way cut all his hair AND dyed his hair...BLONDE?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
• ...And Mikey Way got LASIC?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
• Wait....Gerard has black hair again...(but the blond may return for upcoming tour?)
• Warped Tour 2006 - good stuff
• Welcome to the Universe Tour!!!!!!
• Y2K + 7 (we didnt die in a big fluffy cloud of ow!"
• Mikey Way gets happier :)
• Gerard Way STILL SOBER !!!!!
• Sonny Moore - throat surgery sucks
• FFTL off Warped tour(i still saw em) and kicked off other tour(HOES!)
• Black Clouds and Uunderdogs Tour)
• OkGo  - Damn Ass Treadmill Video is good
• OkGo  - Practically forget about their first fans in the juggling club(UPDATE THE DAMN STORE ALREADY I GOT LIKE A  TON OF POINTS I WANT TO USE)
• Panic At The Disco gets big
• Panic At The Disco gets lame
• Lollapalooza 2006 - great lineup
• Lollapalooza signs contract to have Grant Park host for 11 years(good for me cuz i live close enuf to go if i want)
• Jared Leto beats people up!
• Cobra Starship starts up and is kickass
• i think petey's pics wer from 2006, they might have been from 2005....im not sure..eitherway...its still funny
• when fob was on jimmy kimmel and the guy asked pete to touch his 'mustasche' omg...i died laughing
• Bert McCracken writes SUCH a good song about gerard way that gerard will wish he would have written it ??? ass fuck(but luv the music)
• Hellogoodbyes full length cd comes out(but the ep was better)
• And Then I Turned Seven's Pat becomes homeless and sleeps under bridge :(
• And Then I Turned Seven changes name to Jamestown Story
• LIFE ON THE MURDER SCENE OWNS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *luvs dearly*
• From First to Last's Heroine is WONDERFUL-ER than you..but only by a skosh
• ...i still cant get over mcr......i never will either

 

Now for some personal events of my own that make me remember 2006

• falls in love with wonderful music like My Chemical Romance
• See's Motion City Soundtrack with OkGo
• Meets Damian and Andy from OkGo and got autographs and pictures
• Awesome birthday *high off helium*
• first twirp experiance
• makes lots of new best friends
• see's coldplay for some reason?
• Black Clouds and Underdogs Tour(omg......i fell in luv with Sonny Moore)
• Got New better computer
• got new better camera
• discovered buzznet!!!
• Warped Tour 2006....hell yeah..got into soooooo many new bands SO MANY
• meets MCS and gets autographs
• meets FFTL(besdies Matt Good) and gets autographs(erica huggs)
• Meets Greeley Estates
• Summerfest...falls in luv with 30STM *got large percentage on tape*
• goes through super super horrible time
• goes to Lollapalooza, it turned out to be a let down but still
• Homecoming with friends fun fun fun
• Halloween party of goodness
• Cousin has ADORABLE baby Christan Hans
• super unhappiness some more
• Welcome to the Universe Tour........falls in luv with envy on the coast
• meets envy on the coast and gets hugs and autographs
• meets 30stm gets autographs, hug from jared leto and discovers shannons a prissy bitch
• Ian admits he would go gay for Jared Leto
• FOB dolls(haf flat asses)
• discover i have a small talent for poetry
• MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE CONCERT
• met Frank Iero, Mikey Way and Bob Bryar, got autographs
• Had conversastion with Bob and kinda Frank
• hugged Frank
• Frank hug lost to Andi(but it was a great person to loose a hug from)
• meets Gabe Saporta(GAY GOLD GLITTERY GABE)
• Creates WIG(you will shop there one day
• And Then I Turned Seven Concert....met 3 of them and got picture, we were the only ppl signing along practically

yep so i think thats it...mostly good stuff that i remember wtihout looking for it so i guess thats the important stuff!

hope you have a fun year!